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a poem in which john and rodney have a… conversation (in the style of e. e. cummings)
(also posted with full notes and credits on AO3)
i was looking for something else said he
(who isn’t i was no big deal said he
that coin toss who knew just blind luck said he)
and i was looking where you looked said he
(now i’m looking at something else said he
oh are you i mean can i too said he
well yeah sure just get a mirror said he)
i was looking for something more said he
(oh like what said he
not a joke said he
not joking said he
liking that said he)
do you see said he
no mirror said he
mirror me said he
oh i see said he
my hands on your hips said he
your cheeks in my palms said he
my breath on your lips said he
(just shut up and kiss said he
then let me hear you said he
then make me feel you said he)
too many clothes said he
well let’s lose those said he
(i want you closer said he
oh yes come closer said he
already so close said he)
yes now!together said he
(i still never see it coming said he
looks like you’re not the only one said he)
but you’re the only one you see said he
(then we see the same thing again said he)
“It’s still a story without an ending.” — Casablanca
I kinda wanted to title this “love triangle” but that’s not really the mood I am going for, lol
This is fantastic
been thinking about a zelda breath of the wild au for mcshep
something about a twisted combination of magic and ancient technology giving you a grand destiny you never wanted. something about wanting to study and analyze this technology but instead being asked to have blind faith and hating it even more when evidence suggests blind faith actually works. something about not having the first clue when it comes to what you really want to do and who you really are so you go along with everyone else telling you it’s your job to save the world. something about still trying to live up to the impossible expectations of your dead father. about spending countless years of your life on a desperate plan to leave something that will help the hero you love when he wakes up in the distant future. something about waking up in a different world and knowing you failed because you left the person you love to continue the fight all alone. something about fate and cruel gods weaving your destiny across time and space and having to keep moving because you’re all that’s left and your friends’ and family’s deaths would mean nothing if you give in to the urge to give up
Have at it, my lovelies! It’ll be open until near the end of April!
I think someone asked me this a while back, and I can’t remember if I gave a coherent answer or not (mostly because my Trek ships are Complicated™) but any Spirk AU I can think of for McShep will always have Sheppard as Spock mainly because of these two key thoughts:
- For some reason, I always see Rodney inevitably becoming the Atlantis Expedition Commander in the future (which, though not the SGC’s worst decision ever, is still A Pretty Bad Move) and I can just hear John Sheppard saying, “Being a scientist is your first, best destiny. Anything else is
a waste of materialutter bullshit.” - I find that most of SGA is really just a setup for Sheppard declaring to one Meredith Rodney McKay, “I have been and always shall be yours.”
You’re in his dms I’m in his nightmares
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Rodney put on his thigh holster, checked his Beretta and slid it inside. He put on his vest and zipped it up. The holster dug into his thigh.
He could never get the straps right. They felt right when he adjusted them, but when he stood up they were too tight, or when he started to move they felt too loose. And then Sheppard would fix them for him. He always did it. It was part of their routine.
He bent down and undid one of the clips, grumbling.
“Do you need help, Rodney?”
“No. Thanks, Teyla. No.” He made the strap longer, refastened the clip and it pinched his finger. “Ow. Fuck.”
“Here. I’ll do it.” Ronon knelt down in front of him.
“I’ll manage.”
“You’re not managing.”
Ronon began adjusting the straps and Rodney closed his eyes. He wanted it to be Sheppard. He wanted it to be John. It was always John. He was always there, smiling his crooked smile, snarking, teasing, sometimes taking the teasing too far so that Rodney would snap back at him and Teyla would rebuke them both and they’d look at each other and smirk behind her back.
He was always there. Except now he wasn’t. Rodney’s chest ached.
The clips snapped closed, one and then the other. Rodney opened his eyes. Ronon, still crouching on the floor, looked up at him.
“Tell him.”
“What?”
“When we find him, you need to tell him.”
“Sheppard? Tell him what?”
Ronon stood up. “Just tell him, McKay.”
He turned away. Rodney looked at Teyla.
“What? What does he mean? What should I tell Sheppard?”
Teyla clipped her P-90 onto its sling. “You know, Rodney. You know what to tell him.” She followed Ronon out of the room.
They knew, then. They knew what he thought he’d hidden beneath layers of sarcasm. They’d seen past his attempts at finding a substitute - mooning over Sam, dating Katie Brown and now Jennifer.
Jennifer’s fresh, smiling face appeared in Rodney’s mind. She was a beautiful, caring, intelligent-off-the-scale, wonderful person and he was lucky to have her. He was lucky, really he was.
Tell him. You know what to tell him.
Rodney took a long, slow breath. Tell him? Why? Sheppard saw him as a friend, nothing more. And anyway, what was the point in thinking that far ahead?
They had to find Sheppard first. They just had to find him.
Epilogue of New Beginnings now posted!
I made it!!! The two-part epilogue of New Beginnings is now posted
Part1: John makes a confession, and kinky fun ensues…
‘Okay, I give up. I don’t get it. We live in a community with an assortment of queer, polyamorous lovers in which there is an entire floor devoted to kinky adult activities. What could possibly be so difficult to talk to me about in this context?’
Part2:Finally I resolve the entire, very soft, reason why this fic was written at all.
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I hope you enjoyed my mushy, smutty epic.