It’s been a while, hasn’t it? How are you? Have you been doing well?
A lot has happened since I last checked in but you know, there is this one constant that’s been hanging on to me ever since I have met them and yes, it’s the same dummy I have been telling you about, Mother.
How should I put this? For some reason her presence around me had become something that I continuously look forward to. I didn’t know when it started but lately, all that I could think about is how I wanted to revel in the time and effort she had given me throughout the years of knowing each other.
I want to cherish her, Mother. I want her to know just how much she means to me and I think… I’m getting there.
You kept saying that I should open my heart more and let people know just how much they mean to me and she… she taught me how to. She keep on teaching me ways to express myself more and I couldn’t be any more glad that she did.
She even came up with another silly surprise just for today. All because she wanted me to feel cherished and loved on my special day.
You’d like her, mom. Maybe even love her the way you love me.
And uh. She’s calling me now. Something about making another wish of some sort. I’ll talk to you again soon, Mother. Take care.
Have we come to a full circle with the birthday prompts? Yes. Yes we did. You know what that means right? I think I’m reaching an anniversary with these prompts.
Started somewhere in feb or march I think. lol. Wow. What a journey this has been. Do I want to continue? Of course.
Anyway, Happiest Birthday to you my beloved Victor.
“Do you know that sometimes… I worry about you, you know?” her voice muffled by the sweet sound of lull, sleepiness trying to take over her. “I worry a lot about you… and maybe even scared for you.”
Despite the silence permeating in the room, she dared continue, throwing her head back until the wall behind her supported her, pulling her knees up to her chin. “Sometimes, I get scared at the thought of leaving you be, all by yourself surrounded by your thoughts and emotions. Leaving you unguarded with that high fortress you built upon yourself.”
“Sometimes, I wonder if I am able to climb up- if I could even climb these immeasurable walls you built for yourself.”
Letting out a shaky breath as she turned her head to the side, lips dangerously close to the barrier between them. “But I want to try, you know? I am trying. So please… don’t shut yourself on me, okay?”
She shouldn’t. Oh god, she shouldn’t. But she couldn’t not stare at him.
The way his long sleeves were rolled up to his forearm, him being unaware at the way it highlights the veins decorating his forearms, his graceful movements as he glided through the kitchen as if he knew it from the back of his hand despite not being his own, and the way his face looked oddly at peace despite cutting some onions.
For some reason, these all felt domestic for her. Too domestic… andtoo unrealistic.
She shouldn’t. She couldn’t. But oh god, how she wished to at least revel in this moment.
“What is it now?” she hated how his voice can immediately break her reverie when not even her closest friend can do so. “You looked all too lost in your day dreams again, dummy.”
Letting out a small nervous laugh, she averted her gaze from him, trying to reign her rampaging feelings deep down.
“Nothing,” she answered all too quickly. “It’s nothing.”
She really need to shove all these emotions deep down.
Fun fact: Nandemonaiya is my favorite song in Kimi no Na Wa. There’s just so much pinning and angst in that song.
“Do you think…” her voice is quiet, almost blending into the night as she clutched her phone to her chest, wondering if she should even finish the sentence. Knowing him, and knowing what had just transpired, it would do her good to just outright say it- lest she wanted another round of raised voices and frustrated groans. “Do you think we’ll last?”
How can the silence between them become too unbearable? When had it stopped being so comfortable with him?
Maybe it’s the distance, her heart thumped. Maybe it’s because of the workload and the timing just don’t make sense.
Or, in another part of her brain, maybe it’s because life had gotten in the way and they had been all too consumed by everything they didn’t say.
Had they always been like this? When did the distance between them grew? How can they keep up with the silence stretched between them?
At the other side of the call, he let out a small sigh, making her heart shatter.
“I… don’t know,”
She could already imagined the half-dimmed hotel room, the scattered paper works he should’ve been looking at the moment.
She could feel him waning until all that’s left was a defeated shell of a man.
Hello there and welcome to Victor’s birthweek prompts. I’ll be dropping different prompts for Victor for seven days with the last prompt being birthday.
Anyway. I’m kinda having little to no energy with writing so there’s not really much activity in my blog so just expect me popping out of nowhere and then disappearing from time to time.
Things you said when you’re trying to figure it out
“I don’t know why,” he spoke, hands flying in gestures as she watched on with these big doe eyes widened with amusement. “but I can’t voice out these thoughts to you.” he groaned, making her curl her mouth in a small smile.
“It’s like… as if like I buffer around you.”
Raising an eyebrow, she tilted her head at him, trying to make sense of what he had just dropped on her. “Oh?” she asked, not missing the way he shoot her pointed looks. “Should I be offended?”
“Yes,” he grunted, exasperated. “And it’s just you! I don’t know why but it’s just you who I am like this. To others, I have no qualms of letting them know of my thoughts of them.”
“Huh,” her mouth pressed in a thin line, looking up as if the thought had just occurred. “Then I really should be offended.”
Peeking from his place, he let out another groan. “You’re not taking this seriously,” he observed as he watched another smile blossom on her. “Why are you not taking this seriously?”
“I am!” she let out a small nervous laugh, trying her best- and failing- to assure him. “I am taking this seriously! It’s just… do pray tell, what can’t you tell me?”
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