#musing
I'm t r y i n g to come clean
[ I W I L L be a me ]
ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪs ᴍɪɴᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ F I R E ᴀɴᴅ B L O O D
your haunts me like a r i n g i n g in my ear
you left me long ago YOU’RE STILL EVERYWHERE
i’mcontent with loneliness
—— and it scares me that it doesn’t scare me yet
just because it could always get WORSE
don’t mean it don’t HURT
in a minute i’m apathetic
OVERWHELMINGLY just okay
by the hour i’m so pathetic
a MANIC in disarray
she sold her s o u l for diamond rings
now she can’t feel a n y t h i n g
HEAVY, HEAVY LIES THE CROWN
daddy’s little princess with a sailor’s mouth
… .
[ she’s just trying to get the biggest body count in town ]
i SWEAR we had the best intentions
( WHAT THE HELL ARE THEY NOW ? )
[ I THINK ITS TIME THAT YOU COME BACK HOME, SON ]
fire’s still scorching, you’ve been scorned, and you look abused
I SETTLED MY GRIEVANCE BY CRAFTING A MASK
( AND I NEVER LOOKED BACK )
D A R L I N G , CAN’T YOU SEE ?
I’M A BROKEN MAN
WITH ADDICTIVE TENDENCIES.
WAIT JUST A MOMENT!
— I CAN DROP MY VALUES!
SHE SAID I’M LOOKING LIKE A BAD MAN, SMOOTH CRIMINAL
SHE SAID MY SPIRITDOESN’TMOVELIKE IT DID BEFORE
SHE SAID THAT I DON’T LOOK LIKE ME NO MORE, NO MORE
SPOILER ALERT : EVERYBODY DIES
AND THEN I JUST SNAPPED.
and as the world comes to an end
i’ll be here to hold your hand —
‘CAUSE YOU’RE MY KING AND I’M YOUR LIONHEART.
WHEN I CALL MYSELF A SHELL, I MEAN :
// a used up bullet casing
// the aftermath of something lethal
// an echo of inflicted evil
MARTYR ME : I DARE YOU.