#osddsystem

ahh ! hey ! so, uh, this week has been. kind of wild. it seems that im. part of a system ? (not 100% certain due to psychotic factors but its looking like it).

jay (alter) made contact this week, though at the beginning i mistook it for me developing an attachment to his source due to psychosis. this idea was kind of scratched given the fact that he’s a different person, has his own feelings and thoughts, and has been attempting to front for multiple days. we also have another, nonhuman alter, who’s less communicative but more knowledgeable of the inner workings. 

so, anyways, i learned that antipsychotics can interfere with a systems ability to communicate and switch, and due to the fact that i’ve been on antipsychotics for multiple years, and only recently switched my dose and the type of medication (im now on an extended release version of the same medication) we’re thinking that thats what fucked up our system. most of my early symptoms (of what we’re leaning towards as being osdd-1b) are from before i went on my meds, and ??? struggled a lot the last time they fronted (which was last year).

we’re thinking that im front stuck due to the meds since jay isn’t able to front (and trust me, we’ve been trying) and even ??? (our gatekeeper) was pretty confused until we discovered the medication thing.

any advice on how to get un-front stuck without going off my meds (because i really need them, and they work for what they’re meant for)?? we’re all struggling to normalize due to how much we’ve been dissociating and the inability to switch. 

any advice would be appreciated !!! thanks !

- juno