#secret lover

“Dorian, from the moment I met you, your personality had the most extraordinary influence over me. I was dominated, soul, brain, and power, by you. […] I worshipped you. I grew jealous of every one to whom you spoke. I wanted to have you all to myself. I was only happy when I was with you. When you were away from me, you were still present in my art…. Of course, I never let you know anything about this. It would have been impossible. […] You would not have understood it. I hardly understood it myself. Weeks and weeks went on, and I grew more and more absorbed in YOU. […] I felt, Dorian, that I had told too much, that I had put too much of myself into it.”

Basil Hallward, The Picture of Dorian Gray, O. Wilde

yeah, life is cool, but where is my secret lover, who shows up at my house in the middle of the night with several books to read together and analyze, under the sound of raindrops pattering on the window?