#septembertod
Back in 2014 I experienced an internship at a hospice and I met this old lady who suffered from lung cancer. She spent her whole life working and studying. Everything she had left was her cat and one friend. One evening, we had a very long conversation about priorities and in that night she taught me that it’s about what I want and how I feel good and not about what anyone is expecting. She taught me how important I am myself and that there’s no one or anybody who’s any more important in my life. I asked her if it was her decision to end up as lonely as she was on that point of time. She said she didn’t decide to be lonely, but for that very short moment she made all of her decisions she felt alright. She was good. And happy. And that’s everything that counts. She told me not to worry about what could be one day. She taught me that everything I should worry about is how I feel right now.
This conversation changed me. It changed my whole mind. It made me start to stop cutting and hurting myself.
This lady is surely not alive anymore, but I can proudly say that she gained a friend before her death. Or at least she gained someone, who’s always gonna remember her.
And I wanted to spread her legacy. Her wisdom.
I hope you can find a sense for your life out of this short story.May this awesome woman rest in the most beautiful place in paradise GOD could find for her.
Being in this world knowing that you’re not is just so fucking hard.
