I’m going to be brutally honest with all of you.

I’m not feeling this blog anymore. It’s hard. I’ve tried time and time again to get the motivation to continually update, I’ve tried to ramp up the interaction I have with you all.

It’s not enough; I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong, but it’s just not working out.

I don’t think I’ll ever give up writing but this blog is nearing its end.

As of Saturday night, this blog will be purged of writing; all of my fics will be moved to ao3 where I’ll continue to write fanfiction on my own time.

I’m not sure that I’m going to deactivate this blog….I’ve had it for years. It really became a place for me where I retreated to when shit was hard. It feels like giving up one home to move to another. I don’t have the magnetic charm a lot of other writers have. I’m not good at talking to you. I’m not funny and I don’t keep up with requests. I’m just lazy, and that doesn’t have to be a bad thing.

I’ve made some really really really good friends here and I am always going to love and cherish them! I don’t want to part ways forever. I’ll leave my snap with my mutuals if anyone wants it.

Me asking y'all to spam my inbox and getting no messages

I deadass spoiled the entire multiverse of madness movie for myself JUST to see if Loki was going to be in it.

I literally ruined the months long build up and the entire experience for the HOPE of a GLIMPSE of a CRUMB of Loki content

monthly shoutout

May 2022

Before I get to the actual Monthly Shoutout part of the Monthly Shoutout Post, I wanted to make a teeny little announcement!

Some of you may already know that I am Buddhist! A little Buddhist holiday is coming up tomorrow, May 6th, and I’m going to host a celebration all day long! Stay tuned for information on that ❤️

I’m well aware that I’ve been behind on writing in general, not to mention all of your amazing requests! All I can say is that I love and appreciate everyone’s patience ❤️⭐️

Fic Recs:

Layla El Faouly

A Cello Solo, by @darkened-writer WOOOOW. So I requested this because I had the prompt on my mind for so long, originally with Loki or Sylvie, but this was so much better than anything I could have done!

Steven Grant, Marc Spector, and Jake Lockley

The Dress, by @xcatnapsx&@love-on-the-murder-scene so far there are two installments of this. I’m sort of praying for a mini series tbh, but either way, this fic duo holds my heart

Devotion, by @laters-gators OBSESSED with subby Steven. As soon as I read mistress I knew I was a goner

Slipped, by @psithurista AHHH. Marc is so well written in this!! I feel so bad for Steven!!!

More Beautiful, by @mykinkyyandere bruhhhhhhhh. This really hits different.

Who you needby@writingdumpster this Steven comfort smut is chef’s kiss worthy

Too Good To Be True, by @divineecelestial this features a dom reader that’s actually good at being a dom. Screaming and crying because Steven DESERVES a good dom

Bad knight, good knightby@babyboibucky I don’t ever take fics seriously when they use a “sir” kink but this one took the cake it was actually so good, I could hear Marc’s voice in my head!!

Just let me dream a little more, by @the-archxr ANGSTY. I LOVE the vigilante! Character x reader thing, so this is magnificent

Where to, miss?By@foxilayde OOOOH MY GOD. I CANT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS. THE TITANIC BIT IS THE CHERRY ON TOP (I have a weird obsession with the titanic don’t ask why bc I don’t know) THIS WAS THE BEST THING IVE EVER HAD THE PLEASURE TO READ

Spare key, by @endofthelinegang Flawlessly executed! The author deployed the perfect writing methods to help the reader imagine everything in great detail! also, JAKEJAKEJAKEJAKE

Resentment, by @dont-feel-so-good-parker UHM AHA. The Jake Smut is so. I don’t. I don’t have the words. He’s such an asshole but jfc I love him

Keep your vigils on the road, by @charnelhouse no words for how good this is, I really can’t tell you enough how badly you should read this!

Hazy, by @aphrogeneias SHIT BRUH THIS WAS. THIS WAS AN EXPERIENCE

Fit to burst, by @astroboots and @thirstwordproblems this was really fucking amazing to read

Venus, planet of love, by @peterthepark uhmmmmm. I’m such a simp for Steven Grant to begin with but holy hell. This was so good I can’t really describe it, the writing was just. Amazing. Even though it’s smut it’s emotional and I can really feel the love between Y/n and Steven!

Egyptology 101, by @moonlit-steven DUDE?! Professor Steven Grant really hits different, donnit? Anyways this was so hot

First time’s a charm,by@babyboibucky AUFHRIEIEI this made my tummy all ⭐️tingly ⭐️

Arthur Harrow

Moon dance by@danny-cordray GAWDDAMN. AN ARTHUR HARROW FIC. CANNOT BELIVE THAT ONE OF SUCH HIGH QUALITY EXISTS

Bucky Barnes

Sweet, sweet releaseby@sweetsweetnuit HNNNGNFNSKKAK that’s all I have to say about that. Bucky definitely uses pet names, i stand by that, and this fic uses such a headcanon as a plot staple!

The Doctor (some 9, mostly 10, some 11, and one 12)

Being His Wife, by @little-spicy My heart HURTS. This is a doctor who imagine for not only 9, but for 10, 11, AND 12. I feel so blessed to have found this

See you now, saw you thenby@ayasstories AKSKDIEIEI. I’m going to think about this for the next week or so. I love 10 but this made me remember how much I also love 11.

Imagine: Coming out as Trans, by @imaginemalereader this was so sweet to read! It made me really happy. I think 10 was written in such good character too!

Imagine: Rose and 10 helping you through a depressive episode by @emcom-imagines Nostaligc; on a serious note, I was way into Doctor Who during a time in my life when I was depressed and always anxious. In a way, rose and the doctor really did help me didn’t they?

History Class,by@doctorslove I WANNA READ MORE OF THIS CONCEPT SK BAD SKDIRIEIDID

Loki Laufeyson

Tease, by @mostly-marvel-musings im addicted to professor Loki and professor Levi fics, so this is a realllllly good Loki one

Sylvie Laufeydottir

Muscle Memory, by @delxcour OUCHIE THIS KILLED ME

Enjoying The View, by @balenciagabucky AHAHAHA this was so delicious?? Omfg just read it

Blog recs:

@doctorslove | MY NUMBER ONE SOURCE FOR MY LOVELY TENTH DOCTOR

@imaginemalereader | this blog has such a wide variety of fandoms! Male reader fics are in high demand and I’m happy to support every male reader fic I find! This blog takes the cake. Absolutely love ❤️

@writeshite | another blog I found bc my sudden doctor who resurgence. Lots of fics for Eddie Brock!

@budcooper | the sinful Sunday posts got me squealing like a piglet frfr

@darkened-writer | my new favorite blog that I’m going to stalk to the ends of the earth

@dragon-baron | Arthur Harrow x reader content is in high demand but this blog is supplying

My badass mutuals

My fellow mutuals, whom I love so much; I wish one day we could have lunch

@preciouspattinson|@interwebseriesfan24@themojobro|@zhellas|@mini-ranger@klaudialaill@floral-and-fine@zeldasayer@riddikulus-obsessions@running-with-the-devil@oyasumimosura@httphimitsu@levi-addiction@sleepytimetwinkletoes