#sucks ass

Here’s a couple from today The only reason I’m mainly posting pics is so that I can get used to being in front of some kind of camera. Ive decided I’m not going to just wing it on videoing. If I’m going to do it then I’ve decided im going to do it right!

I’m in a really, really good mood today because I’ve applied for 2 different jobs so far and tomorrow I have nothing planned other than applying for more jobs. I’m tired of letting my depression get in the way of my life and my goals that I have set for myself. The other day I was just sitting on the couch and got to thinking to myself “I don’t want to be like this forever, I have to do something to over come this.” I figured if I got myself excited about something and gave myself some kind of motivation and some kind of hope to hold onto, then I can over come this depression✊

3 goals I want to accomplish:

1.) Fix my car.

2.)Fix up the trailer.

3.) Find the right kind of people.

Now - I know most of you are probably thinking > Right kind of people, wth?! What I mean by that is people that are/have been where I am right now. I’m tired of feeling worthless and like a piece of shit. I don’t like feeling this way and im tired of putting Whit through it too. He doesn’t deserve to be going through this just because I am. I try to act like nothing is bothering me, I try to act like a happy-go-lucky person around every one at all costs but Whit knows when something is wrong. That’s the perks of a 3 year long relationship, I guess. I guess when you’re around someone for so long you just know when something isn’t right.

Anyways - all I ask is that you guys continue to pray for Whit and I as we continue to go through this long and difficult process. I know God wouldn’t put us through anything we couldn’t handle!✊