#thomas writes
I’m feeling a Captain America AU for Day 5 of Robron week….
brb just thinking about Aaron in the Cap suit.
Snippet from my newest plot bunny! Post Prison Robron with a side of PTSD inspired by @nooneelsecomesclose17 I’m sorry in advance :P
“Seb never told ya why he didn’t go that school dance last year did he?” Robert says. He doesn’t look angry anymore, just defeated. Exhausted.
“He did, he said his mates weren’t going,” Aaron replies with a shrug. “They were all staying in to play Call Of Duty or whatever,”
“They all went Aaron,” Robert continues flatly. “All of them except Seb. He’d asked a girl out in his class and she said yes. Made up he was. Except her Dad found out about me the day before the dance. He didn’t want his daughter getting mixed up with a murderer’s kid,”
Aaron feels as though he’s just taken a shot straight to the heart. He opens his mouth and closes it just as quickly.
“Of course he didn’t tell ya,” Robert replies. He’s smiling and shaking his head but his expression is far from humourous. “He told me. Had it out with me that night. I wasn’t even mad,” he shrugs. “He’s got a right to feel that way. That’s when I started to realise that I do more harm for the boys than good,”
“Robert…no,” Aaron protests. For the past few months he’s been feeling like his heart was breaking. Now he knows that it really is. “Don’t say that. We need ya. I need ya. The boys need ya-“
“The boys need you Aaron. You’ve been their father for the past fourteen years.” Robert’s face has become an expressionless mask. He looks so dead behind the eyes that it shakes Aaron to his very core. Whatever shit they’ve been through before, it’s always been charged with emotion. Whether it’s anger, sadness or happiness. It’s always been with passion. But the man standing before him, overnight bag in hand, is a shadow of his former self. A shell of Robert Sugden.
Aaron feels the tears well up and start to spill over. He wants to be able to say the magic words that will make all of this go away and bring his husband back.
“I need ya…” he repeats. He does. He does. He does. Always.
If Robert hears him, he doesn’t acknowledge it. His grip tightens on the handles of his overnight bag. He turns and walks away. The bedroom door clicks shut behind him.
Here’s a snippet from a post-prison Robron I’m working on (when I should be working on my two other WIPs….whoops!)
“Aaron,” Robert’s voice filters into his thoughts. His husband sounds exhausted. As exhausted as any parent who was raising two teenage boys. When had it all become so hard? They’re always so tired these days….“Yeah Rob?”
“Will’s locked himself in his room,” Robert says with a sigh. He sighs all the time these days. Even when he’s not exasperated. They always seem to slip out. Aaron wonders if Robert even notices any more. “And I’m about to deck Seb,”
With one absent father for most of their young lives, the boys often struggle to relate to Robert. All they’d known was Aaron’s way of doing things, Aaron’s expectations. Robert is a puzzle piece they’re still struggling to connect to.
“What’s going on?” Aaron asks. His own voice sounds dull and hoarse. He’s never exactly been a talker but in the past few months, he’s spoken even less. All of his thoughts, his feelings and his conversations seem to happen in his own head these days.
“No clue,” Robert shrugs. “Seb’s winding Will up about something as usual and Will’s taking it to heart,” he waves a hand. “You sort it out. You’re better at dealing with this shit that I am anyway,”
Robert wasn’t always this way. When he was first released he’d thrown himself into fatherhood full time. His days were focused on building a relationship with his two sons. He went to every single parents evening and extra curricular event. He was there on the front lines at all of Seb’s football games, cheering the team on and taking them all out for a pizza afterwards. He went to every single school production that Will was involved in, whether he was the lead role of a background character with two lines. Something changed over time and Aaron has a horrible feeling that it’s all to do with him.
Somewhere along the line he’d done something wrong. In the brief period that they were all together before Robert got sent down, his husband was a fully fledged family man. Until Aaron did something. There was no other explanation for it. Why else would Robert Sugden-Dingle, self confessed family man, become so withdrawn and act as though he couldn’t stand his own kids and husband?
“Well?” Robert says, irritated. Aaron realizes that he’s drifted off again. It’s happening more and more these days. He’s sure that if he mentioned it to his counselor she’d be able to tell him why but he’s reluctant to admit that, after being stable for so long, he’s starting to fall apart again just like his marriage. “Just deal with them ok? I’m sick of it,”
Robert turns on his heel, ready to stalk out of the room and away from the situation which is happening more often these days. And even though Aaron knows any protestation will start a fight, he does it anyway. After all, at least if they’re fighting, they’re talking right? He’s getting sick of the silent nights that seem to stretch out endlessly.
“Sick of being their father?” Aaron says coolly. Robert freezes in the doorway but doesn’t turn around. “This is what we signed up for Rob. Two kids. All that stuff we went through trying to find a surrogate so I could have Will. All the shit with the Whites. They’re our children Robert,”
If Robert’s hurt or angered by Aaron’s reply, he doesn’t show it. His shoulders are still set and he still doesn’t turn around.
“I’ll go make dinner,”
Aaron stares after his husband, torn between anger and tears. It’s a sad state of affairs when he realises that he wouldn’t be completely surprised if, one day soon, Robert turns and keeps walking. Out of the door. Out of their lives. He threatened as much during their last argument.
Robert may have been released from prison but it seems that the two of them have turned their home into one.
Here for the shameless self promo reblog ;)
My Brain - You should finish the Aaron Sick Fic and also the Ghost au fic you started writing and have already posted
Also My Brain - OH BUT WAIT THO. How about a fic where it’s 5 years since Robert came out of prison and he’s only just beginning to process the trauma causing a rift in his marriage with Aaron and relationship with a teenage Seb???
Look at what I have to work with here. T.T
i wanna write so badlyyyyyy like, just wanna finish ONE fic just. ONE??????
I feel this.
“It’s my day off! Let’s write a new chapter of that fic!”
Brain - “Yeah but MATE. How about about this idea?!”
Me -
