#unsupportive friends

everyone says to stay positive but i’m a 16 year old in so much pain that i can’t even go to school or hang out with friends. i’ve only managed to keep one friend throughout all of this because friendships rely on putting in effort to communicate and being able to talk to/see each other. i can’t be a reliable friend and it makes me feel like a bad person. i hate that all of the plans i had as a kid were ruined. i wanted to get straight A’s and graduate early. i wanted to get a job as soon as possible. i wanted to go to some fancy college and become an author or something. i wanted to move out at 18. but instead i’m barely passing online school, i might not be able to go to college ever, i won’t be able to get a job, and i’ll probably live with my parents for the rest of my life. oh, and i’ll be in pain for every second of the rest of my life.