#vaxildan cr
I’M SO DEPRESSED the way keyleth CANNOT bear to go down and see if it’s actually vax. she sits in the tree she holds his armor close to her chest and she stays, waits. meanwhile vax is on the ground wanting to hug his family but knowing that he shouldn’t be trusted right now and all he wants to do is see her face.
matt: you hear a faint, slow heartbeat. *heartbeat sound*
everyone: …
everyone: okay *about to move on*
matt: *another heartbeat*
everyone: oh it’s THAT slow?
travis: that’s lance armstrong sleeping slow.
sam: that’s 3 beats per minute slow.
marisha: *laughing through her tears*
jesus i am suuuuper fucked up over her tiny “vax?” as she tentatively starts to hug him back,,,the initial vehement rejection of the possibility that he could be alive that comes from a place of self-preservation, a place of knowing that she Won’t survive if she gets her hopes up and loses him for a second time,,all swiftly and inevitably replaced by this naive, uncontrollable hope that it’s real and that she somehow got her brother back
“it’s a trick, it’s a trick of the feywild” I Am Screaming And Crying Right Now
vax seeing the true face of the raven queen and just saying “you have such loneliness in your eyes.” i said liam o'brien what the fuck
“this was supposed to be a weekend trip.”
the way vex is just sitting on the ground, staring at nothing and spiraling. the way percy has to say her name twice to get her attention. the way she looks at him and you can see the quiet tired “what is it dear” in her eyes, even if she can’t find the strength to say it out loud. the way he is so gentle with her in response.
i’m so hashtag depressed over the way vex is normally a decision-maker, a leader, someone who takes control, and keyleth is normally the spell-caster asked to clear the fog, melt the ice, heat the metal, transport the party, and both of them are just. catatonic. barely able to muster a few questions and a cantrip. holding each other and a set of empty armor.
not matt specifically waiting for vex to ask “where’s vax” to end the episode. that motherfucker
scanlan: *tries to whip vax in the face*
vex:
also vax’s speech about how he wants the rest of them to live on and be happy without him fucked me up
i didn’t make a post about this earlier but i am making a post about it now because i’m still thinking about the way percy came down and saw the love of his life hugging a man that should be dead, and then firmly but so so gently asked her to step away from him. looked her in the eye and said with his whole heart poured into his voice, “if he’s not fine, you will not survive this. you know that.”
“is it you? i thought i killed you.”
“you?”
“i could have done more.”
“no. nobody could have done more for me.”
vex trying a tiny bit to poke a lil fun at keyleth and for once, just this one time, keyleth does not have the energy to be good-natured about it. “fuck all of you. for a fucking second just tell me what is going on.” because this is not a joke she Will Not come back from this if she isn’t careful and fuck everyone for thinking she can take a joke right now
sprigg saying “i used to have companions who were like you and you and you, and i’m all that’s left. you’re looking into a mirror of your future.” the nonsensical stuff he tosses into his language throws the group off and leads scanlan to take it literally, say with confusion “i’m going to look like you?” but keyleth, who knows that her worst fear of being the last living member of vm a hundred years from now will almost inevitably come true, knows immediately and exactly what he’s talking about
vax noticing and Knowing and, even though there’s been some tension between him and keyleth ever since he came back, holding onto her hand and squeezing it as they listen to sprigg. keyleth trying not to cry as she reaches out for him too
