Heey everyone! Been a long while… again… Last year was a weird one for me art wise, I started it out extremely motivated, like “oMG I NEED TO LEARN EVERYTHING AAND GIT GUD AT ART RIGHT NOOOOOWWW!!!1!111! aaAAAA” but somewhere along the way that motivation turned into the extreme pressure to make every single drawing absolutely perfect and the best one yet, and even if there was a tiny mistake somewhere it would be an absolute emberrasment and not worthy of me looking at it, let alone sharing it, but at the same time I was pressuring myself that I absolutely NEED to post things, and FAST, and I would get super anxious if I didn’t, but then due to the perfectionism I wouldn’t be able to finish anything I deemed “worthy” anyway and…. yeah.

So all of that perfectionism and anxiety combined into a nasty downward spiral that kinda obliterated my self confidence in my artistic abilities, and I decided to take a lenghty social media break to try and break that loop and just enjoy art for art’s sake on my own for a while, without worrying about sharing it or it having to be absolutely perfect, and just find the fun again!

But now I’m back and I’m happy to say that it worked, my art’s not perfect and never will be, since perfection doesn’t exist, and that’s okay! I’ve really missed you guys, and I gotta admit, not opening my social medias to check what everyone’s up to all the time was really painful.

I hope you all are well, Happy (belated) New Year, and thank you for sticking with me!

To the end of getting over my perfectionism, here’s a few Vergil portraits that I did ages ago that I thought were, and I quote; “absolutely dismal”.

But now that I look at them, I was experimenting with all kinds of different techniques for each of them, so of course not everything would stick, and there’s actually quite a lot of things I like how I did even if they were “failures”, and I still learned a ton, so I’m sharing! :)

Wanted to practice his beautiful smile with this one.
Not sure I managed to do it justice because wowiiie it’s surprisingly hard but it was a ton of fun!

I’m sorry I’ve been so slow with posting, ever since this man started living rent free in my mind I’ve caught a real bad case of the perfectionism, like I’ll go to draw him but he’s so awesome that nothing but the absolute best and most perfect drawings will do, aaand I never finish anything as a result.

But now I’m realizing that’s a problem and I’m trying to break through it by finishing stuff regardless of how bad my brain says they are so here’s a thing! Wanted to draw something like the pose he does for a split second before Judgment Cut End-ing but with more leg appreciation.

Vergil waiting for me to get to him on DMD be like.

But jokes aside idk I just wanted to draw him calmly vibing.
And yes I know that’s not the plastic chair of ultimate POWER he’s sitting on but that one wasn’t looking as a dramatic as I was envisioning.

Also I’m experimenting with a new kind of less detailed and more loose way of painting and I have no clue what I’m doing yet but I think I’m loving it.

I don’t even know, I was practicing stuff and this happened.

I’m currently in the process of trying to gain more power get better at art so I can do this man the justice he deserves but unfortunately that means things are gonna be real derpy for a while.

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Doodle Vergil and Dante before go to sleep…