#walt disney confessions

I really wish Baymax was real. I hate being touched and I mistrust strangers, so I never go to the doctor. I had some bad injuries that never got treated and I even had really bad chestpain for months to the point where I thought I would die, but I was too afraid of being touched to see a doctor. It would really help me to get the right treatment without being touched.

I see a lot of myself in Hunter from The Owl House. He has features like me, such as a bumped nose, weird scars, thick brows, dark eye bags, and a tooth gap. Seeing people love those parts of him helps me feel better about myself. He’s finding it hard to accept that people really do care about him and won’t always make him feel like if he isn’t useful then no one will care, which I struggle with a lot. He’s really helped me feel more confident about myself and my appearance. I am just so happy with how he was written and I can’t wait to see his further development.

I love the fact that Ian Lightfoot went on a journey from shy and awkward teen elf to self-confident fearless young man. I wish I could do the same thing one day, because now every little social situation and my anxiety makes me feel like I’m a coward and afraid of anything.

It makes me genuinely so sick to see so many people disliking Nebula from Guardians of the Galaxy. I know she would have had Loki’s popularity if she was pretty, because both are really similar in their concept and development. If we see the story from her point of view, all of her actions are understandable and fair, even her trying to kill Gamora who’s really not the “nice and innocent one” between the two. For me, Nebula is the most interesting MCU character, it’s just so sad and frustrating that so many people do not see her worth.

Tangled is a movie that makes me feel better every time I watch it. Rapunzel and Eugene are my all time favorite Disney couple and the music is so amazing. Tangled helps me see the light on any bad day.

Growing up and watching Disney Princess movies helped me realize how important it is to respect nature and animals.

I don’t care what anyone else says. Cars and Cars 3 are amazing movies. But the one thing I crave more than anything else in the world is more content showing the growing relationship between McQueen and Doc. Seeing more of that revealed in Cars 3 makes me so incredibly happy, but it also makes me sad we didn’t get to see as much of Doc as we should’ve. McQueen lives and breaths for Doc come Cars 3, and it’s so beautiful to see on screen. I love the relationship between these two racers, and I wish I could find that kind of mentorship in my lifetime.

Disney was a big part of my childhood. I had Disney stuff, cassettes, knew and sang many songs, dreamt a lot. I still love Disney, but it’s kinda not the same anymore. It can’t be compared with the feeling, when you watch that classic Disney cartoon on TV, with awful dub, and granny brought you a plate with some cookies on it.

I grew up watching Phineas and Ferb. I feel that it’s always been my comfort show. I feel that my family knows that. I vividly remember when I was feeling under the weather, my grandpa bought me a small Perry the platypus plushie. He died a few years ago of Leukemia. Every time I hold that plush, it reminds me of him. I want cherish that memory forever.

I am so ashamed to admit this, but I have never felt whole no matter what I do. For a time, it felt as if I was a different kind of being. I became obsessed with religion, thinking it would somehow “cure” me, but it never has. Seeing shows about super-powered people (Sky High, Tangled, Frozen, Lab Rats, Mighty Med, etc.) reminds me that what I am feeling is valid.

The Scavenger Hunt episode of Amphibia hits me so hard. My best friend is just like Marcy, who’s really smart and quiet, and i’m just like Anne who’s extroverted and talkative. Seeing Anne be so open about her insecurities and her talk with Marcy at the end of the episode really helped me and made me feel better about being better at talking with people than being really academic and book smart.

I’ve come to enjoy the Nightmare Before Christmas to the point where it’s become my comfort movie. I feel as though I relate to Jack in how he’s trying to find a new purpose to fill the void in himself only to realize that void is filled when he’s with those close to him, which makes the connection feel personal.

Ariel has always been one of my favorite princesses, but as I get older the more I can relate to her. I turn 16 this month and my mum recently grounded me from seeing one of my old friends, though it didn’t stop me because I constantly sneak out to see him.

This summer I’ve started to see a lot of Tony Stark in myself. I work for a summer camp where mostly everyone sees me as a cocky know it all who tries to take charge all the time (very similar to how Stark was at the beginning of the MCU). Lucky for me the counselor I work with is like my Pepper Potts-she keeps me in check, not afraid to call me out, and our friendship goes beyond work.

Me and my friend always imagined that I was Tiana and she was Charlotte. But then we just grew up and now we are strangers with memories. Tiana and Lottie means so much to me.

The song “Your mother and mine” from Peter Pan recently had me tear up. I realized that I never had and won’t have a mother “who is the most wonderful person in the world”. I don’t know how it feels when your mother is an angel, because my own is a demon, monster. I only hope that I’ll be a better mom for my kids and have a chance to sing this lullaby to them.

I’ve always felt a strong connection with Marinette from Miraculous. She have to lie to her friends and family everyday and she eventually gets really tired of it and her mental health just went down. I used to lie everyday about how I feel because I never thought anyone would understand, but thanks to one of the latest episodes from season 4 where she told her best friend, I did too. We talked things out and my life is easier now.

From birth I have a lordosis disease which can’t be cured. My spine is crooked, legs are too curved, and stomach was always too big and bulged out no matter what diet or sport I tried since my belly muscles are very weak. And now, I look like a pregnant woman. I still feel very embarrassed and uncomfortable with this. I wish I could relate to beautiful Disney princesses, but I see myself in Quasimodo more, because I’m not sure if there is a person who will love me with a deformed body.

Donald Duck has inspired me to be more comfortable in my own skin. He’s the reason I have decided to test out different pronouns and be proud of who I am. He deserves all the love.

A month ago, I came out as bisexual to my best friends while at Disney World. We were at lunch at Cosmic Ray´s Starlight Cafe and it was right in front of Sonny Eclipse. Even though I’ve known my best friends for almost 15 years it still scared me to tell them. But they immediately refuted that scare by showing their unconditional love and support. And they have continued to stand by me and support me since. Now, Cosmic´s Ray and Sonny Eclipse mean a lot to me!