#washing out my mouth with soap

prettybabywhore:

I will not talk back.

I like this idea. I have a problem with talking back and sometimes even with hitting back. I think it’s at least partially a symptom of my switching roles with Reaction Junkie fairly frequently and often without explicitly discussing it. ‘course, we all know who’s actually in charge there, since I’m only getting to do anything to him because he wants it, or, sometimes, because he’s indulging my desires. He can easily put me back in my place as his property whenever he chooses.

I love our switching and especially enjoy our switch fights, but sometimes I’m not switching. And then my talking and hitting back can get me into trouble. It also can be tricky when I’m playing with other people. I haven’t let anything slip out yet, but I have to stifle the urge to talk back or respond in kind or with struggling when I’m getting hurt.

I think that washing my mouth out with soap would be an effective deterrent to future talking back. As for writing lines, I’ve never had to do it before, but I think it would work well. It would be boring, so it definitely wouldn’t be funishment. Being made to write lines saying “I will not talk/hit/fight back” would also have the benefit of focusing my mind on what I did wrong at the same time as my punishment was being carried out. Making such an explicit connection between action and consequence would help me better internalize the lesson I ought to be learning. It would help me be a good girl, which is what I should always work towards.