#you never listen

*tw: depression, sexual assault*

It always kinda surprises me that the people who know the least about you who are always like ‘I know you better than you do’.

Like no you don’t. I’ve told you exactly nothing and you’re proving it by your reactions…

Like my parents often say 'we know you’ but in reality they don’t know the first thing about me. If they did, they wouldn’t have judged me for everything I ever did.

Like maybe I don’t wanna be around these people because they’re exactly like my school bullies. Maybe I like this music because I love poetry and prose and I’m not just trying to get a reaction and go for shock value. Maybe metal is actual way more wholesome than pop? Maybe I don’t wanna hang with this guy because he reminds me of another guy who actually did something. Maybe I stay in my room and don’t want to do anything, not because I’m angsty but because I’m severely depressed. Maybe I’m not trans because I hate god but because I have been my entire life.

And maybe, just maybe, you don’t know any of this because you’d already created this environment before I could even comprehend it. Because everytime I tried to tell you something, I was being *insert phrase*, just because I couldn’t say it outright.

Maybe all of the things you judged me for was me trying to tell you something. Maybe you’re just really bad at listening.

Maybe you don’t actually know me at all