#a far cry from perfect
A Far Cry From Perfect
New chapter: Happy nonetheless
I…” Remus hesitates. “I’m happy, but I can’t… enjoy being happy. Because to enjoy being happy, I have to be aware that I’m happy, and as soon as I’m aware that I’m happy, I automatically start to remind myself of all the reasons why I shouldn’t be happy.” He doesn’t have to say what those reasons are. It’s as clear as day. As clear as the recently healed wound on Sirius’s abdomen.
Sirius frowns. “What use is being happy if you can’t enjoy it?”
“I do enjoy having these moments with you,” Remus says. “But I can’t… stop and think about it. I can be happy, as long as I don’t consider it too much.”
“You know that I want you to be happy, right?” Sirius’s fingers softly stroke his cheek. “Now, when I get sicker, when I’m gone. No matter when, where, or why, I’m always going to want you to be happy.”
