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A Far Cry From Perfect
New chapter: Happy nonetheless
I…” Remus hesitates. “I’m happy, but I can’t… enjoy being happy. Because to enjoy being happy, I have to be aware that I’m happy, and as soon as I’m aware that I’m happy, I automatically start to remind myself of all the reasons why I shouldn’t be happy.” He doesn’t have to say what those reasons are. It’s as clear as day. As clear as the recently healed wound on Sirius’s abdomen.
Sirius frowns. “What use is being happy if you can’t enjoy it?”
“I do enjoy having these moments with you,” Remus says. “But I can’t… stop and think about it. I can be happy, as long as I don’t consider it too much.”
“You know that I want you to be happy, right?” Sirius’s fingers softly stroke his cheek. “Now, when I get sicker, when I’m gone. No matter when, where, or why, I’m always going to want you to be happy.”
A Far Cry From Perfect
New chapter: I could picture it
“Personally, I think we can do a few more Blood Replenishment Treatments, before his condition will have worsened to the extent that the positive effect will no longer outweigh the negative effect. But you must keep in mind that he will experience a few days of severe sickness after each treatment. A few days might not seem like much, but if your time is as limited as Sirius’s…”
“But it can give him weeks, maybe even months, more!” Remus exclaims.
“Yes,” Healer Pye says, again with that patient calmness. “But you must keep in mind, these are the good days. The days during which he still has energy, can still undertake activities, isn’t too tired or in too much pain yet. You must remember that from here on, it will only get worse. There’s nothing that can be done about that. He’ll be trading in good days now for uncertainty later.”
“But still,” Remus says stubbornly, almost desperately. “A few days to gain months…”
Healer Pye shakes his head. “It’s not just the quantity that counts, it’s also about the quality. A few good days now might turn out to be more valuable than a few months towards the end.”
