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Depression

Before chemo – I was beautiful! I had long hair and a plump gentle smile. Fourteen days after my first chemo treatment, my hair started to fall out. I had called my Dad and he came over with a pair of hair shears to shave my head. While I sat there he shaved off all of my hair. I didn’t show any emotion, but I knew my beauty was gone. I already had three wigs ready to wear but it wasn’t the same as having your own hair. Finally, I looked into the mirror. What I saw was a beautiful ugly person starring back at me. It’s hard to explain but my vanity turned into a depression.  I knew my looks would never be the same. After treatments my hair grew back in, but I had decided to wear it short just incase my remission was reversed. I do like my new look, but it is not the same. Now I am sporting a look I would never have had. Cancer took away my natural beauty, but life replaced it.

Despair

Life itself is a challenge. We compete for jobs, love, money, and freedom. We piece together what we feel is the perfect life. When cancer enters our life we feel defeated and full of despair because everything we have strived for seems to be coming to an end. It’s almost like putting a puzzle together and finding that there are pieces missing. It’s very frustrating and we blame the game company for its lack of completion and competence. However, we must keep in mind that we are only responsible for ourselves. Though we did not want cancer, it happened – now we have to find another way to complete our goals in life. It may take a little longer, but if you stay focused and try – you will be amazed at what you can do. Cancer does not define who you are. It will only hold you back from what you want. Keep climbing to better feelings and emotions. Keep climbing to better your life. Just remember to keep steadfast – do not give up!