#actually pmdd

I’m thinking that maybe Adderall could be to blame for me ending up messed up and in what is basically a mixed episode.

I was doing fine with it for a few days, then my period started/I started the pill. I thought it could’ve been the Adderall because I was taking it while on less Lamictal than I was on before, but so many other things happened all at once, and my hormones have been fucked up for months, I don’t know what’s going on with me anymore.

But I’m putting the pill on hold for a while anyway. I’ve only been off hormonal birth control for about 3 months after being on it for 5 years, and I’d like to see if my skin will clear itself up and if everything else goes back to normal on its own.

Plus the side effects of hormonal birth control are a little much.

I know that the way I’m feeling right now is just happening because my period is about to start. I know this because I track my moods every day and, after getting back on my meds at the start of the month, I’d been feeling so much better. I’ve only started slipping as I started getting closer to the monthly bullshit.

I know everything is gonna go back to normal soon. I should keep that in mind, but holy fuck does it suck.