#alter xiv
Our system is probably going to be having a conversation with our doctor about starting T for some of the issues we’ve been dealing with and are like 98% sure we are going to start it and like, our system is a group of nerds and like to be prepared due to both memory issues and just enjoying being over the top.
So Riku was doing some literature reading on HRT, PCOS, general practices, and a lot of the minutia on how things work with T and then like highlighted things from the general practices for me to fill in since I am the part that feels the most raw blunt of the dysphoria and jesus christ
I’ve been writing it for an hour and half and keep having to take time away to stop writing ever so often so I don’t fully spiral into a dysphoria driven breakdown when I am just factually reporting the facts. Our system types at like 60-80 wpm and don’t really need to think when we are writing things down since we write a lot. I’m reaching two hours and we are at like, 1000 words. Like we are at like 1/10th the usual speed of writing cause I keep stopping to try not to barf.
I’m mostly alright, because honestly, this is nothing compared to how badly this has been murdering me for the past like, two months or so - but I really, really don’t have time or space for people that think I should just live like this because of their god or because…. the patriarchy????
Literally you are either a transactivist / ally / supporter / etc, or you are pro fucking suicide. And I’m sorry, but if you are in support of children, teens, adults and people in general killing themselves for things that are relatively easy to manage for any stupid reason, then you are honestly a piece of shit person and really deserve no respect.
-XIV
Man I hate Riku’s anxiety around shit and not letting me post my thoughts on how stupid TERFs, culturally appropriative asshats, and bigots. Like, fine I’ll delete it but like, compromise is I’m dropping my personal blog which I was keeping semi-secret cause I just sit there to be toxic and problematic as a vent place @enter-the-darkness . I shit on TERFs and like radical religious people and other shit heads. Sometimes am stupidly edgy and problematic cause I have pent up energy and tend to get mad at the world. Most of the time I am just fucking shitposting though
Also Minors do not follow. I really really don’t filter much on there when I feel like posting and its prone to adult content.
-XIV
Look my homies. Cringe culture is over. There is power in wearing and strutting your cringe. What are people gonna do? Call me cringe? Bish thats a compliment cause god damn at least I aint hiding who I am and cowering to social norms, bish you wish you were as free to self express as me. Go cry about it.
