I dream with a relationship, with an intimate relationship, with the act…(if you understand me), and I want it, I want to experience it, but when I have the chance to give the step  forward, I don’t feel anything. Well, not anything, I do feel love and I want to be with that person but, the next step feels so off, so unrealistic and even a bit repulsive. I don’t want it but I want it.

Does it make sense?

Holding hands?!

Was having a normal conversation with a neighbour of mine. When the lgbt subject came.

I’m asexual but, because it’s a term that nobody knows and that isn’t recognised, I never say I am.

So, we’re talking about another person that had came out as gay and saying that nowadays there are a lot of people coming out. When all of a sudden she affirmed that lgbt is a trend now…

I didn’t know what to say.

She continued. “I have nothing against them but, walking around making noise about it… just doesn’t make sense!”

At this point I thought “We’ll, she might be talking about the parades” and for someone of her age… ok I get. But then…

“Kissing in public and holding hands…? They shouldn’t do it. I mean (excusing herself) our society isn’t that acceptable yet. But I’m not against it, they can do wathever they want”

I was so confused. I didn’t know what to say.

Like, miss, if you think that a gay couple shouldn’t even hold hands in public then, not only that isn’t “not being against” it, as, in that logic, heterosexual couples shouldn’t also hold hands, that isn’t accept by the lgbt community.

I just nodded my head and ended the conversation.