A friend decided to introduce me to her group of friends. Some were my age, others a little older.
As usual, they asked about my taste, in everything. However, that was a night group, if you know what I mean.When the night came, we went to the bars. Everyone asked for a drink except me. After that, everyone went outside to smoke, except me. They thought it strange but ok. Finally, they started talking about their body count. They asked mine, I said 0.
Everyone looked , shocked, at me and suddenly started saying “Wow, you are so innocent”, “What a baby” …
Like, REALLY?? I am your age! I apologize if I take care of my health! And if I’m asexual but, SORRY NOT SORRY!
I dream with a relationship, with an intimate relationship, with the act…(if you understand me), and I want it, I want to experience it, but when I have the chance to give the step forward, I don’t feel anything. Well, not anything, I do feel love and I want to be with that person but, the next step feels so off, so unrealistic and even a bit repulsive. I don’t want it but I want it.
