Oh great I love waking up and have my brain reminding me of how fucking dependent of my parents I am rn bc I couldn’t work for a long while and might not be able to work for another bc my right hand is being mean
Bc like,,, I do have money on the side, but it’s as low as it was before I started to work, which mean same level it was 3 years ago bc between having to pay for my own food, electricity and Internet and enjoying myself on the side,,,, I’m back to square one
And I hate asking money to my parents and I can’t do lil stuff on the side to sell
So yeah now I’m stuck and idk what to do and I hate it
Also damn I wish I could do stuff through Internet and be paid
Like digital artists can be paid and work through Internet and that can even be a side job and help with money? But the only thing I can do is write my own lil fanfics (that can’t receive money for bc copyrights and shit) or all the stuff I do with the fanlation group and for All Saints Street, but again, can’t really make money out of that
So except if I do smth with an actual contract and all, I can’t access to money, and of the jobs available, most of them are physical and it’s the main problem (bc ofc I also have knee problems that makes it painful to stay up all day haha)
Just realized I’m never at a 0 on a fatigue scale, at my best I’m at like.. a 1-3?
I always feel like.. kinda dozey? (Like when you get yawny but not really tired) and my legs and arms feel kinda like how they might feel after a workout or smth.
Wack how people just don’t feel at least a little tired.
shadow, ai am begging you to tell me right now that being fatigued at all time is typical. please. because ai am always at least a two.
Oh great I love waking up and have my brain reminding me of how fucking dependent of my parents I am rn bc I couldn’t work for a long while and might not be able to work for another bc my right hand is being mean
Bc like,,, I do have money on the side, but it’s as low as it was before I started to work, which mean same level it was 3 years ago bc between having to pay for my own food, electricity and Internet and enjoying myself on the side,,,, I’m back to square one
And I hate asking money to my parents and I can’t do lil stuff on the side to sell
So yeah now I’m stuck and idk what to do and I hate it
I love being forced to go at my parents’, loose three fucking days bc of that and on top of it maybe or maybe not have covid bc of said parents
Like I knew that it would be a mess and I knew that if I catched anything it would be a fucking mess bc I have a fucking 10 pages paper to make in two weeks but no, the fucking votes were onnthat weekend and like a fucking fool I had to help my parents do stuff around
Proof that I’m shit with words is that I try to hint my friends to stuff bc idk I can’t go head-on on the subject nor start it and dump my shit on them (anymore) (not with smth like that) but they don’t get it
Like haha saying “stuck” means that I need to get “unstuck”
The “I blacked out and made that” is so weird to me bc like,,,, how? Is genius stored in the black outs? Should I knock myself out to finally be able to produce smth good? What else happens during those blackouts? What if you make smth awful during that time? How can ypu be calm in having blackouts?
And like,,, even if they don’t mean an actual blackout that shit is so weird and scary and idk I don’t like that expression.
Tough patch rn and I’m shut at asking help and I don’t want to piss and emotionally destroy my friends and also somehow my brain ended up finding that being friendless is better so yeah
Kinda fucked up in the head rn and it all started with smth small and stupid
One thing I hate more than cookies are when you don’t accept said cookies so they place another gigantic banner with “accept cookies to remove it”
I’m about to break teeth
Also yeah, I know about the auto accept of the cookies that van be used with the cookie deleter, but the cookies deleter fucks up weibo and I have to reconnect each time despite having put weibo on the white list
People being like “it’s not bc someone writes about something that they condone that something” and like yeah, sure, but also that type of thinking works for a story
If you bring an entire story to life and during it there are disturbing aspects like bestiality and else, it doesn’t mean you are into those. But when people judge others on those points it’s not because it’s a story but because what they wrote doesn’t have context or meaning other than the problematic part.
Porn without plot? That’s the author most likely being horny or writing porn for someone. Porn in the middle of a story? The author isn’t being horny all the time.
Not only that but if on top of writing small detailed problematic pieces the author keeps writing those same things, no matter how much you want me to detach the work from the author I will at the end still look at the author and be like “wtf is wrong with this person” (just take a look at Swinburne. I’m just standing here wondering what the fuck was this man’s problem)
Yes people tend to condemn the author about what is written and perhaps the lack of moral in it, but have you yourself been paying attention and analyzed the work? The point of those morally ambiguous or even bad aspects in the story?
There’s a line here that none of those two groups of complaining people clearly don’t know how to walk on.
So with my group we’re working with another group and damn they’re so messy like,,, they don’t want to do several pages per sheets because then it’s too much and hard to navigate, they’re annoyed by the fact that we might need to make a list of the translated names so it can be used as a reference,,,,,
The other group I was working with was so organized and all and then boom, completely different, I’m in another world, amazing
I’m literally waiting for everyone to go to bed sobI can finally come down to grab some water and some food bc 1) too loud, 2) too bright and 3) my father’s a dick and he gonna be a pain the very second I come down
Omg I just talked about the rest of cadaver used in science by the nazis while the university was under Germany’s control that was still in the University’s buildings a few years back and that it was the rest of a jewish person taken to a concentration camp before being taken to the University to be killed and dissected,,,, AND MY MOTHER ASKED ME IF THEY KEPT IT?????? GIRL??? ARE YOU WELL???
She really asked me if jars filled with the parts of a jewish person who was killed by a nazi, put in jars by a nazi during the nazi occupation have been kept in the university nowadays????? All because “even if they were nazis the science is still useful”?????
Girl,,, like yes, using nazi science is useful, sure, but needs to be taken with a grain of salt, even for disciplines in which they were the best (like archaeology), but keeping the corpse of a person who never wanted that, was taken away from their family, was killed savagely without remorse in order to be used in an antisemitic and racist way is “useful for science”????? And they should’ve considered keeping it to teach?????
How many people’s most beloved childhood stuffed animals are actually teddy bears, like I feel like that’s a thing someone made up. Reblog this and put what your longest owned and/or favorite stuffed animal as a child was in the tags, inquiring minds want to know
I’m sorry. I have big problems with my computer. it freeze after when I used him more 5 minutes. So I can’t make picspam.
In addition, my country has declared containment, but I am one of those who work. The store where I work, sells press, newspapers, so it has the right to be open … And there are too many customers, so that one does not come to work … But transport is more complicated .. So after work, I don’t have the courage to fight with the computer and try to understand the problem …. And obviously no way to find a repairer …
Anyway, all that to say that in the coming weeks the posts will be very random. There will be some from time to time during my lunch break … and all the usual series will not be processed … because there are some where I have no advance …
@biscoto_editions february ‘Amoureux.es’ issue no.101 arrived yesterday, so I finally got to see the love-poster I made in print! To all kinds of good love I raise my cup of hot chocolate, abd now byebye cause I have to finish my master #allloveisequal #allloveislove #amoureuses #biscotoéditions #posterart #illustration #kidsillustration #illustrationinfantil #ilustracioninfantil #kidsmagazine #blabla (hier: L'Amour) https://www.instagram.com/p/CaAOOL8Kgdq/?utm_medium=tumblr
