#confidentwomen

Where I come from we never spoke about love, sexiness, or discussed anything. Discussions turned out into fights. When I had the age to learn anything about sex, my parents had a lot of difficulty explaining me facts about it. I had to figure out everything myself about my body.

My parents had a lot of fights and they are water and fire, they are so different from each other. Love was never there. At least, me as a kid never saw any love, only a standard kiss when dad came home from work.

My parents had just enough money to provide the family decent food, clothes and education. We hardly ate any junk food for lunch or dinner and clothes came from average shops, so this was all good. It was okay, nothing more, nothing less. But what I know now about food, sports, diets, is nothing compared to where I come from. My parents never did any sports and so I only did what I liked; horse riding. That’s not really a sport. At least not for your stamina or strength.

When I moved together on my 19^th I cooked how mom cooked; basic and recipes from grandma. Nothing special, I just made sure I cooked my veggies and added carbs and protein to complete the meal. Now I know I always cooked too much and the sauces I used were really not necessary!

When I was 23, living in Spain and gained weight from all the new Mediterranean foods, I started to do bootcamp. To speed up this article a bit; I lost weight, built stamina, added the gym for strength and got my first dietitian. I learned to cook differently, more healthy leaving product out and adding others instead, if I wanted.

Sport and a good diet are key to a healthy life. To understand your body, to have a body with maintenance. A toned body doesn’t have to be with 18% body fat, a 6 pack or needs to contain 5 days a week the gym or 1 cheat day. It is important to maintain your body from when you are young. When you start at an older age, you first work to shaping up the body and then you maintain it. Like we do with everything. Without maintenance your body feels heavy, ugly and out of proportions.

I learned a lot in the last 10 years and I finally love my body; curvy, thick, toned, strong and preferably tanned ha ha! I went from chubby to slim, from slim to curvy. Of course, I never have the perfect body, unless I’m going to do the Brazilian Buttlift. But the risk of dying during surgery holds me back. It will remove some fat I obviously don’t want on certain places and will give me a bigger booty. Sounds perfect, but a very heavy surgery. Without a surgery like that, I have the perfect natural body. Except for my titties, they are extremely gorgeous, but not natural. I would be heavily depressed if I was unable to do my boob-job. Nobody is perfect, but it is important to be able to love yourself. When you love yourself, when you feel sexy, then you are able to give the same to others!

#vacay 3 day chilling before I’m heading to #bali for my shootings