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NICOLAS+ JAMES/NICO || THEY/HE/SHE || nonbinary acespec veldian!
AMBRA+ EMBER/RHYS || BOO/PY/SPOOK/SHE/IT || ghostgender aceflux lesbian!
CAVITY+ CAVI || SHE/XE || sapphic damseboy!
CHARLIE+ CHARLES || HE/THEY/KIT || softgender lesbian!
DORIAN+ DORI || HE/SHE || xenic bigender bisexual!
TOBIAS+ TOBY/BAT/BRUCE || X/IT/THAT THING || neutrois aroace!
TOXIN+ TORI/TOX || THEY/THEM || everique gai princian!
VERAIT/SHE || toric loveglirusic pixelgirl!
so many stores are putting out pride stuff early i feel so crazy
maybe its something to do with feeling alienated from gender period. like i feel like i can get close to it when i think about gender as a presentation thing but even when it comes to like agender as an identity it didnt sit right with me because its an identity in its self and i feel like i dont have that. like the only way i can accurately describe myself is genderless because its not a noun its an adjective. its like answering ‘whats your gender’ with ‘i dont have one’ instead of ‘agender’ which feels like too much substance. to me, anyway. if other people like it thats obviously fine
am i cringe forfeeling left out that there are way fewer memes/jokes about people who use they pronouns than people who useshe and he. like i still like those jokes and i dont think there should be less of them i just cant even be the ‘im whatever gender makes the joke funny’ kind of person because it makes me uncomfortable to be gendered at all . and im not saying please manufacture pronoun jokes for the theythems right now either its just like. idk. i want to be in on the gnc pronouns funny genderjokes without having tobe like haha yeah i can be a girl in themoment i guess
for once in my life i want to google a question about renting an apartment and have the first result not be catered towards landlords who want to wring me dry of all the money i have
really love the very professional business people walking through the furcon looking at all of the fursuiters like o__o….
HELLO THE UNIVERSE SAID SORRY ABOUT NOT GETTING THE REPRODUCTIONS IN YOUR AREA HERES A 50$+ DOLL FOR 7$ ?
you guys need to stop throwing around the term pedophile when someone does something minorly weird concerning child charaters and im not talking about ACTUALLY weird sexual stuff or shipping them with adults because if you get off on that you are absolutely a freak and a pedophile but im now seeing people extending the like ‘callout’ of that one staff members blog to saying theyre a pedophile for posting aged up ship art of children. if it were art of them making out or something, yeah, that would be gross and inappropriate but the ship art in question is literally the two of them standing next to each other. theyve already done awful things you dont need to keep picking out random shit and stretching it for further justification. theyre already bad. youre just going to make yourself look stupid and unreliable
like im sorry you guys are sounding like the people in like 2017 who were like ‘as an adult you have ltierally no reason to be talking to children’ its literally not a crime or creepy or weird to think two fictional children would be cute as a couple when theyre older. the fanart theyre using to say this person is a pedophile is literally of the two of them just standing next to each other, and as far as i could see looking through their entire tag of that show thats the ONLY time theyve posted fanart of that ship period. they werent even kissing!!!! i feel like the people saying this shit havent spoken to a child in like five years and are just protecting this idea of the poor innocent children that are in danger 24/7 and i think it is so so important to protect children from pedophilic content and people but you guys are acting like theyre just ltitle machines that dont experience emotions until they turn 18. kids have feelings and emotions and relationships and when theyre that young its all innocent and looking at that and going ‘aww cute’ is not pedophilia. its pedophilia if you make it sexual and it can definitely be weird for an adult to be really into it even if theyre not making it sexual but just thinking that if these two kids grew up and got married it would be cute is not fucking pedophilia. you guys dont know what pedophilia is or how it is harmful if you think this is grounds to call someone a fucking pedophile and im saying that as someone who was exposed to fictional pedophilia and pedophiles as a child. youre just making yourself look stupid.
trying the frozen tofu thing people recommended please pray for me that it does not feel yucky
you guys need to stop throwing around the term pedophile when someone does something minorly weird concerning child charaters and im not talking about ACTUALLY weird sexual stuff or shipping them with adults because if you get off on that you are absolutely a freak and a pedophile but im now seeing people extending the like ‘callout’ of that one staff members blog to saying theyre a pedophile for posting aged up ship art of children. if it were art of them making out or something, yeah, that would be gross and inappropriate but the ship art in question is literally the two of them standing next to each other. theyve already done awful things you dont need to keep picking out random shit and stretching it for further justification. theyre already bad. youre just going to make yourself look stupid and unreliable
So we might be homeless soon
i think an important part about the trauma model of dissociation is how it ties such a big, wholly connected picture together in a humanizing way
a lot of people make distinctions between “systems” and “singlets” and while in some conversations that might be useful to distinguish, in others it might not be, especially when it comes to those who are more in the middle of the spectrum (of which even OSDD can be included, due to how 1a and the other variations present)
because at the end of the day, anyone can experience dissociation. it can ramp up massively after experiencing trauma, or it can be a huge part of your entire life, just not to the point of complete identity compartmentalization since that can only happen while youre still developing the groundworks for it
its good for people of specific experiences to have their own spaces and stuff, but at some point you almost have to look at a kind of self-othering you might fall into (or even unnecessary discounting of those with similar, even if not exact, experiences) because at the end of the day, what OSDD-1 and DID are, are a big handful of trauma symptoms and normal survival experiences turned up to 100, and not some intrinsic difference or anything. when you start to learn about stuff it might be “interesting” at first, but i think you almost come out of it more, sentimental if anything, with a sense of it not really being all that weird or different at all. i see people whove done little to no research about the subject just be so confused about everything and i almost dont see how anymore because it really makes a lot of sense..
been dreaming continually about guys loving me and thinking I’m pretty and cute and the most beautiful person in the world and kissing me why can’t these thoughts leave me alone. and I only started having these dreams when I shaved my head cause I think I look horrible now ☹️
maybe if someone kissed me when I looked like this everything would be ok
sorry I’m obsessed with these photos like I can’t stop staring at myself I’ve posted these almost everyday already
thinking of changing to a tetia theme….
hello forever
Holy crap I have been isolating lmaooooo
Okay update post: there won’t be new art for a while. Broke my hands again :(
Long story short, I overestimated my abilities at my latest job. Looking for something that’s more hands off again, but in the meantime it will probably be 2 to 3 months or so before my RSI calms down enough so that I can function seminormally again. (If anyone has any suggestions for jobs that don’t require heavy hand use I’d appreciate it!)
I might post some old sketches,wips, or other old art in the meantime. Would you guys like to see that?
hey yall! im on mobile rn so i can’t update my dni, but im going to ask ppl who post mainly ns.fw / k.ink / are into d.dlg/ag.eplay/other bullshit not to interact. i am a minor who runs a minecraft blog, so i didn’t expect that id have to ask but like. hhhhhh
no bc .
GENE | SHE/HER | 21 | BI | PH
ABOUT ME|COMMISSIONS|OC SUMMARY
Figured I should make a proper introduction at this point! Hi, I’m Gene and I draw a lot :] This is my art blog, my main blog is @genebeanz !
I post whatever I want here, just a little warning for those who follow me for one (1) specific fandom, you’re not going to get consistent content here KSDJFHSDS,, the only thing consistent about me is my love for my ocs so there’s going to be a lot of them here!
I will block proshits, TERFS, lgbtphobes, exclusionists, pedophiles and racists. My content is not for you.
some thoughts:
i’ve had terrible anxiety about talking to anyone on the internet for as long as i can remember, but i always told myself it didn’t really matter as long as i could just post art and make people happy… and i am glad i can do that. i love going through the tags and seeing how excited people get when they see my art, and i’ve gotten so many thoughtful messages i revisit from time to time. i don’t want to undersell how much i appreciate all of that.
i think part of why i draw is that i’m really bad at putting my thoughts into words… i’ve never had a lot of people i could talk to about fandom stuff so it’s like if i can’t draw it out those feelings and thoughts don’t actually exist. i’ve done a lot of lurking in fandom spaces over the years in the hopes that someday i’d feel more okay with just talking and being myself, but i think those feelings just worsened over time.
i don’t want to say i’m lonely because i do have rl friends and a supportive partner.. it’s just this empty feeling that comes back from time to time since i’ve made this account. at this point i’ve spent so much time in my own head i don’t even know if i’m capable of making friends with people online, so i’m trying to just make peace with what i’m comfortable with. i hope someday it will be enough that i can be happy just making other people happy.
Guys please I am begging you to put a tag on posts that show people drinking alcohol
