#healingisnotlinear

day 580 : i quit my job 1 month ago today.
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this is currently what many of my days look like, and i’m not mad about it.
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quitting my job was the scariest decision i think i’ve ever made, and i went back and forth agonizing for months on end. in reality, i needed the experience/to prove myself that i COULD go back to work, but the effect on my personal wellness and recovery was never positive from the start.
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i am confident i’ve made the right decision, both for my soul and for continued focus and dedication to all of this return in function and feeling i’m feeling and continue to get back. i am amazed and eternally grateful.
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i’ve gone back to driving #uber and #lyft, but to counteract all of that sitting (wellness, come on people) i’ve become a grocery shopper for #instacart and #shipt. turns out, it’s kind of the perfect training tool i need right now??
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sometimes i end up at 6-8 stores a day. legs are definitely feeling it, but i’m refining my walk and getting some fast paces in! plus, carrying groceries is like, peak function training - am i right #fitfam
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doc says i really don’t need any more physical therapy, but i’m NOWHERE NEAR where i want to be! anyone have any ideas for something a step beyond personal training with a touch of neuro?? #help
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that’s enough of an update for now. just doing my best every day, which sometimes isn’t that great, but hey - does it really even matter?
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cheers friends. keep on keepin on
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#spinalcordinjury
#rebuild
#scirecovery
#notimeforparalysis
#whatparalysis
#notalldisabilitiesarevisible
#paraplegiclife
#incompleteparaplegic
#bionicbadass
#lifeaftersci
#nothingisofflimits
#moveyourbody
#keeponkeepinon
#neverstopplaying
#justgottagetthroughit
#healingisnotlinear
#ambulatorywheelchairusersexist
#dothehardstuff
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day 447 : let me tell you about how joltingly honored i am to have been included in this first-ever women’s empowerment and powerlifting event benefitting an organization near and dear to my heart, @smartfitgirls.
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feeling the boom of #intersectionalfeminism and meeting some of the most powerful, badass, and confident women i have ever encountered has been beyond humbling.
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i’ve been sick with worry the past few months thinking, how am i supposed to get in front of people and talk about this injury and my life. i’m in a dark place, paralysis is heavy, and what do i currently have to offer to help anyone.
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but, as i’ve made #vulnerability my commitment, i went up there, spoke my truth, and didn’t fall on the stage
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my soul is bursting with magic at seeing how amazing this event was and how impactful coming together to truly support one another can be.
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@chrissy_chard and @smartfitgirls, thank you for letting me be a part of this revolution, and let this be my insta-official notice that i WILL be powerlifting at this event next year. even if i can only crush the 15-pound bar!
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to every person i’ve met this weekend - i am grateful to know you and have heard your story. thanks for sharing your good juju with me.
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#uniteforstrength
#womenempowerment
#strongishappy
#thefutureisinclusive
#thefutureisaccessible
#spinalcordinjuryrecovery
#sci
#wheelchairlife
#wheelie
#thecomebackisgreaterthanthesetback
#exerciseismedicine
#moveyourbody
#vulnerabilityisstrength
#healingisnotlinear
#ambulatorywheelchairusersexist
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