#escafeism
I’m only asking for a clear mind and a happy heart.
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hindi sapilitan, hindi pagpapaubaya
gusto ko ng yakap na sadya
yung totoo, mula sayo
step one of learning how to let go:
embrace the pain
as much as we find it easy to find good reasons on how to love someone, it is absolutely hard for us to find good reasons to let the one we love the most go. and as much as we want to keep them, hold on and make the dreams together come true. the thing is, we cannot keep someone who doesn’t wanna be kept.
love. what a dangerous thing you are. it keeps you alive, and somehow makes you feel dead inside. and when it makes you feel empty enough, when it should make you feel full and the best, that’s when you are left with no choice but to let go. painful.
pain. what a terrifying beauty you are. it stabs you, but it makes you stronger. so, step one of learning ho to let go; embrace the pain. you cannot really take a step forward away from it, you cannot really snap out of it quickly. but you can embrace it, feel the pain, live in the moment. hoping you’d learn from it. hoping you’d survive from it.
m.a.d
Take care of your heart.
Let go of all the people who play with it. The ones who don’t know how to handle it. The ones who took advantage of it and recklessly pierced it into pieces. Let go of those who see your kindness as weakness and take advantage of it. Let go of them so you can fully see and appreciate your worth.
Take care of your heart.
Make a room for the peoole who deserve to have a spot in your life. Fight for the people who will lead you closer to the One who will fill the void in your heart. You may not know them yet but when you do, keep them. Allow yourself to feel what true love is from genuine people.
Take care of your heart.
Do not let the world make you become jaded because you are meant to become a diamond. This world may go against you but that won’t make you less of a person. Your heart is worth guarding for. Your heart is worth fighting for.
Above all else, take care of your heart.
Only thing I regret is
I gave myself to others
more than myself, some
of them I didn’t
love enough or
too tough, so now
I strive to love me most
to love others best.
Sometimes, we take people for granted and when they finally get tired. Sometimes people leave our lives not because their season is over, but because we took them for granted. The hearts gets tired too of hurting.
I’m not going to lie. I still think about you from time to time. I don’t know how and why and when did it start but it became a habit of mine to think of things and people that I shouldn’t think about, like you.
I’m not going to lie. Sometimes, I still wish you were here to listen to my rants, to the boring stories about my life. I still wish you were here because I want to know if things would’ve been different if you just stayed and never left me behind.
I’m not going to lie. One day, I just found myself lost. I’m out of words to describe how’s life without you. It’s not easy but I was able to get through it but I’m not sure if I’m still doing things right.
I’m not going to lie. I don’t know if this makes sense. To finally try again making something out of my empty mind. But, is it considered empty when you occupied most of the spaces in my head?
I’m not going to lie. I’m tired but I don’t know how to stop thinking about someone who’s just a part of my story because I can’t prove to anyone that you actually existed and it scares me, because what if you’re just a made up story in this head of mine?
This would be the last time I’ll think about you but maybe, everything’s just a lie.
Life
Never about the pretty endings. Nor the happy songs, Life happens, One heart break at a time.
We’ve all been hurt. We are all scared of being abandoned. We all feel somehow inadequate. We are all hungry to be seen.
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