Tbh I don’t think Feanor was mad or malicious. Oh yes, he hurt people, and held his sons to an Oath that would ultimately destroy them. He also saw that the fight against Morgoth was impossible and yet insisted his sons hold to their path regardless. But… When I think about the silmarillion from his perspective…I do get his train of thought there.
If I dropped 1700 words of a bullet point fic exploring Feanor’s perspective, would y'all be interested in that? Or is the market already oversaturated with Feanor and Feanorian content?
Disclaimer: I’m not saying that I agree with Feanor’s interpretation of events; Nolofinwe, I am sure, would tell this story very differently. But I think two people can have different impressions of the same thing, and neither one has to be lying. Perspective is key. I wrote this not to start any fights, but because I was thinking about whether Feanor would regret holding his sons to that oath in the end, and my brain was like…actually…..maybe not. And that intrigued me, so I wrote down my train of thought.
- On your first time together on the wedding night, you almost didn’t do it. Maedhros insisted on giving you some time to adjust, to get used to the feel of sleeping beside him. If you hadn’t taken action that night, the marriage might have taken months to consummate purely due to his nerves.
- But once you did start, you couldn’t stop. Night after night, you and Maedhros fell back against the covers breathless after hours of passion and constant attention to each other.
- Truth be told, he was a romantic at heart. Softly holding and touching you at night, wrapping you in his arms and pressing you to his chest, whispering little prayers and kissing the top of your head, thanking the Valar that you were with him.
- If you wanted to sleep with him that night, you’d have to make the first move. He’d be sitting at his desk or training or whatnot, even in the late hours of the night, and you’d have to sultrily walk over to him, silencing him with a finger and beckoning him to come to bed.
- His mother hadn’t been wrong when she’d named him Maitimo. He was well formed and handsome indeed, with a body toned and defined from decades of swordsmanship, the ever regal face of a powerful king, that beautiful shade of blood red hair that you would never forget as long as you lived.
- If it there was one thing going for him, it was Maedhros’s stamina. The man could keep on going for hours, leaving you breathless and totally undone afterwards.
- As the dawn sun inched closer to the sun, you were still there, bare in bed, breasts pressed up to his chest as you tried to sleep after a night full of lovemaking.
- He’d never be too hard. He’d be gentle, almost to the point of too gentle, purely out of fear of hurting you. You’d assured him over and over that he wouldn’t, but that poor man’s heart just wouldn’t let up.
- Sometimes, just for fun, you’d borrow his ceremonial robes, the deep red ones with the gold etching and wrap it around your bare body. Once you did that, there was no chance you weren’t getting bedded that night.
- No one had really expected the eldest Feanorian to ever marry
- Not only did he have crushing responsibilities, but few thought he would ever truly open up his heart to someone else
- But when he did, the elven lands were in uproar with excitement. This was a speck of good news - of celebration, during darker times
- The wedding ceremony was lavish, with all the elven leaders present. After all, a queen was being crowned
- A few mortal kings and warriors were in attendance as well. The crowning of an elven queen could happen only every few thousand years. Their stories of what they saw would be passed down in their kingdoms for generations
- Your flowing robes were embedded with thousands of tiny crystals, glowing and sparkling in the sun. When you moved, it looked like pure sunlight had surrounded you and was following you
- You were crowned with a circlet of rubies, crafted by Curufin, and said by storytellers of old to have contained fire for that was how bright they shone
- But your appreciation for these material things paled in comparison to the real reason you were there. Love.
- Because finally, after countless years, you were marrying the one man you truly loved, and that man could hardly believe that you were willing to open up your heart to him
- Being the Queen of Himring wasn’t without its troubles. When Morgoth burst forth in Nirnaeth Arnoediad, and the kingdom’s king was leading the soldiers onto the battlefield, you, the queen, played your part, helping Himring stay strong, extending a hand of sanctuary to those who needed it. The people looked to you for guidance, and you gave your heart, your body, your soul.
- And when your fortress was forsaken after the crushing, bloody battles, the you led your people to safety, remaining steadfast at Maedhros’s side, the ruby crown visible to all who followed.
- Your husband couldn’t deny his crippling guilt. He had made you, the love of his life, a queen without a kingdom. Many a night, the two of you whispered to each other in the dark, made love by candlelight, dressed each other’s wounds, and only thought of each other as the storms raged outside.
- And when he died, killed by the roaring flames and the jump of his own doing, you followed in your own way. You led your people to their final sanctuary, the place where they’d finally be safe, and you declared your mission complete.
- All that marked the place where a great queen of beauty, strength, and terrible loss was a thin layer of silvery leaves and a twisted piece of metal that once would have been a ruby crown.
I want to say a prayer for our child I hope they grow big and strong and that they become skilled at their craft may they find love and be loved in return, and may they find friends wherever they go,
How about you? what do you wish for our baby? Me? nothing really,
…I just hope they always have at least one brother at their side.
For@feanorianweek day 7: The whole family, but the non animated version.
And what a wonderful feanorianweek this was! I was happy to see everyone’s works! I hope you all had as much fun as myself!
