He tries

He tries to stare at the sky, to forget her, to forget what happened, to forget the past, to forget the love, and to forget the endless laughs but no matter what he does, he can’t stop. He can’t stop thinking about her, he can’t stop thinking about what would’ve been because their future was brighter than the sky and the sun, their future was happier than the sky during sunrise and their forever wasn’t meant to hit never so soon. It was never meant to hit never but it still did.
She made him feel the way the sun feels when it goes up, when the colors blend in together bringing every single human being happiness, he felt so high with her, serotonin was flooding through his bones, through his blood so freely making him happier than he has ever been.
He tries to stop himself from falling back in that hole, in that deep hole she helped him get out of, where he is now because of her this time. He always knew that loving her would be the messiest and hardest thing he will have to go through. It has no purpose, no end because it is a maze and he always knew he would lose but he still loved her, so deeply.
She made him feel like the sunrise but now she makes him feel like the sunset, just like the sun bringing him down and making him crumble.