#heartzoct20eval
it’s a little bitter sweet for this being the final month. for her, anyways. after this evaluation she was officially on debut prep. the thought was wild to her. it was official. she was debuting. after so many years it felt surreal.
but a part of her was a little sad to be taken away from the girls like this. right when she finally accepted the idea that she would just stick with them until the end, she actually makes it. how’s that for some cosmic karma? she felt like she had so much more to do with the girls. hang out with them more, go out to eat more, anything. it felt like her time with the girls was numbered until she too was too busy with debut and recording to hang out.
her faze was fixated on heejin once again. a familiar sight, she supposes. they had only recently started to connect. it felt like now there would be no time for that at all. after what should have been way too long of staring at someone, chungha finally said something.
“hey, wanna get dinner after training?”
it seemed like it was happening too fast. she didn’t have that long to make arrangements. mina had nowhere to go. she was most worried about her. god and what was she going to do with meiqi’s extra things? probably have to put anything that can’t go to the dorm with her grandmother and just not explain whose is what. for as long as she’s been waiting for the time to come, she’s utterly unprepared for it to actually happen.
“i think i could keep giving you money for rent so you wouldn’t struggle.” it was the only thing chungha could think of. what else could she do? on the flip side, she could withhold the information about her upcoming debut. that way she could still receive money and mina would have a place to stay.
but now, that wouldn’t work. her grandmother would surely tell them after she drops off her extra things. she was at a loss with what to do. she couldn’t leave mina practically homeless. where would she go? chungha rubbed her eyes.
“i can’t believe i would be bummed out by debut because i’m too worried about you,” she jokes with a smile, pulling the younger in for a hug. “will you be okay without me?”
。˚∘ it ends how it begins ;
it seemed like it was happening too fast. she didn’t have that long to make arrangements. mina had nowhere to go. she was most worried about her. god and what was she going to do with meiqi’s extra things? probably have to put anything that can’t go to the dorm with her grandmother and just not explain whose is what. for as long as she’s been waiting for the time to come, she’s utterly unprepared for it to actually happen.
“i think i could keep giving you money for rent so you wouldn’t struggle.” it was the only thing chungha could think of. what else could she do? on the flip side, she could withhold the information about her upcoming debut. that way she could still receive money and mina would have a place to stay.
but now, that wouldn’t work. her grandmother would surely tell them after she drops off her extra things. she was at a loss with what to do. she couldn’t leave mina practically homeless. where would she go? chungha rubbed her eyes.
“i can’t believe i would be bummed out by debut because i’m too worried about you,” she jokes with a smile, pulling the younger in for a hug. “will you be okay without me?”
even if mina personally disliked the song that they were to perform today, she tells herself to suck it up so that she can at least tryto enjoy the evaluation. if not for herself, at least for the fact that this would be her last group evaluation with the other.
she was obviously excited when the announcement came out that the girl was set to debut. she was probably one of the only girls that immediately gave chungha a big hug after the monthly announcements were over. but she’d be lying if she said she wasn’t at least a littleupset by what would follow after this announcement.
and that’s the fact that from this point on, mina would be on her own.
as she listens to the older, she couldn’t help but pout. “noo… don’t be bummed out about debuting! you worked so hard for this!” she says before she’s pulled into a hug. she hugs the other back, making it a little tighter than she usually would because she wants to comfortthe girl. “i’m going to be fine! i promise you,” she answers her with a smile. a part of her doesn’t even know if she’s 100% sure about that, but she doesn’t want to think about that for now. “unnie, don’t stress over me especiallyafter the good news! you don’t deserve that!”
mina’s october heartz evaluation!
performingbird by seyeon of she’z
after hearing about the announcement of chungha’s debut, it only motivated mina to work harder than she usually does. of course she’s been trying her best with performing ever since she got into the project, but the stakes were much higher now. with chungha being the seventh girl to be revealed and juyeon being another girl who is set to debut, that only meant there were four spots to the final line up. that meant only a few months for mina to have a shot at debuting with the only other trainee who she was closest with in sphere (and soon, that trainee title will turn to idol).
compared to her first two solo evaluation songs, as well as her audition song for star bright, “bird” was a lot more mature. it was a much cooler concept than the last two. with it being a concept out of her comfort zone, she was unsure if she’d be able to do well with it. but one thing she’s noticed from the girl’s stages is that she was confident with her performances. her movements were with force and the lyrics and her voice worked together to bring a point. that the girl was set to fly and that she wasn’t going to fall.
and mina didn’t intend to fail, even with the fact that she is not as experienced as the other girls here.
for the movements involving contact with the back up dancers, she found ways to improvise with her own dancing that could still make the entire performance perfect. the thing about this song is how she can perform bothgracefullyand forcefully. even in the music video, she goes from the dress of a goddess to a modern, badass outfit. as she dances, she makes sure her facial expressions are good for the performance. she wants to look hopeful that she will be able to soar. and once she jumps, she will be able to fly and soar free (like a bird).
she convinces herself that the only way she can go is up from this point on. and she does not plan on backing down.
