#high holidays
We hope you have a very meaningful Yom Kippur!
This year gave us all potential new sources of trauma, from the pandemic to wildfires to violence in Israel/Palestine & Afghanistan to hurricanes to flooding to abortion bans to transphobia and so on and so on. Instagram user maimonides_nutz(best screenname ever) had this to say about it all (bolding is mine):
I’ve been seeing all the “this is the apocalypse, better wait for the end” tweets come across my feed and I’ve been having a really surprising reaction. Every time I’ve just wanted to shout (with the most conviction I’ve had for anything in years…)
“No!”
No! I don’t believe you! I did not spend the last (and worst) two years fighting my way back to the land of the living for you to tell me it’s all over. I did not go through the excruciating process of learning to love after hope for you to tell me there’s nothing to hope for. After someone weaponizes your own hope against you, it’s very hard to believe you have any left (or will ever again) - then you’ll know that hope is never something to give up voluntarily.
I’m not here to tell you it’s wrong to feel hopeless right now. I’m not going to say that it’s not ok want to hide under blankets sometimes. People are right when they say the grief of the world is too much for any one person to hold, to comprehend. But that’s why we need each other right now.
I thought I had lost *everything,* but now I can see I was wrong - there’s so much more left to lose - and for some reason that’s motivating me to try and hold on tighter.
I don’t know what can be done. Honestly I feel pretty hopeless myself, but now I know that hope is worth fighting for. There are people who have been working hard this whole time because they don’t have the choice to turn to despair. They need our attention right now.
For two years I have wanted nothing more than to disappear forever - for everyone to forget I ever existed (including myself). Now as I see the world crumbling, some ancient part of myself is screaming “not yet.”
A feeling that can be summarized best by Rabbi Lew himself (whose guidance I think we could all be using right now)
“Give us one more year or else. Give us one more year of life, one more year of sun and rain and wind, one more year to labor and to love… Promise me this or else. Promise me this while there is still a small, charged opening between heaven and earth. Give me one more year of life.”
(Source: https://www.instagram.com/p/CTV4JG4lSM6)
So: Yes, the world is on fire. Yes, we are all traumatized. No, it is not time yet for despair.
For the High Holy Days 5782, I will be sharing quotes from the book “Wounds into Wisdom: Healing Intergenerational Jewish Trauma,“ by Rabbi Tirzah Firestone, PhD. This is a book I recommend everyone read at some point, because it will punch you in the face, and it will validate you, and it will show you to yourself more than any mirror possibly could, and it shows us a way to move forward out of the trauma of the past year, the past two years, the past two thousand years.
For now, though, remember to take care of yourself. Shanah tovah. <3
Shana Tova to everyone . I usually spend the high holidays with the Jewish side of my family but this was a very different year for all of us. My parents and siblings are spread across four countries and three continents and I have never been so thankful for the technology we have access to. I hope that the new year will bring new hope to us and a new president to the United States.