Ok so TECHNICALLY this is a tv show. I say technically because for ME it was one long movie. One six hour long movie that I watched all in one sitting whilst everyone else was sleeping. That’s why I have decided to review it. What if I told you this was friends to enemies to friends to oblivious idiots to ??? to not friends to lovers. You’d be like ‘that sounds like an exteremley dramatic tv show’ and you would be ABSOLUTLEY CORRECT. Maybe I just haven’t watched many shows like this but oh my lord if this wasn’t the most ott thing ever. but you know what? I loved EVERY second of it. The same two characters stand in front of eachother and have a big chat and a cry like four times in the FIRST EPISODE??!! and I ate it up all four times. it’s a Thai show literally about two boys falling in love but the road there has a bunch of twists and turns and sometimes full 180s. I don’t want to spoil but after their first kiss IMMEDIATELY one of them says “oh man we’re such good friends ” and BOOM more conflict. not only is it dramatic as fuck but it is actually also really well done. the setting is beautiful and the way the show is constantly making call backs and comparisons within itself is amazing. Thank you so much to the person who reccomended this. Tarn deserved better, and honestly I think I would take a bullet for the mum no matter how overacted she is. 10/10 why tf not
It must be wonderful. And beautiful, truly breathtaking. To live in a cottage somewhere, on a beach or maybe the hills, anywhere with an open, clean sky. A cat curled up in my lap, or perhaps a dog that rests it’s chin on my foot. I have walls and walls of mounted books and a rickety ladder to reach them. And someone to hold that rickety ladder steady, so I don’t fall and break my neck. To have a person of my own, a lover, who brings me warm milk when I’m too immersed in a book. Someone I can pour all my love onto, rain it upon him, engulf him, because that’s what i believe i am made to do. I am made to love. To be loved. i have so much of it, in excess really, it’s too much, pouring out and out of my being for someone i haven’t even met yet. i exist to spread love, and experience love, dive in it, submerge in it, drown in it, and when i come up for air i breathe love and exhale love and inhale love. That’s what my existence revolves around, that’s what humanity revolves around, and i want quiet hugs and someone i can loop my arm with and someone who will kiss the top of my head and make me fall asleep when i write into the crack of morning. At dusk when we get off work, we take a detour in the little car that we own and for reasons unknown end up somehwere on a rooftop and it’s perfect because he has a guitar or a ukelele or a goddamn french horn because i really wouldn’t care because all music is music and all music is feelings and all music for us would just be love. And maybe I’d start humming in the awful way i do, and it’s not perfect, not his notes and certainly not mine, but it is what it is, and what it is: is love. i want steamy coffees that are too bitter to drink and chocolate cakes that have spoonfuls missing from the sides, a messy kitchen countertop covered in flour which i joke to be cocaine and someone laughs and flicks me on the forehead and we go sleep under the same covers, a cat purring at my feet or perhaps a dog at the foot of the bed waiting for attention. It’s all love, and that’s what I’m born to do and feel and give and take.
It’s all love and it’s all that is worth in this world, in this life, in this heart. It is all that the universe has to offer, take it.
Teh is one of the most beautifully complex and flawed character that I’ve had the pleasure of watching in a Thai series. He only has about two working braincells, the rest of them are busy sniffing coconut and writing “Nan Zhu Zhue” 20 thousand times. He’s a certified dumbass, and a master in the art of self destruction and sabotage. He’s a jittery little thing with a baggage of emotions he can only hope to carry, but he tries his best and is a solution seeker to a fault. He isafraid of change and seeks validation from the people he loves. But the main thing about him is that he has feelings. So many of them, an overflowing amount, and he seems to drown in the excess. He feels too much and thinks too much: too many thoughts and too many emotions, and he doesn’t seem to know what to do with either of those things. Teh, at his core,loves with all his heart. He is never fickle, never unsure. Be it with his love for acting and theatre or Oh-Aew. From the time that he could admit to himself that he loved Oh-Aew, he has never been unsure about what he felt towards him. So what the fuck is ipytm episode 3, huh?
I don’t know if it’s bad writing or not. I kinda see how they were leading up to this, I kinda don’t. Because on one hand, Teh is just…so rash. So fucked in the head. There’s so much psychology going on here, I don’t even know. On the other, I would’ve never imagined he would actively try to hurt Oh-Aew like this. Always thought whenever he did hurt him, it was circumstances out of his hands (the aftermath of the underwater scene) or by mistake (whole of ep5 in ITSAY).
So honestly, I don’t know if it’s in character or not, I don’t know if the writers ruined Teh’s character in s2 or if he was always meant to be this asshole, I really really cannot make up my mind.
What I know is, I don’t understand the when?
When did Teh went from being…Teh to a person who went around kissing his theatre friend behind his lover’s back?
When did he change from looking at Oh-Aew with the utmost adoration, to being this careless, non-attentive boyfriend who won’t even invite him to a play?
When did he go from crying in Oh-Aew’s arms in fear of abandonment to ditching him for Jai?
When did he go from the supportive study partner who would wake up at 4am just to help Oh-Aew study, to not giving a damn about his good grades in uni?
I don’t know when this pure dumbass became this calculative person who would edit his text to “hanging out with friends” before sending it to Oh-Aew.
I don’t know when this passionate, filled-with-love-and-longing-cutie, stooped down to sleeping with Oh-Aew for “research purposes”.
I loved Teh, he was my comfort character.
I related to him so much. His ambitiousness and his drive towards his dreams was something I saw reflected in myself and my life. How he believed in himself, even when his friends laughed at him when he told them his “unattainable” dreams. Even when the teacher didn’t choose him for the main role, or any at all. I know these things, I get it, I get him. It was amazing to watch this character run towards his goals and fall flat on his face, and then get back up, only to drag the person he loves down with him. He was so flawed, so honest, so human, I loved his character arc and growth and loved that he came of age and that his life is such a story that is just begging to be told.
I related to him so much. How, when he fell in love, he literally drowned in the excess of his feelings. He was so helplessly in love, carried so much of it inside him because he just couldn’t pour it out yet. His yearning, longing, mistakes, denial, EVERYTHING was so human. So wonderfully human, because a dumbass he might be, Teh’s erratic heart was always, ALWAYS in the right place.
So again, I don’t know if it was in-character. Don’t care if it was a long time coming. This human character was made to do such a messed up thing that it feels like he has been snatched away from me. He made mistakes before, but his heart was always in the right place. My comfort character is gone, I can no longer look at Teh and think “yes him, I relate to him” because he just turns out….awful?
And I I might agree with the writing, admire the execution, LOVE the acting, and still finish watching the series, but you know what? I’m fucking pissed. I’m pissed because I don’t have my comfort character anymore, and it honestly just feels like betrayal at this point, however in-character. And I think that’s reason enough to be pissed. I’m pissed that they did Teh so dirty, that it’s always his fault, his mess ups and never someone else’s.
And I’m so pissed that it makes sense, so pissed that this coming of age is true to the real world to the point it’s basically horror. So pissed that they’re doing everything right, and this is the exact reaction they wanted from the audience and they’re getting it. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT??? COMFORT-TEH IS GONE! EVEN IF YOU TRY TO REDEEM HIM IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY, HE IS NEVER COMING BACK. I am furious.
@shortpplfedup tagging you because I’m hoping you’d have some answers to my deranged questions of “WHEN?” Meanwhile, I’m gonna go touch some grass, like the whole fandom probably needs to.
