i need to talk to someone but i don’t know what to say or where to start

guys i’m not okay. nowhere near it. and i don’t really know what to do

school is kicking my ass and it’s just barely been a month. i can feel the depression seeping into my bones and the anxiety trying to take over my life.

i want to talk to my friends. i really want to. i trust them with everything i’ve got but i’m too scared. they’ve asked me if i’m okay and my mind screams no but my mouth says yes before i can form a coherent sentence.

i’m having thoughts that i don’t wanna think. i want to feel what it feels like to want to live again.

but i’m just too tired to.

in fact, i’m really tired of being tired.

insomnia has been a bitch lately. or at least the mountains and mountains of homework that have prevented me from sleeping.

it’s too much.

i’ve been inactive because life is just being too much.

thanks for listening if you’ve gotten this far. hopefully it’ll get better. but it never does.