#my magic is words

I went back and reread our first encounter. I needed some beauty, some home. Something to connect to you. It seems like a lifetime ago but it was barely over a week. We definitely rushed up the tower steps laughing and holding hands, the instant chemistry, led by the full moon. Our moon. I am saddened that my moon is forever ruined, for he is you. I have 4 minutes to be magical but all I can do is write about you. About the beautiful beginning in hopes that you’ll come back to me upon reading. We knew that it was going to be a rocky path for it was written in the cards. To meet in the Tower. Where the ledge is so narrow we must hold on tight to each other or one of us will plummet to our death, into the waves. Sadly the image depicts my death.

Today I will sit in my death, for I feel not justice, nor strength. Just an empty cup.

Our story….

The music speaks to me, transforms into my own voice. Never thought I would feel so deeply. It’s the way you smile at me, your guiding hand, your presence, it’s the way I’ve watched you change me, it’s a million things about you but I’ve never known this.Tomorrow I will rise up, out of the flame. I’ll rise up, not afraid. For you. I can be my own strength, strength for you. for me. You will always be first. My first. Because I still got a lotta fight left in me. I don’t only have one match, to make an explosion. But love, trust and submission must be earned. Piece by piece I will get up, restoring my faith. Piece by piece I will not let the waves wash me away after my fall. SOS. Save my Soul. I am not defenseless but broken, my innocence stolen. Hear my SOS. My tears finally come. Every tear an unspoken word. An army trailing down my body releasing the pain. What I need now is Love, sweet Love. I was made for loving you, even if you were just passing through. Because I can’t make you do anything, but I will stay forever humbled by you, I will lay down my heart, on bended knee, bowed forward, head down, hands in front of me, waiting for you. I will give up this fight.

Tomorrow’s never promised

Only yesterday’s a guarantee

And if I’m being honest

That’s the only thing that carries me.

Please bring the magic back.

We are all Trees, rooted in cement.

Broken down and tired; of living life on a marry-go-round.

But with time, patience and Love we can grow into magnificent creatures, tall, in power, stronger than ever, rooted in who we are, what we are, our purpose and clear in our mission.

We need sun to shine.

We need water to cleanse & drink from.

We need air to breathe.

And our roots will grow, we will rise.

All we need is LOVE.

I know thyself.

I heal thyself.

I love thyself.

Therefore I am gold. I can and will continue to fill the cracks of my broken shell. Creating a magnificent piece of art once again. Stronger than ever.

And I am rising to the occasion.

I am a tree full of life.

I am a rising star.

I no longer submit to you.

I no longer submit to two.

I surrender my will to God & my Goddess self.

Lovingly Devoted to my healing, my growth, my unconditional love, because I speak my truth. I listen to the words coming out of my own mouth, I hear what others who speak to me say, I process and eliminate what is for me and what is their own words they need to hear for themselves. I know my shadows but instead I turn them into shade. I see all the signs because I open my eyes and no longer turn a blind eye. I am the work. I am progressing in my mental, soul, physical, spiritual growth. I am consciously aware. Self-Empowering. Guiding my own self. A beacon of light. Stunning, intuitive and Loved, A Gem. A beloved daughter of the earth. A Hopeful Soul. A Goddess. Emanating my divine feminine essence. A Pioneer orchestrating my path of mastery.

Seek within you and you shall find. Get to the root of the problem. Ask yourself what patterns are you repeating. Am I choosing myself or am I listening to Linda or Larry. Do they know you better than you know yourself.

Mend. Rest. Let Go. Heal.

Breathe in and push it out of your body a breathe that sounds like a wave, blowing out all the inner hate, the anger, the fear, the doubt, distractions, avoidance, sabotage, abandonment, and the darkness. Breathe in light, clarity and feel your way through the darkness. Exhale the darkness, the chaos and confusion. And release the burden of the weight of the world, you only have two hands, one body, one heart and one mind and they are beautiful and you are alive. Breathe in life! Grow beloved. Feel, Heal that inner child. Imagine who you are and see your beauty.

Love Heals. Period.

XO

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