#of foolish and wise
3.17.22
my year in books
read/goal:50/50
top 10:
- How Much of These Hills is Gold, C. Pam Zhang: In my opinion, a contemporary classic. Weaves Chinese myth with stories of the American Gold Rush. Beautiful prose and valuable takeaways re: family, truth, and gender.
- A Little Devil in America: Notes on Black Performance, Hanif Abdurraqib: Essay upon essay of mind-plowing poetics and storytelling. Hanif’s version of Baldwin’s Devil Finds Work. A wide swath of topics from blackface to spades to magic.
- Writers & Lovers, Lily King: Came to me at the exact right (or wrong?) time, just when my father passed away. A keenly-observed novel about grief and persona that is something like if SweetbittermetNormal People.
- How to Write an Autobiographical Novel, Alexander Chee: Inspired me to get over myself and just start writing again. The essay on roses absolutely floored me.
- Lose Your Mother: A Journey Along the Atlantic Slave Route, Saidiya Hartman: Hard to stomach, but necessary. Foundational for the way I am thinking about neo-slave narratives and speculative historical fiction.
- Seek You: A Journey Through American Loneliness, Kristen Radtke: The minute I read this, I added it to the syllabus for my class on women in isolation. Part graphic novel, part longform essay, part research paper, and wholly extraordinary.
- The Sonic Color Line: Race and the Cultural Politics of Listening, Jennifer Lynn Stoever: This one’s just for me. The burning core at the center of my reading list and the inspiration and model for my scholarship.
- The Street, Ann Petry: Read it because of the book above, but an absolute banger of a book. Devastating ending. Would be extraordinary taught alongside Native Son.
- The Fifth Season, N.K. Jemisin: This book has everything. Polyamory. Earth-bending. An alien creature frozen inside a giant piece of rock in the middle of the ocean. Love this woman, love seeing Blackness-as-default in sci-fi novels.
- Fun Home, Alison Bechdel: You read it in high school for a good reason. A true exemplar of the genre and a fascinating way to teach non-chronological storytelling.
rest below the cut
- Camera Lucida, Roland Barthes
- The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue, V.E. Schwab
- Brothers & Keepers, John Edgar Wideman
- Bunk: The True Story of Hoaxes, Hucksters, Humbug, Plagiarists, Forgeries, and Phonies, Kevin Young
- Ninth House, Leigh Bardugo
- House of Earth and Blood, Sarah J. Maas
- Children of Virtue and Vengeance, Tomi Adeyemi
- Emergence of Cinematic Time: Modernity, Contingency, the Archive, Mary Ann Doane
- An American Sunrise, Joy Harjo
- Nabokov’s Favorite Word is Mauve: What the Numbers Reveal About the Classics, Bestsellers, and Our Own Writing, Ben Blatt
- Rule of Wolves, Leigh Bardugo
- The Lightning Thief, Rick Riordan
- Savage Preservation: The Ethnographic Origins of Modern Media Technology, Brian Hochman
- The Obelisk Gate, N.K. Jemisin
- The Stone Sky, N.K. Jemisin
- People We Meet on Vacation, Emily Henry
- The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice & Virtue, Mackenzi Lee
- The Yellow Wallpaper, Charlotte Perkins Gilman
- Legendborn, Tracy Deonn
- Josh & Hazel’s Guide to Not Dating, Christina Lauren
- In Cold Blood, Truman Capote
- The Race of Sound: Listening, Timbre, and Vocality in African American Music, Nina Sun Eidsheim
- One Last Stop, Casey McQuiston
- One to Watch, Kate Stayman-London
- Time Binds: Queer Temporalities, Queer Histories, Elizabeth Freeman
- Gideon the Ninth, Tamsyn Muir
- Echo and Narcissus: Women’s Voices in Classical Hollywood Cinema, Amy Lawrence
- An Extraordinary Union, Alyssa Cole
- It Ends With Us, Colleen Hoover
- Harrow the Ninth, Tamsyn Muir
- Algorithms of Oppression: How Search Engines Reinforce Racism, Safiya Noble
- Listening in: Radio and the American Imagination, Susan J. Douglass
- How to Fail at Flirting, Denise Williams
- The Flat-Share, Beth O'Leary
- Radio Voices: American Broadcasting, 1922-1952, Michele Hilmes
- Understanding Comics: The Invisible Art, Scott McCloud
- The Souls of Black Folk, W.E.B. Du Bois
- The Love Hypothesis, Ali Hazelwood
- The Road Trip, Beth O'Leary
- We Ride Upon Sticks, Quan Barry
set up an air mattress in the office for a friend who stayed over last week and tbh i kind of like it like this
I think it’s important to acknowledge that, against all odds, I continue to kill the game, sartorially
Just a compilation of some old photos of queer couples kissing.
i am looking through my phone tonight while you wash dishes ten feet away, and i am thinking, as i have thought so often lately, about loss. you poke fun at me for avoiding the word death: “if something happens,” i say. but something has happened. in the years i’ve loved you i’ve been a thousand changing faces, and i hope to be a thousand more. i’ve been a thousand versions of myself, and you a thousand versions of yours. and i’ve loved each and every one because that is what we do. we finish sentences and edit essays and each hold the most breakable pieces of the other inside the armor of ourselves.
each day brings little deaths and rebirths, losses and gains, but the constant has been you. your kindness and laughter; my hand on the nape of your neck the way you like to be comforted. our sweat and tears mingling the way these things do. what separates us from the day we met? nine years, two rings, three states, four degrees. tens of thousands of miles traveled, years lived apart. the loss of my father. mountains and valleys and sertraline prescriptions. and in all that space, somehow our hearts only managed to grow closer.
happy birthday, love.