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My friend told me that autumn is the state of mind, not just a season. As for recently, I couldn’t agree more. The last couple of weeks were filled with ups and downs (luckily more ups than downs). I’ve spent my days with my mom, my friends, and doing things that I love. The new academic year officially started. Even tho that now I live in Belgrade, last week I was constantly going between my hometown and my home now. Traveling by bus isn’t new to me. By this time I’ve gotten used to it. What’s new for me is the rush of reminiscence while traveling. I’m surrounded by other people, and yet my main focus is my head. I think about the past, my father, and how I miss him. I think about my childhood and my friends at home. Also, I can’t stop thinking about my mom. I’m so grateful to her. I’m so grateful for all people in my life that I can call family and friends. But then, there it is. Even with all of this, there is still a feeling of emptiness. That feeling is always here at this time of year. Maybe that’s me. Or maybe, it’s just autumn.

Well, first, let me wish you guys a happy new year. We all know how the last year made us feel and what it brought in our personal lives. Some of us had a better year than others. Some of us had a worse year than others. But all of us can say for sure that in 2020 we learned a lot of things.  We have learned the power of unity and speech. We learned how to stay connected and yet be without one another. We found strength that will be used in future years to come.

It’s the first day of this year and I want to set the tone for my life for the next 365 days. I won’t set any goals. I don’t like to do that. I find myself feeling so disappointed with myself when I don’t accomplish something. Instead of goals, I will set a theme for this year, and it will be consistent. If I want to have flowers, I would have to water seeds every day. And even when I miss some days, there is always a way to go back and make for that mistake.

Wish you all the best in 2021 and may it be kind to all of us.