Sooooo, if anyone’s noticed I’ve been a little AWOL lately. As many of you know I tend to fall into ye olde Writer’s Block from time to time. Which, while that is certainly the case, I’ve also been traveling a lot this entire month (safely, of course, masks, gel, Lysol, vaccines; the whole enchilada - gotta stay safe out there!) So just wanted to fill in as some of you were very sweet as to check in and see if I’m ok (which was honestly the MOST heart-warming thing thank you all so so much, really❤️❤️ ) and truly I am! Right now, I’m on a week-long vacation that will end by sometime next week and I hope to maybe finally get around to doing some writing! Though, my brain is a menace so that’s yet to be determined, I am keeping sort of up-to-date on other social media platforms though, for those of you who keep up with me on other places! But, yes, for everyone wondering: I am one hundred percent ok, I am just pretty busy and also trying to relax (weird how those two things are coinciding at the moment).
Also, my birthday is in 5 days and I’m trying to wrap my head around the fact that I’m turning 23 years old when I literally still feel like I’m frozen-in-time at 14. Geez, time is a trip!
Anyway, hope you all are well and if you need me/want to hear from me, feel free to contact me via my asks or my inbox!
PS: Yeah, I know writing this thing out was totally unnecessary but oh well! Oh and as a final note, here’s one lovely picture from my travels!
Everyone, including my husband/his family are like, “oh no! Betty White died. I’m so sad.” Meanwhile, I’m over here with my siblings like “that sucks. Our mom died of cancer yesterday.”
I really wish I could go back to posting every week but I don’t have enough time nor energy nowadays. So many things have been happening in such a short amount of time and my mental health has never been this bad. I am slowly getting back up again and with the help of my friends and family, getting my life back together. I do find comfort in my fandoms and drawing helps me temporarily forget about all the stress and relax, as I do what I love.
I hope you all are doing well and taking care of yourselves ❤️
I’m surprised how long it’s been! Once upon a time I was so engaged in this community, and I loved every second of it. Surrounding myself with write-minded people and their amazing content and getting to exercise that part of my brain on the regular was a wonderful outlet. If you followed me long-term, you probably noticed the gaps between my posts and replies increasing once I started medical school (and only getting more pronounced the further along I progressed). Well, I’m still here, and I hope to be able to catch back up with my followers and friends who are still kicking as well!
So what have I been up to all this time?
I made some healthy life changes and improved my daily habits to be a better version of myself!
I completed nearly three years of medical school and passed my first licensing exam. (I’ll graduate with my MD summer 2023.)
I met my forever person and fell in love, which has tested me, blessed me and helped me grow more than I ever could have expected.
I rekindled my love of reading and rebuilt a reading habit.
What I was in denial about for a long time but have eventually come to accept is this: I am not able to maintain a writing practice at this time. At first, I thought there was something deeply wrong with this and that I had failed. The reality, though, is that life happens in seasons, and there is a time for everything. My time for writing isn’t over, and it will be back again. This is the season in which I must let the fields lay fallow so they may be fruitful again in future years. My identity as a writer and a dreamer has not changed. If this is something you are struggling with as well, I hope you eventually feel encouraged in your seasons of change too.
I have no plans to leave Tumblr, or the writeblr community, permanently, and this account will remain active and (at least occasionally) monitored for messages and activity. I may even unleash a post from my drafts once in a blue moon. I hope to continue to see growth in the community and in all of your lovely WIPs and writing journeys!
My current plan is actually to return to the platform in the adjacent reading community with a new sideblog, @mischiefisreading. After all, aside from being a part of my DNA, reading is a crucial part of writing and something I deeply enjoy. I hope to connect with even more lovely bookish people and to continue making the things I love a part of my life as frequently as possible.
Thank you to everyone who supported my writeblr over the years - I could never have imagined how many of you there would be when I began. I wanted to share this update with all of you to let you know I am well, where I disappeared to, and where and how I’ll be reappearing in the near future. Please feel free to get in touch with me here, on my main @mischiefisgreen or on my new book blog, @mischiefisreading, which is currently under construction.
Apparently my mental health survey on the health chart was so concerning they had a nurse call me days before my actual appointment I’m doing relatively okay, but I am in need of professional help again thanks to recent family drama and me not having any support network other than my husband where I live. Please pray that I can get the help I need with a counselor/therapist.
I was rejected by the Neuroscience PhD programs at each of the universities I applied to, but I was accepted by the Northwestern MS program in Neurobiology. Unfortunately, the program offers no financial aid aside from loans, and taking on nearly 100k in loans for a degree that doesn’t seem to yield industry opportunities doesn’t make sense to me.
So! I’m reiterating my position as the Family Disappointment and committing to a career in publishing/editorial/something liberal arts-y. I’ll be looking into pursuing graduate education for journalism or communications, and in the meantime I’ll see how far I can ride this editorial train. I’d love to talk to people who did or are doing grad work in journalism or communications; would you do it again? Would you recommend it?
In the meantime… expect to see more updates about the grad application process as I sink deeper into applications…. for the third time…….. maybe this’ll be the charm?
So it’s been a crazy ride since Tumblr imploded for the kinksters. I’ve made my own site and gone through a lot of ups and downs, sometimes feeling engaged and other times just too busy to really create. But after some self study and new understand with my partner doing some changes.
1) I found that part of the issue is that I was searching for content that could just skirt the rules of the new space here and I was driving myself crazy. I still feel I’ve a knack for animated picture stores, but in the future I’m going to try and just post more on a whim, be it text, random thought, or otherwise. I’ll still try for some visual compilations as I can and if I find just the right thing I need. Also - I have experimented making custom content with submissions from a few fans (all for private consumption only - sorry). Buuut… If you are curious and might want to collaborate of something public - DMs are open.
2) Second life update. Big convos with my life long partner. I’m now in an open relationship with permission to play both virtually AND physically. This is new territory for me but exciting. This doesn’t change much around here. I’m still into virtual play partners and helping others enjoy the submissive hypno kink. It’s just now I might have a rare situation where that could be more.
So that’s all for announcements. We’ll be back to the usual brainwashing soon. Stay safe out there hypnokinksters and as always: be safe and have fun.
Been getting some work here and there as a freelance ilustrator! And I finally saved up enough money to invest into a tattoo course that starts at the end of this month (it’s one of those super legit courses and I know people who have done it and are now working as tattoo artists…).
I still have some money saved in case something goes wrong but…
*yelling at the sky* PLEASE LET THIS BE THE ONE THING THAT GOES RIGHT IN MY LIFE. I’VE HAD ENOUGH “CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT ARCHS” ALREADY PLEASE STOP.
I want a typewriter SO BAD!! Joe and I got to play with two at Field Day of the Past last Sunday, which was fascinating… it was so strange for me to see “traditional American festivals/carnivals/field days” in real life, and not in a movie. I wonder if it’s how other people feel about visiting China.
(Although China in the movies is not always comparable to China in real life since the country is so big, and the media tends to capture very select aspects of it.)
Tasted funnel cake for the first time. That was interesting. And had a corndog from a stand. By the time we got down to the roasted corn though I was too full to eat it. It was rather tragic. >_<
It was also my first time seeing roller coasters (of a sort) and other rides NOT at an amusement park! Along with the assortment of target booths - no typical “shoot the rifle at the target” though. The closest it got was launching a bow and arrow (well, launching the arrow with the bow, naturally) at a target.
Also got to see some lassoing - there was a high school rodeo? competition happening too. Also saw some piglets racing.
This is just a little note to those of you who are wondering what we’ve been up to. If you’re not interested in every single detail of our lives, you don’t have to read it - I won’t be offended. =)
SO, it’s been 33 days since Joe and I got married! We’ve been super busy opening presents, unpacking, buying furniture, and (well, at least I’ve been) decorating! Marriage has been an interesting journeyofdiscovery, to say the least, but God has blessed us richly, and I am profoundly grateful for my husband. Even if we don’t always see eye to eye… on most things… =P
I also wanted to let everyone know - if you hadn’t already - that Joe’s been at work for a while now! He started his new position at Carmax on Monday, July 14th, and has really been enjoying getting to know the company and his coworkers. I’ve also met a number of the folks he gets to be around, and they’re very witty and impressive.
Their home office, where he works, is also inspiringly beautiful.
Speaking of scenic vistas, our apartment is also in a lovely area, and we are lucky enough to live near the breathtaking James River that I have showcased above!
Our new address, for any of you who wants to send cards, is:
1210 Buckingham Station Dr. Apt# 3B Midlothian, VA 23113
I’ll try to post more photos/thoughts as they come along, but there are no guarantees they’ll be in a timely manner. We have half of our living room set up right now, with wall/bookshelves and a nice comfy sectional (that I’ve been taking naps on).
Please be praying for our marriage, and Joe’s work, and my job search. We love you all! God is good! =)
Hey, to everyone reading this, possible trigger warning about dysphoria and surgery
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So ive been contemplating the decision of getting a vagina for a very long time, teetering on wanting to keep my dick until later in life for at least 3 years and wishing i was born with one since i was in elementary school.
Ive finally come to terms with who i am as a person more and i find it more beneficial for me in the future as well as who i want to grow into right now and it involves me getting the good ol ✂️
My plan is to get my doctors squared away and a good surgeon who knows what they’re doing and hopefully make plans next year or the year after that
I hope its sooner rather than later cuz my body and mind cant take the amount of testosterone my dumb ass dick n balls make, and its really messing with my development in the opposite way. i need my body to stop producing T because most of my hormone treatment hasnt successfully lowered my levels and its constantly been fluctuating for 2 years. Its so bad that my levels currently are on par with a 20 year old cis male. That, and ive been very down bad recently and lacking financial support throughout my transition, so i sometimes cant pay for a months supply of my estrogen and spiro (and my other meds)
Anyways, im glad i finally made up my mind. Ive used my penis for all my life, and its served me well. But i want to be fucked vaginally goddammit
Also im tryna get that, ffs (facial feminization surgery), my adams apple removed, and breast augmentation (i am still kinda on the fence about this one because i dont know if my boobs will get any bigger with hormones, and my body type isnt exactly prime for breast growth. .. and i really really want my boobs to look natural and fit my body perfectly. I mean like they have to be sculpted by a sexy lesbian goddess or something to be put in my body. Im kinda picky) and im trying to get this all for as cheap or free to me through possible employment thru starbucks, insurances, or anything else so i dont have to save for 10 years for this.
Im finally ready to hatch from my cocoon and be a hot fucking milf before im 30
sorry for being completly mia-the holidays and these last few school weeks have been hella stressful but i’m hoping to post more soon (especially cuz i’m seeing star wars tonight so oop)!
mini life update: the guy i was seeing had a girlfriend all along n im feeling like an absolute idiot i only found out bc she messaged ME and said that he was cheating on her n i feel terrible
well let’s just say the angst for the upcoming fics r gonna hit HARD
i promise I’m okay ❤️ i just needed some time to process it all
recently i’ve been very numb. i’m not doing as well as i was and there’s been a lot of changes in my life that have made me super stressed. i’m sorry i haven’t been posting as much but i’ll queue up some stuff that i definitely need to hear as well as more informational stuff. thanks for being here <3
My friend told me that autumn is the state of mind, not just a season. As for recently, I couldn’t agree more. The last couple of weeks were filled with ups and downs (luckily more ups than downs). I’ve spent my days with my mom, my friends, and doing things that I love. The new academic year officially started. Even tho that now I live in Belgrade, last week I was constantly going between my hometown and my home now. Traveling by bus isn’t new to me. By this time I’ve gotten used to it. What’s new for me is the rush of reminiscence while traveling. I’m surrounded by other people, and yet my main focus is my head. I think about the past, my father, and how I miss him. I think about my childhood and my friends at home. Also, I can’t stop thinking about my mom. I’m so grateful to her. I’m so grateful for all people in my life that I can call family and friends. But then, there it is. Even with all of this, there is still a feeling of emptiness. That feeling is always here at this time of year. Maybe that’s me. Or maybe, it’s just autumn.
This morning I went to my flat to help my friends who evacuated there from Kyiv to pack their things and move further West, closer to the border, because my neighbourhood was the target of a rocket strike on Lviv yesterday.
My friend’s daughter had a massive panic attack when the shelling occurred.
While I was in a cab, the driver told me the story of his friend, a Ukrainian soldier, who only recently was able to leave Popasna after a military rotation and get medical help. He has grenade shrapnel in his leg. His unit was in battle since 26th of February without any relief up until now.
Later I visited a book shop to see if they have Lord of the Rings in Ukrainian there (they do) because my mum was asking why everyone is calling the russian army ‘orcs’. She wants to read the books for further context. The bookstore worker was talking on the phone with her friend, filling her in on recent events and telling her how her relatives were able to escaped from occupied Kherson.
Then I met up with my landlord to pay my rent. He has a relative in the army who is also fighting in Eastern Ukraine. They are worried for him daily.
This has been my morning so far. None of us are safe. Everyone, despite it all is working hard, donating money, clothing, volunteering to help the community. Because each day we persevere means the difference between freedom and subjugation, future for our young or death and misery.
Please, do not forget about Ukraine. Help us win! Donate, volunteer, talk to your representatives, take note what side your politicians take and whose interests they protect. This isn’t a local conflict. It’s a battle for human rights, food security, international peace and democracy.
Hi folks! Sorry for the radio silence. I had emergency surgery a few weeks ago. No, I don’t want to talk about it. Yes, I will be posting the Kinktober fics as I have them. I apologize for the wait ❤️
New update: there will be content within the next week or so. I’m going to be starting with the belated Kinktober WIPS and then moving into some of the other backlogged requests I have. Until I am all cleared out my requests are closed.
Personally I am regaining strength, recently moved again and am at my dream job. So like although health wise things aren’t great everything else is going well and I will be back regularly!
It was a hard decision, mostly because of my job and the wonderful friends I’ve made through it. Whenever I was at work, I was in heaven. The problem is, those were the movie montage moments: fixing dolls or taking late night trips to the Chocolate Room with my friends. Life is never perfect anywhere, but I think a good gauge of happiness is how you feel between the movie moments- and I wasn’t happy. New York felt too glossy, too shiny, too busy propping up its glittering facade to care about anything else. And too isolating. I loved my friends, but we weren’t able to see each other often outside of work (understandable; they have their own lives). I missed trees and hills and semi-reasonable prices.
I got in touch with some college friends, packed away my darlings in a box marked DOLLS.FRAGILE.in the largest letters possible, and trucked up the coast to Boston. I went to college in Massachusetts like my sister before me and our parents love vacationing on Cape Ann, so I have a fair amount of history here. Besides the massive amount of general history here, which the city wears on its sleeve. I love it for that.
Everyone’s unpacked and returned to their Victorian parlor chair home, beaming like queens. Lucie and a wax girl named Clarabelle are on the proverbial workbench. I’m hunting around for day jobs and acting gigs. And, most exciting of all…I have my first consultation as a doll doctor sometime in the near future.
Turns out fixing dolls is addictive.
I’m still working for my New York boss doing social media promos. That can be done long-distance, and I’m incredibly happy to stay with the business in some capacity. The dream is to get a doll hospital side gig going, or perhaps become a dealer myself. Who knows? One thing’s for sure, I’m not leaving the doll world without a fight.
Good-bye for now, New York. Hello, Boston. Give me your dolls.
Hi, I’m sorry I’ve been so MIA this past few weeks
First, I was swamped with zines checkins and the TDDK big bang, I barely had any downtime. Then I started a new job three weeks ago and I got busy training and catching up witn everything, on top of that I broke my ankle so I was basically an invalid (still am tbh) I’m so sorry for the lack of update on my tododeku social media au. I promise I will finish it as soon as I can manage ♥️
Please look forward to my tododeku big bang piece. I will be collaborating with @ezrazzle♥️
