#raw thoughts

There’s a lot of misunderstandings and assumptions about me I’m sure. I only hear some of them every once in while. This blog is for mostly spilling my thoughts though, it’s not meant to please everyone nor show who I am entirely. Only those who get to know me will ever see who I am.

Yes, I want someone, but I don’t want just anyone. It’s not that I think I’m terrible or undeserving of love, it’s just that I can’t find the right person. I’d be perfectly happy with someone who was like me also, because I do like who I am. Not in a conceited way, but in a general way. It also doesn’t mean I’m not fine being alone. If I just wanted anyone at all, then I’d be with someone. But I respect myself enough to look for someone who’s right for me.

Part of why I write what I do on here is for getting my frustration out in writing. Sometimes it probably doesn’t come across the best way, but that’s how raw feelings and emotions are. Not many people do it publicly, or at all maybe, but I do it also for people to see my raw thoughts/feelings. To make them not feel alone if they feel the same. Maybe they’ll relate to the same feelings and maybe make it easier to connect. I mainly do it for myself though, and I don’t expect anyone to fully understand. 

I’m also a very giving person, so I hope that I don’t come across as someone who always takes just because I ‘want’ love and a relationship. That’s not who I am. I’m there for people when I’m close to them, I give a lot and I love a lot. Everyone always wants something though (whether they say it or not), which is perfectly fine. It still needs to be a balance.

One post is just one little piece of who I am. It’s not always going to be the best parts of me. Nor do I expect that with others either. I like seeing/hearing raw thoughts, feelings, and emotions from others too though. It’s what makes us all human. We’re allowed to feel, to want things, and to show who we are.
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