#sage x mc
“It doesn’t take much to make you happy, does it?”
What’s up I hate everything I make and there’s no clear sign of it getting better but I had to draw this paid scene from Sage’s latest chapter ✌️
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okay so initially when i played sage ch12 i was like “huh, why isn’t he as relieved/excited to see MC…” but then i really had to sit and think about what it must have been like for sage and oh fuck. imagine thinking the love of your life was dead and feeling like it was your fault… every day for six months you wake up not only with grief, but with this voice in your head cursing you for not protecting the person you swore you would. the person who walked in and gave you a new purpose. the person who made you cherish life and look forward to every day if it meant spending it with them. the person who accepted who you were, walls down and all. they believed in you and they loved you. and shit, you loved them too. so much that all you ever wanted was for them to be safe. and you swore you would do everything you can to protect them. but when it came down to it, you couldn’t. now your person is gone.
i think after feeling this pain for so long it understandably and logically closed sage off. it changes a person. you get to a point where you accept they’re not coming back, and all you can do is deal with the fucked up situation gramme has created. maybe a part of you is even relieved MC wasn’t there to experience it.
but then one day after 6 months of feeling all of this, MC shows up. it feels unreal. this must be a hoax you think. but they’re there and they’re not hurt. a part of you wants to be excited and feel hopeful, but you’ve just seen too much. been through so much that it’s hard to be in place where you think things are going to be okay. having the MC back provides the possibility that what happened before could happen again. what if you can’t save them? what if they die for real this time? after experiencing the pain of feeling like that already happened, it would be difficult to be in place where you have to consider that it could happen again.
(also, if you’re worried sage doesn’t care anymore, think about how losing you changed him. so much. i know he’s still sage, but a lot of us feel like he’s a different person because he’s changed so much, and i think that’s a testament to how much what happened affected him. not saying we should take satisfaction in that, but you should acknowledge how much the MC means to him)
