thanks for the tag @night-triumphantt!! i always get excited when you tag me i’ve been in a sage brain rot ever since that last angsty chapter so i’ve been drawing ✨him✨
Going thru another emotional breakdown because of Sage and how everything went in the end of that stupid chapter.
I think the worst part is MC going back to real world. Because i know that if they stayed in Astraea, they could’ve saved each other eventually, idk maybe MC could warn Anisa and the others through her relic or sth. But they literally got thrown out from their world!!! To back where they came from!
Now they will see Last Legacy posters everywhere, people will be playing the game inside the rooms of that building, MC will have to see everything. They will see Sage, and people will think it’s just a game, but MC will know that white haired cat man probably just died and he was REAL. All of them are real, while people are thinking they’re just game characters on screen! MC will see other cosplayers?? Can you imagine the pain of feeling so useless when everything around you is a cheap copy of what’s happening in Astraea right now? That you know the man you’re in love is getting killed while you’re stuck here, when someone screams they got points or sth while playing the game, “Oh Sage died because I trusted Gramme :// Fck I’m restarting” AND MC WILL HEAR THAT?? AND YOU KNOW IT’S ALL REAL ACTUALLY BECAUSE JUST YESTERDAY NIGHT YOU FCKED ONE OF THEM????
AND YOU’RE JUST TRAPPED HERE NOW?? AND YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO AND MAYBE YOU DON’T EVEN REMEMBER EVERYTHING RIGHT??
i still haven’t recovered from thinking about how much pain sage is in from watching the love of his life be tortured and ripped away from him. the desperation when he said “i can’t lose you!” the way he clawed through the corrupted to get to you but he still lost the fight and you. yeah that chapter fucked me up
So I know I’ve been gone for 4 months I’ve been so busy with school work that I didn’t have a lot of time to draw for myself my semesters over now so hopefully I can put out more :^)
Happy Holidays!!! Felix is up next to complete the ll flower thing I have going on
okay so initially when i played sage ch12 i was like “huh, why isn’t he as relieved/excited to see MC…” but then i really had to sit and think about what it must have been like for sage and oh fuck. imagine thinking the love of your life was dead and feeling like it was your fault… every day for six months you wake up not only with grief, but with this voice in your head cursing you for not protecting the person you swore you would. the person who walked in and gave you a new purpose. the person who made you cherish life and look forward to every day if it meant spending it with them. the person who accepted who you were, walls down and all. they believed in you and they loved you. and shit, you loved them too. so much that all you ever wanted was for them to be safe. and you swore you would do everything you can to protect them. but when it came down to it, you couldn’t. now your person is gone.
i think after feeling this pain for so long it understandably and logically closed sage off. it changes a person. you get to a point where you accept they’re not coming back, and all you can do is deal with the fucked up situation gramme has created. maybe a part of you is even relieved MC wasn’t there to experience it.
but then one day after 6 months of feeling all of this, MC shows up. it feels unreal. this must be a hoax you think. but they’re there and they’re not hurt. a part of you wants to be excited and feel hopeful, but you’ve just seen too much. been through so much that it’s hard to be in place where you think things are going to be okay. having the MC back provides the possibility that what happened before could happen again. what if you can’t save them? what if they die for real this time? after experiencing the pain of feeling like that already happened, it would be difficult to be in place where you have to consider that it could happen again.
(also, if you’re worried sage doesn’t care anymore, think about how losing you changed him. so much. i know he’s still sage, but a lot of us feel like he’s a different person because he’s changed so much, and i think that’s a testament to how much what happened affected him. not saying we should take satisfaction in that, but you should acknowledge how much the MC means to him)
