pairing; simon( aka miniminter )x reader

warnings; a bit of swearing

words; 2235

summary;after you observed the boys while playing pokémon go for a while, you decided to download the app yourself. as soon as the boys heard of that, they invited you out to london to play with them right away.

(song recommendation; this city (feat. lupe fiasco ) - patrick stump  )

you were walking around the sidemen house, trying to figure out how this game was working exactly, while vikk snuck up behind you and glanced at your screen, before laughing out loud, scaring the living daylights out of you.    ❝ oh my gosh, vikk!you really scared me just now! what’s so funny?❞    he snickered just as josh came into the kitchen, raising a brow as he poured himself a glass of water.    ❝ nothing, but i saw that you downloaded the game as well!that’s great news!❞    he cheered and immediately pulled out his phone while josh walked over to look over your shoulder too, chuckling.    ❝ aw, that’s so cute. i remember when i was level 1. ❞       ❝ you shut up josh, i only just downloaded it after waiting for so long. and you sound like an old man when you say it like that, haha!❞    you laughed while he faked a hurt face, but you were quick to pat him on the shoulder to make up for your joke. but vikk was way too exciteed now to be swayed by anything and quickly went out of the kitchen to the foot of the stairs and started yelling.    ❝ hey simon!_______ got pokémon go, we’re going out!❞    and grabbed his jacket while simon burst out of his room and ran downstairs faster than anyone had seen him run before and almost ran into vikk on his way to the kitchen, grabbing your shoulders as soon as he saw you.     ❝ really, _______?are the rumours true?you have it?!❞    you were shaken by his intensity as he shook your shoulders as well and held your phone out for him to see, making him yell in excitement.    ❝ oh my god, this is so good!josh, get your jacket, i’ll phone around to check if someone else is coming along!❞        ❝ simon, really?it’s not that much of a deal, you don’t have to disturb the others while they’re busy… ——– ❞    but before you could finish, simon already had someone on the other end, so you gave up with a sigh, but still wore a smile on your face; all this excitement was getting you hyped up.

josh handed you your jacket and as soon as simon hung up, you were all ready to go, simon apparently being the most excited one out of the bunch.    ❝ well, when we’re already doing this, i might as well turn this into a video, no?let me get the camera. ❞    simon announced happily and quickly ran upstairs once more to get it and then came back while you waited at the door, before closing it behind him.    ❝ alright, let’s go!we’re gonna meet up with ethan and tobi and anyone else that they’re gonna bring along somewhere in town. ❞    he told you and you just nodded absently-minded, concentrating on the pokémon stop at the end of the road, staring at it while lagging behind, as josh called out that the first pokémon appeared already. your head shot up as you ran forward, past vikk and quickly stood besides josh, excited to catch your first pokémon while vikk cheered that he caught it already, while you checked your sourroundings in distress. then a wild pidgey appeared.     ❝ guys, look!look!it’s a… pidgey!❞    you yelled and simon laughed as he looked over your shoulder and when you clicked on it, it appeared right in front of josh’s feet ( in virtual reality ), making you laugh, before coming to the realization that you had no idea what you were supposed to do now.

you looked at josh and simon, who were both watching with interest, desperate for advice.                     ❝ simon, what am i supposed to do now?!❞    your question made both of them laugh, but he was quick to explain the procedure.    ❝ alright, now you need to throw the ball. that means that you swipe acorss the screen as hard and high as you think is needed. look, i’ll show you… ——— ❞        ❝ no!i want my first pokémon to be caught by myself!so just… like this?❞    you asked as you gave it your first try, but the pokéball just fell onto the ground in front of you and disappeared as the pidgey kept on moving in the background.    ❝ well, basically… you just need to practice some to get a grip on how hard and how far you have to throw it. don’t worry, it’ll come with time. ❞    josh announced as you tried to throw it again, the three sidemen watching with amusement written all over their faces. after 4 throws, you finally caught it, pumping your fist towards the sky as soon as the ball stopped moving and the boys cheered for your success as well, so you turned with sparkling eyes.    ❝ i think i understand the principle!let’s head to town, i bet there are even more different types of pokémon!❞    vikk then began to explain that pokéstops were more common in cities, because there are monuments and widely known things, which is where the stops normally are. meanwhile, simon recorded his intro for the video and occasionally showed a few new pokémons as well as which eggs he was going to be hatched today.

you took in all the information vikk told you in the meantime, very pumped up now and as soon as you arrived, simon spotted ethan, tobi and cal (the freezy one)in the crowd, waving while guiding the rest of you towards them. when you finally met in the middle, hugs were exchanged, before ethan already pestered you for info on your progress, while you proudly held out your phone, where about 5 pokémon sat in your gallery.    ❝ and i caught them all on my own!❞         ❝ hahaha, that’s real cute ______!me and tobi just passed level 20 on our way here!❞    ethan remarked with his trademark laugh and you pouted, as cal came up to you to pat your back.   ❝ don’t worry, i know how you feel. ❞        ❝ really?what level are you, cal?❞    he chuckles nervously while adverting his eyes and you pull up an eyebrow as you peek at his screen.      ❝ oh my god, how can you call level 17 the same as level 1?!go to hell, cal!❞    you yelled in disbelief as the sideman of the sidemen also broke out in laughter, making you pout as you backed away from the new group and back to vikk, simon and josh.    ❝ they are being so mean!i mean, i only just bloody started!of course i am not as far as they are…!why can’t they be as supportive as you guys? ❞    vikk sent you a symphatic gaze as simon looked up from his phone and chuckled, because apparently that wasn’t news to him.    ❝ we’re just good guys, aren’t we, josh?❞    josh nodded and held up his finger towards the halo tower inhabitants.    ❝ yeah, don’t be so mean. ______ is exactly as far as you guys when you first started, so psssht. ❞    ethan and cal just laughed, but as you all continued further down into the city, they were quick to teach you all about the game, so you let their earlier behaviour slide past you pretty fast.

lightning-fast you were at level 5 and ready to take on a gym, causing the whole group to stare at your screen as they picked out a good gym to start off with, which took quite a while in such a big city with a lot of very strong gyms, but when you found one, everyone was on the edge. especially when it came to the team selection.    ❝ pick team instinct, because… ———– oh, the team leader is a guy!❞    ethan called out from over josh’s shoulder and josh was quick to follow to shut him up.    ❝ nope, ______ team mystic is the team for you!harry would 100% agree with me if he was here!❞    you raised a brow at all the commotion around you and looked at the shadow of the three team leaders on your phone. after thinking for some time, you decided to go for [ team of choice ]. of course, most of the boys groaned at your decisions, while the rest welcomed you in their team, but that didn’t last too long because you soon had to fight the first gym right after choosing. you fumbled with the controls and everyone shouted at you for what you had to do, but after you beat the pokémon, everyone waited for the next one, but nothing came. you were all staring at the screen with baited breath, waiting for the game to tell you what was going on, as the announcement of your victory flashed across your phone and everyone just stood there for a second, but shouted immediately after seeing it.    ❝ what happened?❞       ❝ i don’t know, but great job there, _______!❞    you were still slightly suspicous as you put your best pokémon into the gym to guard it, despite knowing it wouldn’t hold out too long, although everything seemed normal and the gym flashed your color as you left your pokémon there.    ❝ i think to celebrate young trainer ______, we should go get nandos!❞    ethan suggested and because it was pretty late and you all had been running around for hours now, the majority immediately agreed with his idea, so you walked off to the nearest nandos that tobi knew.

while going there, you walked besides simon, who had been awfully quiet during the whole progress of you choosing a team, but you didn’t want to ask him about it, assuming he had been busy recording his own progress. but when you finally sat down with your food, you watched him eat in silence for a while, though at some point your curiosity just took over and you decided to ask him nonetheless.    ❝ simon, why didn’t you tell me to choose your team earlier?❞       ❝ huh, why? well… it’s your choice, so you should choose what you wanted without being swayed, no? ❞    you blink a little at the nice words, but nod slowly in agreement, feeling awfully symthatical towards the sidemen member while you continued to eat.    ❝ thanks then… that was nice. ❞    he smiled at your words and took a sip of his drink in between.    ❝ anytime, _______. ❞    you nodded thankfully and with a thoughful expression, you turned back to your own plate, finishing up what was left to eat. when everyone was done, the group walked back to the meeting point and you, vikk, simon and josh parted from the halo group, saying goodbye as they headed in the opposite direction as you headed back to the sidemen house.    ❝ hm, i still wonder what happened at that gym earlier… didn’t you say that there was normally more than one pokémon to battle?❞    you asked vikk on the way there, still kinda hung up on that incident that occured earlier this afternoon.    ❝ yeah, there is. normally. it could be that someone battled the gym at the same time and took out the other pokémon, but otherwise i don’t know how that happened either. ❞    vikk said with a shrug and you shrugged back.

maybe it was just luck. or at least that’s what you thought until the next day when simon uploaded his pokémon go video that he recorded with you all yesterday. out of curiosity, you had watched it, but 3 minutes into the video, you realized something.    ❝ … and here we are with a gym. it’s kinda weak, so i guess i can take it out real quick. ❞    you recogmized the background behind him right away; this was when you also battled your first gym! in shock you watched him battle about 4 pokémon, before it told him that they were all beaten now and he cheered a little for himself, but when the part came for him to claim the gym, it suddenly cut to him annoucing that the group would get nandos now. you paused the video and stared at simon smiling at the camera, resting your palms on your cheeks while trying to progress what you just saw. actually, it was a pretty sweet gesture. so you decided to text him about it.

______ / [11:05]; hey simon, is the offer of pokémon go for a first date still valid?

simon / [11:08]; i take it you have seen the video then?

______ / [11:09]; yes i did. so it was you   

simon / [11:10]; uh well guess there’s no getting out of that…. 
simon / [11:11]; but yes, it is. you ready to catch ‘em all, _______?

______ / [11:13]; you bet i am. meet u at the door starting now!!! loser has to use a lure module in the park!!!!! see ya

simon / [11:14]; but ______, i don’t need a lure module to catch what i want ❤

______ / [11:17];…………….
______ / [11:18]; move your ass downstairs you sappy loser otherwise you will 

Tension

(Imagine for @operationgeek)

Concept: you are Josh’s sister and you and Simon have always for as long as you can remember disliked each other, until one day when you both get stuck together, things change.

Warning: swearing // very mild smut

“Honestly, Y/N. You and Simon cannot possibly hate each other for the rest of your lives, that’s just not how things work,” Josh, my brother, moaned, grabbing the box of cereal out of the high cupboard that you couldn’t reach, you had already asked Simon but he responded with “Grow a little,” and walked out of the kitchen. “It’s immature,”

“There is so much sexual tension between you both it is unreal!” Lewis chuckled, joining in on our conversion. I just looked at him and flipped him the middle finger. Causing him to laugh even more.

“He just winds me up so much. Like is there any need for the petty little remarks about me all the time? I know I do it back but he practically forces me too,” I groaned. I grabbed a bowl from underneath the kitchen island and poured my cereal in, followed by the milk. I pulled one of the brown chairs out from underneath and sat down. I don’t know what it is that has actually made me and Simon hate each other so much. It can go from stupid teasing around to full on insulting each other, it’s almost like he has rehearsed what he is going to say to me before he has even stepped foot into the room, and then when he is in the room; his eyes never ever leave me. I’ve liked Simon for such a long time, when I first moved in about two years ago, he would show the same feelings but something changed and I don’t know what it was. At some times I’ve though that oh maybe he’s grown up a little bit and we can put the feud behind us, then is almost as if it ticks in his head and he starts again, but this is always when we’re around other people. It’s very rare that me and Simon are alone together but when we are, its normally just an awkward silence.

I quickly washed up my bowl and the spoon, placing them on the draining board next to the sink, telling Josh I am going to get changed.

“Oh my god at least lock the door when you’re in here,” I frowned. I had walked straight into the bathroom, which no one really uses so I didn’t expect anybody to actually been here. Little did I know Simon is stood in front of the mirror, styling his hair. Because I didn’t think anybody was in here, I automatically shut the door behind me.

“If you didn’t know, I’m going out with Tallia,” Simon mumbled, still concentrating on doing his hair. To say his hair looks the same everyday. I didn’t know it took this long to do. “And the door sticks and the lock jams that’s what I didn’t shut the door,”

“Fuck..” I groaned, realising I had shut the brown wooden door behind me when I walked in, as well as twisting the lock on instinct. I turned around and hit my head on the door in frustration.

“Are you actually being serious?” Simon growled, slamming the cupboard door which he had put his hair gel back in. “I’m supposed to be meeting Tallia in 15 minutes I’m Westfield,”

“What your Ex Tallia? Who cheated on you? Not once but 3 times? And I’m the one that had to break the news to you and show you the evidence because no one else would dare do it? Yeah that one.” Simon didn’t say anything. He sat on the edge of the bath, his eyes glaring at me. Everyone thought Tallia was lovely, a sweetheart, yet when I was out shopping with Freya, we saw her having a cute candlelit dinner with another Man, knowing full well she told Simon she couldn’t see him that night because she had “plans with the girls”. The same happened on numerous occasions and it wasn’t always the same man who she was with. Me and Freya and the other lads would take photos of her out if we saw her. No one else would dare tell Simon, they didn’t want to break he is heart. They couldn’t quite grasp the fact that he was being played around, so I did it. Admittedly he shed a few tears and I was the one to comfort him but, why would he possibly want to go back to her?

“She’s changed,” he grumbled, putting his head into his hands. The situation clearly winding him up.

“She said the exact same after the first time it happened, and then did it again,”. I looked at Simon who still had his head in his hands, his legs bounced on the floor, making his whole body shake.

“Why are you so bothered?” Simon said roughly, sitting up now to face me. His face red and you could tell it was stressing it out. “It’s not your life. You hate me. Why would you care that I’m going out with Tallia?”

“I-“ I begin to say but I couldn’t get me words out.

“You wanna know why?” Simon stood up, coming closer to my body, making me become stiff and unable to move. “I’m going out with Tallia because I need to get over you.” He whispered, one of his arms leant again the door behind my back. get over me? Why would he need to get over me? He makes out that he hates me on every single chance he gets. “You drive me insane. How can you not see that I like you? Tallia is my only way of getting over you, and if she hurts me again then at least it will hurt less than being rejected by you,” He voice got even lower, his face inches away from mine. I could smell the peppermint from his toothpaste brushing against my lips.

“Simon, girls don’t like it when you constantly insult them. When you make fun of them,” I began, rolling my eyes. “Maybe if you had made your feelings obvious instead of making out that you hate me then things would be different,”

My breathing became faster as he placed his free hand onto my hip, I don’t think I have ever been this close to Simon. It is getting me all flustered and it’s almost as if my body doesn’t know what to do. “I’m sorry,” he placed his forehead on mine, Simon trying to steady his breathing as well. “I’m scared of the thought of you rejecting me, if I wind you up and get a reaction out of you, that’s more time spent with you. You know I’m awkward, I can’t talk to people normally. I don’t even know how the hell i’m doing this.” He started out at talking at a normal volume, but as his got to the end of the sentence, he looked in my eyes and his voice went back to a whisper, with the hand which was on my hip, now coming to rest on the back of my neck with his thumb rubbing circles on my cheek. We stood in silence, just looking at each other. Neither of us knowing what to say and neither of us knowing what to do about the situation. “You’re beautiful,” he whispered, even quieter than last time. I placed one of my hands on his cheek, the gesture slightly shocking Simon. He dipped his head more to my height so he wasn’t bending over me as much because of how much smaller than him I am. He looked at me for a few more minutes, his eyes flickering between my lips and my eyes.

“You can kiss me you know,” I whispered with a slight giggle, becoming impatient over the fact that we are both just stood here looking at each other.

“You don’t realise how long I have waited to hear you say that,” he groaned, his lips coming into contact with mine. There was nothing subtle or calm about the kiss, it’s rough and somewhat passionate. My arms slid around Simon’s neck as our lips continued to move in sync. There was no cliché butterflies in my stomach, but it was definitely something more. Simon’s hands travelled down from my face, down my waist and down to my bum. He used this as his opportunity to pick me up, wrapping my legs around his waist so he could push me up against the door, making me more his height.

He licked my bottom lip, almost as if he was asking if he could do it, but I wasn’t wasting any time. As lewis said, there is definitely so much sexual tension that we didn’t even realise was there. Our lips carried on dancing together, my hands now playing in Simon’s hair, causing him to let out a small grown as I pulled it slightly. Simon made sure he had good hold of me as we moved over to the bathroom counter so I was still the same height as Simon. One of his hands went into my hair and he pulled my head back slightly, so he had more room to attach his lips to my neck, making me crumble underneath his touch, my heart racing so fast. He layed kisses all the way down my neck to my collar, slightly sucking on some areas, making a shiver go down my spine. I tried to hold on my whimpers but it wasn’t working, it was almost as if Simon is fuelling off of the noise, smirking against my skin. He pushed his body closer to mine, his lower half pushing against my own making me whimper even more, he also let out a groan at the same time as he continued to kiss and suck on the skin of my neck.

“Oops. Looks like I’ve stood her up,” Simon chuckled, looking down at his watch before looking back into my eyes.

“Just shut up,” I groaned, pulling him closer to me again, earning a smirk and s groan out of him in the process as his lips landed straight back onto mine.

Simon Minter - miniminter

Masterlist

F- fluff

S- smut

A- angst

Secrets out

•you take a lie detector and finally let the truth out (F)

Beauty guru

•you’re a beauty guru and do a video with the boys(F)

You’re perfect

•Simon makes you feel better after a bad day(F)

Best friends

•after years of being best friends, Simon finally tells you he likes you (F)

The ship is real

•Simon x Harry (F)

Confessions

•Simon realises how much he loves you(F)

You got a friend in need

•Simon x Harry (F)

Making it better

•you’ve had a bad week but thank god for your

boyfriend(F)

Driver license

•based on the song (A) (F)

Extra content

•dating Simon would include

•sidemen reaction you feeling anxious over exams

•sidemen reaction when you kiss them for the first time

“You hit me!” - miniminter (mini imagine)

Prompt list nr. 6 : “you hit me!”

Simon started the camera. I once in awhile appeard in Gaming video’s but never really was seen much in his main channel video’s, the only few times were in vlogs where I did somethings silly in the background. I wasn’t used to be recorded, So I was kinda clumsy in front of a camera “You Guys asked me to bring someone special into one of the main channel video, so here she is…y/n!” I jumped up, throwing my arms in the air. When suddenly I hitted something. Seconds later Simon rolled on the ground. “Simon,” I laughed “are you okay?” He nodded his head “yeah, sure after you got me in the guts.” I snortted as I reached out my hand to pull him up “don’t be such a wimp,” I patted his shoulder and looked into his eyes trying to hold on my laughter. “Is that a tear?” I wipped it of his cheek. “You hit me!” He shouted picking me up throwing me on the bed. “You were just in my way!” I giggled being attacked with tickles. “Plea-se, stop!” I begged “I’m going to cry in my chair now.” He limped back to his desk “tears of pain.” He added pointing at his eyes.

He faked being in pain for the rest of the video for his own and the viewers entertainment. “If you don’t let me say this, I’ll kick you again!” You smiled at Simon, “I love you!” You gave him a small pack on the cheek. “Well, Lets end it here!” We both waved at the camera. “Btw, love you too!” He smiled back before turning the camera off.

Requested?: Yes, Thank You
Warnings?: None
Pairing: Simon and Reader

So I combined to requests here, because I thought that they would fit Will together. I hope the two of you don’t mind.
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Y/N POV

Today’s the day.

I finally get to meet my boyfriend of a year in person.

Only thing I’m worried about is he won’t like me anymore where he sees me in person.

Like maybe I’ll be to short, or not as pretty as I am through videos and pictures. Maybe it will be opposite and he won’t be as attractive as I thought he was.

Either way, I’m about two seconds away from passing out and I’ve only just gotten off of the plane.

I’m now standing here, looking like an idiot while I try and find him in this crowd. It shouldn’t be that hard, I mean for god sakes the boy is a giant, or so I’ve been told.

Just as I’m about to give up, I receive a message on my phone.

From Simon
I see you. Shouldn’t be hard to spot me though. I’m the tall guy wearing a lime green hoodie.

I smile reading it, before looking up. It was then I spot him, making eye contact. I can see the joy on his face, which I can only assume mine matches.

I all but run in his direction, happy to finally see him. Well not through a computer screen.

I drop my bags right in front of him, as he picks me up, spinning me around.

“Oh my god.” He mumbles “You’re here.”

“I’m here.” I say, wrapping my arms tighter around him.

“You are a lot smaller than I thought you would be.”

I bring my head up to look at him

“Really? That’s the first thing you say to me?”

He chuckles and shrugs, setting me down “Sorry, just thought I would get it out of the way, before I do this.”

“Do what?”

Next thing I know he is leaning down and connecting our lips in a short but sweet kiss.

I’ve thought many times about what our first kiss would be like. From how soft his lips were to the place.

The softness was everything I expected. The place, however, wasn’t how I pictured it, but still was just as great.

When he pulls away, he smiles folly down at me, and. I smile back at him.

“C'mon, there is a few other people that are just dying to meet you.”

He then takes me suitcase handle in one hand, in his other, he takes mine.

Pulling up to the house, I didn’t expect it to be this big. I mean sure I’ve been shown around the place virtually, but it doesn’t even compare to seeing it in person.

“You coming?” I hear Simon ask

I guess I was so far in my day dream that I didn’t realize that he had already gotten out of the car, and also got my luggage.

“Yeah, sorry.” I say getting out “I was in my own little world.”

“I can tell,” He says opening the front door “Now you may not be able to meet Vik yet, because he may be…”

Simon gets cut off, by a small man running down the stairs and engulfing me in a hug. I laugh and wrap my arms around him. Vik was the first sidemen that I met. Coincidentally we met over Fortnite, where we quickly became streaming buddies.

“Hi Vik.” I say, pulling away from the hug

“Hi Y/N,” He says taking a step back “Sorry for the sudden hug, I was just excited to finally meet you.”

“Yeah, nice to finally meet the guy who gets carried by me all the time in Fortnite.”

“You do not carry me. I’ll prove it too. Lets go play a game.”

“Hey Vik,” Simon buts into our conversation, making him turn his head “My girlfriend, I want to spend time with her, so please don’t steal her from me with that game.”

“We’ll play later Vik.” I say as Simon takes me hand, leading me up the stairs.

“So JJ is out at the moment, training and all. While I think Josh is recording. So unfortunately you will have to meet them later.”

“Later is fine with me. I just really want a shower and to just sleep. I haven’t slept a wink since about two nights ago. I’ve just been to excited about this whole trip.”

“Okay, how about this,” Simon starts a we enter his room “You go and jump in the shower. While you are in there I will get a movie set up.”

I nod “That sounds like a good plan to me.”

He then smiles before giving me a quick kiss, before ushering me to the bathroom.

After probably an hour long shower, I finally exit his room. Only to be met with the cutest set up.

He’s thrown almost put together a fort like set up. He’s put pillows everywhere and blankets too. Yet he is no where to be seen.

Almost like he was trying to time it perfectly, he walks in the room carrying a bowl of popcorn.

“Oh good, you’re out.”

“What is this?” I say motioning towards the bed

“Just a little set up, hopefully to help convince you to watch Friends with me.”

“Simon, I don’t know.”

“Come on. Just give it a chance.”

“Fine,” I sigh “But next time we binge watch something I’m choosing.”

“I will gladly watch anything with you.”

We are now almost four episodes into the show, and I hate to admit it, but it’s growing on me. I’m still not officially into it, but I think I could be eventually.

I glance up at Simon, only to be met with his eyes.

“What?” I ask, poking away “Why are you staring at me?”

“Oh I can’t look at my girlfriend? I’m sorry.”

“Of course you can, but you were like staring at me.”

“I was just thinking about how I got so lucky to have you. Like I know we live thousands of miles apart, but we somehow make it work.”

“Of course we do. I will always want this to work out because I love you.”

My eyes widen at what I just said, I never thought I’d be the first to say it.

Simon just smiles at me before saying “I love you too.” Before giving a soft, but sweet kiss.

The rest of the night is filled with a million more kisses, ‘I love yous’ and many more Friends episodes.

I genuinely couldn’t have asked for a better night.

Ghost of You (Miniminter)

These kind of imagines are my favorite to write. They can just convey so much emotion. Though this one may be short. I hope you all don’t mind.

This is also loosely based off Ghost Of You by 5 Seconds Of Summer.

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Simon’s POV

Waking up in bed is hard, but now waking up without her to even harder. I still can’t sleep on her side of the bed. I still feel like it belongs to her.

The nights just keep getting more lonely, without her here. It hurts with how much I miss her, but I know it’s all my fault. I drove her away. I never paid attention to her. At least as much as I should have.

Every time I make a cup of tea, I have to reach around her cup. It’s still there, lipstick stain and all. There wasn’t a day when she wasn’t wearing some shade of it.

So the stain is there, almost permanently. A mixture of all those lipsticks she wore. I just can’t bring myself to wash it off fully. Inside I’d rather let it fade with time.

Sometimes in my dreams late at night, it’s almost as if I can still hear her. I hear small things she used to tell me. Encouragements almost.

The one I hear the most though is her telling me that I’ll be just fine. That I don’t need her to be happy. I can be happy all on my own.

Nights I’m not recording with the guys, I try to drown out everything. I have a bottle of vodka beside me. Taking shots of it everything other five minutes.

I can still picture her dancing around this room. Grabbing my hands and pulling me up with her, making me dance with her.

Now I just feel like I’m dancing with ghost of her.

A month has went by and I’m finally picking up my room. Trying to make myself feel better and get my mind off of her.

Unfortunately for me I found something. An old Zepplin shirt she used to wear all the time. It was the shirt she had on the day she finally moved in here. Getting away from the situation she was in at home. Getting away from the hurt that no one but her could feel.

People said that we were just too young and too dumb to be making this kind of decision. We didn’t care though. We just knew that we were in love and that I was helping her get out of there.

I would have done anything for her. She was my entire world. I know I didn’t show it very well, but I loved her. I wish I would have though. It hurts so much that she’s gone.

I think it would have been better if she didn’t just disappear. If she had told me she was leaving, or even told me that she didn’t feel appreciated enough.

I would have dropped everything for her. Even if that meant dropping out of something the guys wanted to do. I even skipped out on going to an event for her.

When she was sick I did everything I could just to make her feel better. Brought her anything she needed.

Now I’m just left with an empty feeling. A ghost of her.

I would do anything to get her back. Even if it meant giving up the life I have.

I would do it for her.