#susie q

DIARY OF SUZIE Q

Monday 17th December 2018

(10)

3:46// taken 2

3:53// sleepy

4:03// my back hurts so much

4:06// fuck it imma sleep sorry for a shot dorat

DIARY OF SUZIE Q

Sunday 16th December 2018

(9)

03:55// just taken 2 Squirrels

03:57// side not quetiapine has the side effect of increased appetite and causes weight gain and I have felt like I’ve put some weight on lately and it has been bothering me

04:00// I’m sleepy I should sleep but Netflix man

04:07// very sleepy

4:20// oh would you look at the time

04:30// I’m hella bored

04:35// tired and bored and lonely

04:51// sleepy time soon

04:54// I’m really struggling to breathe kinda feels like asthma erm heart rate Herron fastght getting faster but dr said it’s not the pills it’s anxiety but eyes closed beryls very sleepy now so I think I may head to skedp sleep now sweet dreams

05:02// my heart is beating so fast feels like a heart attack, I’m hella scared teeing to breath

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Thursday 13th December 2018

(8)

22:22// so tonight I’ll be back on seroquel, last night I was on tramadol and ended up vomiting, it always makes me sick I don’t know why I bother… but I have recently joined a drug support team to help me and set up a sober clock and so far I have been clean from codeine for 3 days, heroin for 4 days, and Xanax for 17 days, so starting from today I will be looking to stop all drugs and try and stay clean and just have my Squirrels from the doctor

00:16// just taken 2 pills - 50mg

00:26// mad headache

00:29// I feel so sick and dizzy but I think it’s still from yesterday ugh

01:03 :: noddin

01:05/: wayching neo yokio and eating smax smacks

1:23// light headed

1:35// so fucking sleepy

00:1:45// nodding out

1:58// nodding to sleep

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Wednesday 12th December

(7)

01:28// haven’t taken them in a few days, yesterday I had a 3 of Lean instead… just got off the phone with my girl/exgirl and we’re good but I’m just overthinking so many things so hopefully these will help stop that tonight

01:37// just taken 2 pills 50mg

01:57// sleepy and slow but was sleepy before so dunno

2:17// I enjoy this food

02:33// feeling wavy asfuxk

2:37:: eyes low hungry as fuckeru screen bright ah

2:51// o want Chinese food I’m so hungry

2:52// fuck do food slfroyvd I’m so sleepy n out of it. Can’t hrrok keep eyes open gonna sleep blessed adding sleep noecas nose as now as can’t keep eyes sfr open

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Sunday 9th December 2018

(6)

03:00// I wasn’t going to take any suzie tonight but started overthinking and getting sad again :/

03:03// sad vibes

03:09// horny smh

03:22// feel chill

3:29// I really want more hard drugs :(

3:33// feeling sleepy and my eyes are heavy

3:43// sleepy and just eh… tired yeahuhhh

3:53// one more episode then sleep but still hungry and horny but most of all I’m so thirsty I want lean ughhhh

4:19// time to sleep

4:20// goodnight.

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Saturday 8th December 2018

(5)

23:30// just taken 2 Squirrels

23:43// eating

23:57// cold and still sonhun

Cold and still so hungry but I’ve ate so much

00:02// very slow, felt out of it for a second, went really slow but I’m ok kinda sleepy

00:16// bored, it hasn’t done shit

00:28// eyes tyong

00:28// eyes sting, breathing slow

00:33// struggling to breathe

00:40// really finding it hard to breathe

00:49// I’m tired and sleepy but scared I’ll die in my sleep

01:23// just had a cigarette, feel a bit better but still hard to breathe

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Friday 7th December 2018

(4)

2:22// so I haven’t taken my dose tonight, all day I have felt weird and very angry and very aggressive and very paranoyand very anxious I don’t know if it’s these pills but I’m going to crack a NOS balloon now then after take me dose and if I feel this way tomorrow I will conclude it’s because of these pills, let’s see

3:25am// just taken the 2 pills 50mg Squirrels, I’ve been so depressed and anxious today it’s unreal and just had 2 balloons… fucking love balloons man

3:33// sad vibes.

3:39// I don’t feel shit.

3:51// I let my ex back in and I feel like I’m going to be heartbroken again

3:51// I can’t even English right now my eyes hurts like they sting n ears tuning toning if fuck ringing. Eyes sting bad and it’s almost 4 am and kinda tired but very hungry and scared about work fuck I’m so anxious.

3:53// sleepy af but also not sleepy af uno

4:09// ex on the phone, so sleepy ugh fml

4:18:/ ducking delos feels like Xanax ugh my legs so sleepy fuck ugh sleep time human du yin maybe for

4:20// ayyyy

4:21// ahhwww

4:22// I feel so sick and judtbdkellyr sleepy

4:23// writing watbtoncdc q

Wqyvtib

Fuck

Writing

Way

To hard

Hoofnightbf

Goofnight

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Thursday 6th December 2018

(3)

23:32// just taken 2 50mg

23:40// feel a bit lightheaded.. but dizzy

23:41// can’t function very well

23:50// sleepy, hungry and horny

23:58// kinda feel glued here

00:00// sleepy baby

00:03// masturbate, eat, sleep, then yeet

00:26// ugh kinda feel out of it ugh yeah

00:26// that felt a while but I got snaxxx

00:45// fuck still hungry smh.

00:46// sleepy eyes heavy

01:00// I fucking hate humans, like why are people so horrible ? Honestly what is the point in giving someone hate, like you get nothing out of it ? It feels like fucking petty high school bullshit

01:03// sleepy and angry

01:04// I want something harder

01:09// I’m so angry. I’m so sleep. Eyes low. Bearing breathing Los. Low. So angry fucking cunts. Eyes eyes sting ugh I want to die so bad.

01:11// I’m sad.

0:1:28// fuck it I’m gonna sleep. Goodnight

DIARY OF SUZIE Q

Wednesday 5th December 2018

(2)

02:32// Day 2 of Suzie Q peach pill E52, just taken the pill now.

02:48// no noticeable affects but kinda tired

03:09// some stupid bitch just really pissed me off talking about something she has no idea about, fyi if you’re not black then don’t fucking debate your opinion on black topics, it has nothing to do with you, and cultural appropriation is wrong, wether you think so or not, your opinion is not valid or welcome here, ugh she made me mad but fuck it

03:18// sleepy af. This diary has. Erm been kinda shit ago so I’m siomrry ugh I’m sorry. Eyes hurts. Kinda seems like just had a rant then left

3:19:: lock ugh lock lock my lock lock

Never mind.

3:26// wanting someone to love me

3:26:: sad.

3:26// still sad.

3:26// my tummy hurts I’m so hungry.

3:27/: sigh.

3:28// playing good music, going to sleep, that concludes this diary, sorry it was kinda shit, until next time, it’s yaaaa boy, skinny …. ;)