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Who will dry ur eyes when it falls apart?

I thought that having an eating disorder meant that you would lose weight. I am literally going insane over a plateaued weight.

I’ve been so good.

I can’t remember the last time I felt this alone

I’m getting bad again. And unlike every other time, when I’ve sought out help,

This time I’m just letting it infest me.

I want to lose weight. No matter what. I want to feel numb, because I have been stuck in a rut of feeling too much for too long.

Getting lost in myself has never hurt so much.

I don’t know

I don’t know if it was the fact that I moved away from the stress, or that I’m working out longer and harder, or that I’m eating so much less than I did before, but I made it guys.

Goal #1 has been reached. Collarbones are coming back and visible.

Just gotta keep going.

I’m getting bad again…

It’s festival season, and where I am, it’s really hot. I’ve been working out a lot and I’ve lost weight but my thighs and butt have gotten bigger with muscle, but none of last years shorts fit anymore.

I tried buying some new ones today. And although I have been in such a good place about my body, I haven’t felt this low since high school. I haven’t eaten at all today, and I know I should eat but I can’t justify it.

I just can’t do this again.

I feel like my life is burning.

Life punishes me every time I’m happy. I get hurt. People I love get hurt. And I can’t tell if it’s my fault anymore. I just want to be happy.

Opened myself up

Only to get heartbreak like every other time. I swear I never make the right choice.

cue-intense-screaming:

any other borderlines find their impulsiveness getting worse on a higher dose of seroquel ?? i upped my dose recently on recommendation from a psych but my impulsive symptoms have been wreaking havoc on me- is this normal ? does it go away ? 

yeah so uh. question answered. i was just in a hypomanic episode- anyways now my hair is green and i have 30 whole dollars left in my bank account- 

side note: i might have bipolar 2 as well as bpd 

any other borderlines find their impulsiveness getting worse on a higher dose of seroquel ?? i upped my dose recently on recommendation from a psych but my impulsive symptoms have been wreaking havoc on me- is this normal ? does it go away ? 

i got my bpd diagnosis today ! i’ve been trying to for years so im very happy to finally have access to the resources i need. it is a bit bittersweet though, but im trying to be positive about it. 

please dont treat this as a joke guys :/

so after years of research i realized i have borderline personality disorder. i know i am self diagnosing but i know 100% that i have it. after years of struggling with symptoms i didnt recognize, thinking i only have depression and social anxiety. i hit every single trait. all 9 traits of bpd. this video im watching of a psychiatrist explaining it to someone who has no clue, is saying every single thing i experience on a regular basis. hopefully i have nothing else and hopefully i can get treated as soon as possible.

a question with people who have BPD: how did you get diagnosed? how do i receive help. im scared a professional will misdiagnose me. do i see a therapist… a psychiatrist???

BPD POST #21

The scary uncontrollable rage that can ruin your life within seconds and then you’re forced to pick up the pieces afterwards.

BPD POST #20

that moment when you stop reading a book because you’re getting too emotionally attached to the characters and you won’t be able to handle it when the book ends

BPD POST #19

When you took all the precautions to make sure a FP would never leave, but they do.

BPD POST #18

you want to have a close friend, a #fp, but then you instantly push them away because you’re scared they’ll hurt and/or leave you.

BPD POST #17

emotional instability.

BPD POST #18

dissociating and having a self-identity crisis every 0.2 seconds.

BPD POST #17

Wishing you could leave your body because you hate yourself so much.