This is the cover I did for the DiRT Zine + the art for the shibari earphone keyholder + Some SK8 doodles from last month LOL (DK Ainosuke + Yandere Tadapi).
Me: OK I’m gonna ask something extra stupid but… what does “DK” stand for? Lauren: Oh, it’s 男子高校生 Me: Oh! Ok! I just kept seeing “DK Ainosuke,” and I was like “… Donkey Kong Ainosuke????”
- University-aged LanReki. Not because there’s anything bad about them being in highschool, but because I believe Langa has the potential to grow bigger and stronger, so like
- Just me, being horny for bad skater man. Nothing new there.
- Someone on twitter said “sleeveless turtleneck Tadashi,” and I complied (his torso is too big tho oops). - Same, but with puppy filter~
No one asked for it, but I kinda went crazy thinking about ADAM in a charro costume instead of a matador one. Then, I couldn’t decide if I liked the red or blue version better. Then, someone suggested the final costume should be a Charro Negro call-back. Then I added a silly BG I had from a commission I drew last year. And finally, a mini Mariachi Tadashi bc why not?
Ainosuke has soft moments in his teenage age, maybe because Tadashi was on his side that time, but then it crumbled down after…….. That’s sort of the base idea of the comic ;w;
With pre-orders closing soon we wanted to add a super fun double-sided mystery bookmark designed by @bowldeepfannish! This super awesome bookmark features Reki, Langa, Adam, and Tadashi, so you won’t want to miss it!
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Synopsis: Ainosuke once loved Tadashi, but ever since he broke his heart, he decided to never have anything to do with him. But what happens if he meets him again after so many years and finds out a secret that will change both of their lives forever?
Warm sunlight streams into the room. The wind was hot, so Ainosuke and his aunts had to retreat deeper inside the sunroom to take shade. The birds were singing happily today, as if good news was forthcoming.
The clinking sound of teacups filled the room as Takahisa delivered cold tea to help his employers cool off.
Rather than wearing his usual coat and tie, Ainosuke wore a collared shirt that exposed a bit of his taut chest and his nicely sculpted forearms. Faint scars on the skin can be barely noticed, but Ainosuke is still conscious. Because of the heat, he had no choice. Although when he retreats to his room, he can wear his usual outfit again and blare his air conditioner in full force.
Everyone in the room waited for Takahisa to finish before Aunt Kaguya began,
“Ainosuke, we heard what happened. Maybe it’s about time you chose a partner? You met a lot of them at the party, right? Surely you must have already chosen someone.”
Ainosuke, who had expected the tirade, just smiled. He tried to change the topic. Aunt Kaguya, who was aware of what he was doing, let him finish talking before saying,
“Ainosuke, did you know that Tadashi sent a message?”
A sudden bump jolted Ainosuke’s focus. He drinks his cold tea to clear his mind.
“Yes, I was informed that he was advised by the doctor to get some rest. He has been having problems sleeping lately and…”
“Maybe we should choose another secretary for you. Just in case Tadashi ultimately decides to quit. Natsuno is there and he has been accompanying you lately, right?”
Ainosuke remembers the resignation letter he found in Tadashi’s room and clenches his fist.
“Takahisa has mentioned his intention to quit. But he has yet to submit his resignation letter.”
“That was to be expected.” Aunt Sayuri added.
“He was hesitant to get this job, wasn’t he? And made it clear from the beginning that he would only work temporarily.”
“We were hoping he would change his mind.” Aunt Chieko commented.
“Aunts, I don’t mind having a spare secretary. Once Tadashi recovers, I’ll prefer him to still be my secretary.”
Natsuno, who was standing near the door, could only listen to the conversation. Ainosuke has been undergoing a whirlwind of mood swings lately just because Tadashi hasn’t returned to the mansion yet. And lately, he has been looking despondent and contemplative. He stopped trying to meet omegas who could help with his rut. Honestly, everything related to his rut baffled Natsuno. Usually, it would be done when an alpha has sex with an omega, and yet, his master had trouble with even this.
When they left the sunroom, Ainosuke looked gloomy as ever. His brows knit and unease was clear on his face.
Seeing him like this, Natsuno’s curiosity got the better of him. He asks, “Ainosuke-sama, do you perhaps miss Kikuchi-san?"
Finally, Natsuno was able to get the words out of himself. The words he had been meaning to ask Ainosuke for so long since Tadashi and Ainosuke fought were finally spoken.
Ainosuke pressed his lips together. His frown deepened. He looked more disappointed than furious. His downcast eyes had a flicker of sadness in them. Natsuno noticed the glint and couldn’t help but widen his eyes. For the first time, he found his master cute. It reminded him that they were the same age and maybe had the same troubles when it came to matters of the heart. Natsuno’s eyes sparkled with newfound discovery. He remembered his master’s actions so far and connected the dots. His possessiveness was not normal for someone he called a mere friend. His face whenever Take is mentioned with Tadashi’s name always gave the impression that he was displeased. Most of all, the way he looked at him sometimes had a different softness to it.
Come to think of it, watching them interact sometimes gave Natsuno strange feelings. It always gave the impression that they were in a world of their own. When he saw Tadashi smile faintly, he couldn’t help but remember how some of the maids were always telling each other how Tadashi’s countenance got brighter and how he got a lot more refreshing when Ainosuke returned. He had always dismissed this as some random compliment thrown out because he was one of the few people in the mansion who found Tadashi likable. Most of the other staff members are not comfortable around Tadashi. He is, after all, a reminder that they had to work twice as hard as a staff of the Shindo household. He also never minced his words when he scolded them, so he was feared by many of the junior staff members.
Most of the women found Tadashi’s face and figure attractive, but they would add that it’s the only thing going for him apart from his work ethic. They would agree that no woman could fall in love with someone so gloomy and a workaholic as Tadashi. They would even joke around that they wouldn’t mind spending a night with him just once. They guessed that he would probably be passionate in bed.
This sort of conversation, which he sometimes overheard some of the maids’ talk, scandalized him. Ever since the master died and the tension in the mansion practically disappeared, more staff members were open about what they thought. Especially the women. But now, though, he thought that maybe they had a point and that if Ainosuke liked Tadashi, maybe Tadashi liked Ainosuke too.
Oh my gosh! Maybe it is mutual. Natsuno couldn’t help but widen his eyes in happiness at the thought. How thrilling! How intriguing!
Tadashi’s bite mark came to his mind.
The truth is, when he saw it, anger rushed to his heart. It made him think that Ainosuke was indeed what he had thought him to be—a bad person. That he finally did what Natusno feared the most–violently attack Tadashi. That changed as a flurry of sweet feelings rushed through Natsuno’s whole body at the things he strung together.
While initially thinking that Ainosuke was intimidating and hard to deal with, the few days that he and Ainosuke were together changed that. For the first time, he considered that maybe Ainosuke felt more than friendship towards his colleague. And it may be mutual!
Natsuno’s smile widened. Oh, how he loves this kind of thing!
"Master, I miss him too. I hope he comes back soon.
"I want to spoil him! He has that effect on people, even though he scolds me all the time. So I understand how you feel.”
“No, you don’t.” Ainosuke unexpectedly responds. Natsuno stares at his master and notices the flush in the other’s ears.
Panicky, Natsuno blurts out whatever is on his mind. He says, “Of course, I guess because you’ve been possessive towards him from the beginning. And even though you were angry with him for reasons I don’t know, you still kept on asking about him all the time."
Ainosuke stops walking. When Natsuno looked at him, his master flushed even more.
Natsuno couldn’t stop himself from saying, "You must really like him."Master you…”
“Natsuno stop! Why do you always talk too much? Ugh. Leave it. I don’t want to hear any more out of you.”
The desperation in Ainosuke’s voice made Natsuno’s nosy self happy. All this time he had been cheering for Take for Tadashi, but for some reason, his master’s cute reaction towards Tadashi was kind of endearing. It thrilled him. He can sense a love triangle in the air.
Ainosuke retreated to his room and told Natsuno to call him when it was lunchtime. A whirlwind of emotions possessed poor Ainosuke as soon as he was alone. He didn’t want the fact that he missed Tadashi shoved in his face. What came with it, of course, was the same hotness, the same desire he felt the first time he was drugged. He had been trying to fight back the effects of the drug through sheer willpower; thinking that he had to be proper when he finally met Tadashi again; thinking that the forcefulness, violence, and bad things he did and said demanded him to be gentle and honest if he wanted Tadashi to forgive him.
Takahisa had always told him Tadashi had a soft spot for him, so he need not worry about Tadashi hating him, but was it really true? Would Tadashi really forgive him for treating him like a toy, after demanding him to spread his legs for him because it was his right as Aichirou’s son? He practically caused Tadashi’s suffering at the hands of Aichirou. If he didn’t bite him, the thought made Ainosuke pause. He widened his eyes, and anger started to spread from his heart to his limbs. He felt the muscles in his jaw and hands clench. If he hadn’t bit Tadashi, Aichirou would’ve forced him into a bond. That was even worse!
He didn’t want that.
Ainosuke started thinking about the things that he would have done if it was the case and told himself that biting Tadashi was a good call. He didn’t know exactly how it happened, but he couldn’t help but thank his past self.
It is selfish of him. Tadashi has suffered so much as a result of his previous actions that he can only do the right thing and be good to him, treasure him properly, and, if he would allow it, serve as his master (and possibly husband) for the rest of their lives together.
For the rest of their lives together.
The words caused Ainosuke’s heart to melt and his hands to turn cold as all the warmth in his body went to his whole face. Ainosuke lowers his eyelids and presses his lips together.
He liked Tadashi so much that he thinks he’s going to go bald just thinking about it. Falling on his bed, he takes a pillow, curves his body into it, and hugs it so tightly to hide his flushed face. To be honest, he thinks he was too moody at times. His emotions abruptly change from pure, unadulterated anger and now to being completely and utterly head over heels for the same person.
Unlike when he was outside of Japan, now, he had no distractions to help him keep his longing for Tadashi at bay. Ainosuke was forced to confront this part of himself.
The hotness that was now slowly concentrated on his lower half that he was waiting so patiently for was disrupted by his phone vibrating. He takes it out to check it. When he saw that it was only a random notification from Yahoo, he was disappointed. After a brief pause, and after his pressed mouth softens into a pout, he decides to call Tadashi.
He wasn’t sure if the older man would pick up but Ainosuke really wanted to hear his voice. The ringing sound felt like it was the ticking of a time bomb. He swallows a lump in his throat and waits patiently; his lower half steadily rising as the drug acts up again in his system. As a warm haze enveloped his whole body and made his feet numb, Tadashi finally picks up.
“Hello, Tadashi Kikuchi speaking.” At the sound of Tadashi’s voice, Ainosuke shudders. His eyelids, his mouth, his hands, his whole body were like a leaking dam, spilling lust everywhere. He could not help but sigh as he pressed his phone against his ear.
Shameless as it was, Ainosuke could not help but rub his hips against the pillow he was clutching with all his might.
“Ainosuke-sama do you need anything?” Tadashi’s voice was gentle. There was no sign of anger nor dismissiveness there.
“Tadashi…"
At the other end of the line, Tadashi fell quiet. The older man thought that his master’s voice seemed strange. It made him flush as he remembered the way he called his name when they were intimate at the banquet. Noticing that Tadashi had gone quiet, Ainosuke cleared his throat and tried to pretend he wasn’t aroused.
"How are you doing?”
Ainosuke was forced to bite his lips to stifle a moan as he sped up his rhythm of rubbing himself against his pillow.
It took a few seconds before Tadashi could respond.
“I’m fine. How about you? How are you feeling?”
Every syllable Tadashi uttered was like a piece of molten iron being pressed onto Ainosuke’s skin, branding him. Previously, he would have hated this feeling, but now, he wouldn’t mind if Tadashi did it to him in real life. It was not helping that he feels like floating in thin air at the sensation that was enveloping him.
“I feel fine. Tadashi… when are you coming…” Ainosuke paused. He wanted to say “home,” but that would imply something more intimate, so he abruptly changed to, “When are you coming back?”
“Your work has been piling up.”
Ainosuke felt himself pale at inserting work matters here of all times. That didn’t help him settle the burning feeling he felt inside; in fact, it even heightened it. He lets go of the pillow and unbuckles his belt. Finally loose, he opens his zipper and kneads his bulge slowly but surely, tracing lines and ripples on its covered surface to tease himself.
At the other end of the line, Tadashi was quiet. He didn’t know what to say. He had been debating with himself whether to present his resignation himself in person or just ask Natsuno to get it from his drawer and submit it for him.
Noticing that Tadashi has fallen quiet again, Ainosuke sighs against the phone as he slowly takes out his hard dick to give it more breathing space. It was hot as it pulsated in his hand. He took a glance and noticed a white substance spilling from his tip. His engorged member twitched as he heard Tadashi breath out at the other end of the line.
“Say something. Anything."
Tadashi noticed that his master’s breathing was labored. His voice cracked at the end as he pleaded with him to say something. Worried, Tadashi asked, "are you alright?”
“I feel so hot.” Ainosuke wraps his hand around his girth and adjusts himself on the bed. Beads of sweat trailed down his forehead as he moved.
Tadashi who had retreated when the sun got too much on the veranda, replied, “Yes, it’s really hot these days. I hope Natsuno didn’t forget to give you something cold to drink when you’re outside.”
Ainosuke didn’t pick up the obliviousness in those words, as his mind was clouded from all the lust that filled him. He moved his hand up and down his length. The friction made him feel good.
“More. Tell me more.”
Baffled, Tadashi was at a loss for words. What was happening to Ainosuke? Did the heat get to his head? Wasn’t he supposed to be angry with him? Why was he trying to have a conversation with him right now?
“Praise me like you always do.”
As Tadashi started his litany of praise, Ainosuke felt himself shudder. He turned the loudspeaker on and inserted his left hand inside his shirt. His nipples had gotten hard merely from the sound of Tadashi’s voice, and he wanted to tease them to make himself feel even better. He brushed a finger on its bulb and circled it around his areola.
In all of his sexual encounters, Ainosuke had always been the one teasing other people’s private parts. The chest was a favorite part of his. He loved the way he was put in control when he sucked those lewd buds. The way his partners would squirm and moan as his tongue licked over those little protrusions made him feel confident about himself.
In those times, he had always thought that he would never be on the receiving end of this act. He had thought that he would never put himself in such a position; a position where he was exposed, skin ripped bare to expose his soul to his partner. It was embarrassing and utterly shameless. Even when he was with Yuki, he never tried to expose the full extent of his pleasure to him. And yet now, he wishes Tadashi was there with him to do to him what he was doing to himself.
He remembered the time Tadashi had his way with him and was curious about how a finger would feel. He was about to insert one when he heard a familiar, deep voice,
“Tadashi have you eaten yet? I brought food. Let’s eat together if you hadn’t.”
“You’re back already? I thought the seminar would be for the whole day.”
Tadashi covered the mouthpiece, but Ainosuke still managed to hear him. The sound of Take’s voice caused Ainosuke to feel like a bucket of cold water was being poured over his head. His arousal immediately went limp. Disgust and anger replaced lust. His body was still burning from the effect of the drug, but the rage he felt at being slapped by the fact that Tadashi and Take lived together was so great that it made the lust brought about by the drug to exist no more.
Ainosuke hangs up. He clutched his phone and punched his bedsheets. He despised Take with every fiber of his being. In fact, he hated him more than he hated Aichirou. It escapes him why. Take was harmless. He looked like a big dog wagging his tail when he was with Tadashi, and yet he hated him enough to want to punch him every time he saw him with Tadashi. So much so, that no matter how good his mood was, it would immediately turn sour the moment he heard his name.
Deep in his heart, he knew the reason why. He just didn’t want to admit to himself that he felt inferior to Take. He was taller than him, well built, and more gentle and kind towards Tadashi. Tadashi readily gives him a sweet smile. He touches him like it is the most natural thing in the world. When it comes to Ainosuke, on the other hand, Tadashi is hesitant to even look at him.
Just thinking about the difference in how Tadashi interacts with the two of them makes Ainosuke illogically insecure and unsure of himself. He rolls on the bed and hugs the pillow again. He buries his face against its fluffy surface and tries to stop the feeling of helplessness that spreads in his heart. This feeling used to be tolerable, but ever since he found out the truth, and realized how insufferable he had been, it got worse. He felt like something was eating at his heart.
Ainosuke curled into himself, closed his eyes, and drifted to sleep.
Synopsis: Ainosuke once loved Tadashi, but ever since he broke his heart, he decided to never have anything to do with him. But what happens if he meets him again after so many years and finds out a secret that will change both of their lives forever?
Chapter summary: This is a chapter dedicated to Tadashi and Aichirou’s relationship in this story.
A/N: No need to read this. I just wrote this because I could not take this off my mind. I had been debating with myself whether to post this or not but since it is going to be my birthday soon I decided to just humor myself and include this. No one would miss anything as I will include bits and pieces from this chapter in future chapters.This features bottom!Tada but it’s not him being properly loved.Despite that, if you want to read the entirety of Tadashi and Aichirou’s relationship then just keep in mind these trigger warnings:
1. Attraction to a child 2. Stalking 3. Rape 4. Mentions of desire to abduct a child. 5. Physical abuse (not towards Tadashi) 6. Addiction. 7. Drug use.It’s not that explicit I think but it still gave me a headache and I felt like throwing up as I wrote this. Maybe it’s just because I cannot take bottom!Tada.
Takahisa takes the pictures and throws them into the fire. The photos crumpled as the tongues of the flames lapped over them. He waits for all of them to turn into ash before he leaves.
Aichirou and Tadashi’s relationship was odd, to say the least. They met when Tadashi was 10 years old, when Tadashi was helping his father tend the garden. Aichirou was having tea at the gazebo.
Children were prone to feeling comfortable around good-looking people. The regal air around Aichirou and his handsome face fascinated little Tadashi. He had always been curious about the master of the house, who allowed him to visit little Ainosuke. As he looked up at the man, Tadashi could not help but feel warm in his chest. He was grateful to this man.
“Master, this is my son Tadashi.”
Tadashi peeked behind his father. His flustered cheeks were the color of cherries. Aichirou flashes him a sweet smile, kneels, and opens his arms.
“Oh, is this him now?”
Little Tadashi’s eyes sparkled. He ran to Aichirou. Unexpectedly, he grabbed the older man’s tie and kissed him on the cheek.
Tadashi’s father was shocked. He pulled Tadashi away and apologized.
“I don’t mind.” Aichirou smiles brightly, the dimple on his right cheek deepening. Tadashi’s father felt goosebumps. It was rare for Achirou to smile.
“Come here.. what’s your name again?” Aichirou grabs Tadashi by his little arm and drags him to him. Aichirou bends down to gaze eye-to-eye with him.
“Tadashi.”
“Tadashi. What a lovely name. Come kiss this uncle again. ” Aichirou shows the side of his left cheek and waits for the kiss.
Tadashi innocently plants another kiss on Aichirou’s cheek, runs to his father, and hides shyly. He tugs on his clothes. It was about time for him to meet Ainosuke, so he wanted to go.
“Excuse us, sir.”
Tadashi waves goodbye.
Aichirou was a man who did not care about others. When his wife ran away, he didn’t even feel bad or dejected. He just thought it was good riddance. And yet, just a single kiss from Tadashi made something change in him.
His work prevented him from seeing Tadashi. He was always busy. However, this didn’t stop his fascination with Tadashi from growing more intense. Liking a 10-year-old never made him feel guilty, so hiring someone to stalk him was easy. His obsession grew so intense that he even sent Takahisa to take pictures for him.
He knows it is wrong to have such feelings, but he could not help himself. The pictures were the only connection he had with Tadashi. They had no interaction beyond that, and little Tadashi had no idea he was a target of Aichirou’s morally questionable desires.
When Tadashi was in his last year of junior high, they crossed paths again. He came across Aichirou reading at the gazebo while looking for Ainosuke, with whom he was playing hide and seek.Tadashi felt awkward when he saw the older man. The disdain in his heart made him feel angry. The cause of it was that he knew that some of the bruises and scratches on Ainosuke’s arms were made by him. Tadashi’s father had told him not to say anything to the master, no matter how angry he felt about Ainosuke’s wounds.
Everyone at the house knew Ainosuke was being physically abused, but they could not do anything. Tadashi had snapped at his father when he realized that he knew too but didn’t say anything. Finally, given the opportunity to confront Aichirou, he walks up to him.
Tadashi was afraid, but he didn’t want to see Ainosuke hurt anymore, so he steeled himself. When Aichirou saw him, the older man smiled sweetly, his dimples visible as his eyes turned into crescents on his well-sculpted face.
“You’ve grown quite a bit now, Tadashi,” Aichirou says, his head pressed against his fist.
“Let me take a good look at you. Come to uncle and give him a kiss will you?”
Tadashi did not obey. He ignored him and said, “Sir, please stop hurting Ainosuke-sama.”
Aichirou’s smile turned into a frown. There was something in his eyes that scared Tadashi, so he stepped back.
“You’re really fond of my good for nothing son, aren’t you?” He laughed.
“Sir, Ainosuke-sama is not a good for nothing. He’s awesome and cool. He is smart and kind. He can do anything! ”
“It’s not actually me that punishes him all the time,” Aichirou responded dismissively.
Tadashi tightened his lips in a grave line. He was appalled by the lack of care Aiichirou displayed for Ainosuke.
“Come here, Tadashi. Let’s end the talk about that brat. ”
“Ainosuke-sama is not a brat.”
“I said, come here!’ Aichirou yanks Tadashi by the arm and lifts him to sit on his lap. Tadashi could not react as Aichirou, a man of almost forty, was just too strong. Being forced to sit on his lap made Tadashi feel embarrassed. Even his father doesn’t put him on his lap anymore.
"You’ve put on weight now. How old are you?”
“Fourteen,” Tadashi mumbles.
“Fourteen? Wow. Time sure flies.”
Aichirou wraps his arms around Tadashi’s waist. He leans in and sniffs him. The smell of talcum powder and sweat teased Aichirou’s nose. The skin on his arms turned gooseflesh at how close Tadashi was.
“Ainosuke sleeps with you all the time, doesn’t he?"
Tadashi feels Aichirou breathe on his neck.
"Sir?” Tadashi asks uncomfortably.
When Tadashi felt something wet on his neck, he elbowed Aichirou to get away.
At the harsh rejection, Aichirou just laughs. Sorry, I overdid it. You smell so good, I just couldn’t resist.“
Tadashi was confused. He sniffed himself and then ran away.
He could hear Aichiriu giggle as he throttled away from him, The wetness in his nape gave him goosebumps. At that moment, Tadashi felt there was something odd going on with Aichirou. Tadashi always thought Aichirou was a pleasant man, but when he knew he was maltreating Ainosuke, his opinion of him changed. This encounter made Tadashi feel even more uncomfortable with him.
When he found Ainosuke hiding behind the garden shack, he was surprised when the younger boy asked him why he was so pale.
"Did something happen?”
“Nothing, Ainosuke-sama.”
“But you’re trembling.”
“Really?’ Tadashi hid his trembling hand.
"It’s fine. We should go look at the roses.”
Tadashi told himself not to come near Aichirou again. He gives him the creeps.
—-
Aichirou opens a photo album and inserts a photo Takahisa gave him.
“Takahisa. Tadashi is really adorable. He got angry at me today. His angry face is also beautiful. Did you know that?”
Takahisa looked away, disturbed.
Aichirou caresses the picture of Tadashi in his hand. It was a picture of him smiling. Ainosuke’s arm can be seen, so it was taken when they were playing together.
“I really want him. Maybe I should ask Kennichi to give him to me?”
“Master… He is not a toy that you can just ask someone to give to you.”
“Do you think Kennichi will agree?” Aichirou ignores Takahisa’s response.
“He’s beginning to get suspicious of me. I went to their house last night. He must have seen me.”
“What? Master, why would you do that?”
“It’s been a long time since I saw Tadashi, so I wanted to see him. I didn’t think he was going to come today.” Aichirou smiled.
Ah… I really want Tadashi.
“If Kennichi won’t agree, then I can just abduct Tadashi. No one would know.”
Panicking, Takahisa tried to reason with his master.
“If you do that, he will forever hate you. Do you want that? Wouldn’t it be better to properly make him…” Takahisa paused, disgusted with what he was about to say.
“Wouldn’t it be better to properly court him when he reaches the right age?”
“Kennichi-san loves his son. Even if it’s you, he wouldn’t just accept it.
"Furthermore, Tadashi-kun is just a child. A child with a lot of potential at that. Do you really want to destroy the life of someone you say you love?
"Wouldn’t it be better for him to like you as much as you say you like him?”
Aichirou laughs. His evil laugh thundered in the office.
“You’re right. Takahisa, you’re right! I’ll wait. I’m willing to wait for him. I just wish he would stop being with Ainosuke. As long as that brat is here, I don’t think I will feel at ease.”
He clenched his hand into a fist and his eyes were wide with rage and fury. Takahisa was taken aback.
“Being told I love you by Tadashi, being kissed by that sweet little mouth of his, who does Ainosuke think he is? Even though he is just that bitch’s good for nothing son.
"No. This won’t do. If I think about the brat I would lose it! Seriously, Why do I even bother? Even though he is just that bitch’s son.”
Takahisa trembled.
“Sir, bocchan…”
“What?” He gives Takahisa a harsh look.
“Nothing.”
Takahisa wanted to tell Aichirou it was not Ainosuke’s fault and that he should stop venting his anger at the poor child just because he was jealous of him.
To prevent Aichirou from committing a crime, Takahisa was forced to continue taking pictures.
“I really want to see him. Maybe I should go to their house?” Aichirou would sometimes say, but Takahisa made sure he had a lot of work to not be able to do so. He did his utmost to prevent Aichirou from doing something bad. He made sure he had a lot of schedules and events just to keep him busy.
Takahisa’s wife was worried about him. The stress was obvious on his face. But he could not tell her what was going on because it was a sensitive topic. Most often, he just changed topics so that she would not ask anymore.
When Tadashi’s father got sick, Aichirou finally had the opportunity to visit their house. There was a commotion in the neighborhood at that time. Aichirou’s black luxury car was eye-catching, and the neighbors were curious about who he was. He made sure to dress differently, younger. He did not gel his hair; he let it loose. It makes him look even more like an older Ainosuke, only that he had a softer look to his eyes.
Aichirou was making full use of his charms.
When he sees Tadashi for the first time in years, he feels like dragging him and keeping him inside a jar. This man, who he has been keeping tabs on without his knowledge, is finally right in front of him. The first thing that Aichirou noticed was how Tadashi looked. He looked thinner than in the last picture that was sent to him. But he didn’t mind.
He breathes in and tries to find Tadashi’s scent. When he was younger, he had the powdery scent of talcum common to children. But none of that smell was present now. He could smell nothing.
Aichirou offers Tadashi’s mom that he’ll help them with the hospitalization bills. He takes this chance to walk towards Tadashi, who is standing beside her. In exchange, Tadashi can just work for him. The pay was good. It was tempting, but the family was hesitant.
“Thank you, sir. We appreciate it a lot, but…” Tadashi’s mom looks over at Tadashi.
“Our Tada-kun is an omega.”
Aichirou’s eyes widened at the revelation. His eyes focused on Tadashi, and an intense euphoria rushed to his heart. It was perfect! Tadashi was truly destined to become his. He felt a muscle tug at his lower half.
Tadashi breaks down in front of Aichirou. They were really at their limit. He knew Tadashi was forced to quit school to do odd jobs to fund his Father’s hospital bills. Aichirou grinned inside. He grabbed that chance to hug him. He consoled him, rubbing his back slowly as he did so.
Tadashi! My sweet Tadashi.
"But Tada-kun doesn’t emit pheromones and his heats are usually consistent and mild, so if the master still wants him to work despite that, then…“
"Of course, he can.”
Tadashi settles into his embrace, and that makes Aichirou let out a faint grunt. He felt an excitement he could not explain. He really wants to fuck Tadashi then and there. He did not care whether his mom was watching. He wanted so much to violate him. He tightens his hug, all the while cursing in his mind. He did not care if Tadashi felt his hard-on. He doesn’t care anymore. He wants to take him away and hide him from the world.
“Sir…” Tadashi starts. Aichirou was thrilled at the thought that the younger man had noticed his hard-on. He was tempted to rub it against him.
“I’m grateful. Please let me work for you. I’ll do anything.”
Aichirou pats Tadashi’s head and smiles. He wanted to kiss him. In fact, he was leaning to do so, but he felt Takahisa tug at the hem of his suit. He looks at him. Takahisa’s eyes were firm. It was saying, “Please not here. Get yourself together.”
Tadashi withdrew from the embrace and smiled warmly at Aichirou.
“Thank you so much, sir.”
He was very happy. That smile was the last straw. He had to get him. He had to have him.
Finally, Finally! He can act out on his desire for him. The Gods must have finally heard his prayer to grant him this gift. It was perfect timing. Tadashi was no longer the 10-year-old child he once was. He was now a grown, 20-year-old man.
“Then you can start now.” A grin was plastered on the master’s face. Takahisa’s grip was tightening on his hem. It was the only thing that stopped him from dragging Tadashi to the car.
“I’ll wait for you to pack your things.” Aichirou was excited. He could not wait any longer for Tadashi to come live with him.
“Sir, can I just commute from here? Mom still needs help with her work as well.”
Aichirou was dejected for a second, but he was still happy at the fact that Tadashi was going to work for him.
They left. Aichirou waited for Takahisa to drive farther away from the house before asking Takahisa to stop the car.
“Come here Takahisa. Come hold me.”
Takahisa obeys. He goes to the back seat and holds onto his master.
Aichirou jerks himself off as Takahisa embraces him.
“Tadashi… Tadashi!” Aichirou moans against Takahisa’s shoulder.
The whole day, Aichirou was smiling. Everyone at the house was creeped out because their master rarely smiles. He was always angry at something or someone. If he was not that, he was usually cold.
—-
Takahisa instructs Tadashi on his duties and guides him through them. The younger man was hardworking and learned fast. He was diligent. Tadashi often asks about Ainosuke, and every time he does, Takahisa is enveloped by guilt. He was not aware of what was going to happen to him. He had no idea that Aichirou wanted to possess him.
“Kikuchi-san, don’t mention bocchan to the master when you’re together.”
Tadashi looked at him weirdly when he said that all of a sudden. The younger man didn’t ask any questions, though. He just nodded.
That was the only thing Takahisa could do for him.
—
“Takahisa, you don’t need to drive me. Tadashi will be my assistant from now on.”
“Yes, Aichirou-sama.”
“What is that look like? Are you displeased?”
“Nothing of that sort, sir. I just hope you restrain yourself and keep what I told you in mind.”
—–
Tadashi supports and accompanies Aichirou all the time. He was good at the job and made things well organized and perfect for the master. He strived hard to do his job well because he was grateful to him.
His job went on smoothly; the only problem was that Aichirou sometimes asked him personal questions he didn’t want to answer. To humor the older man, he would answer them as best as he could.
Aichirou’s interest in Tadashi’s sexual life made the younger man uncomfortable. Every time Tadashi refused to answer, rather than get angry, the older man would just laugh it off. But sometimes, Aichirou would press the matter further.
There were times when he would touch him inappropriately. Sometimes he grabs Tadashi’s hand out of nowhere and massages it. Sometimes he kisses it. Sometimes he tells him if someone has ever told him how attractive he is and pulls him by the tie to look at him more closely.
Tadashi never responded to such advances and obvious flirting. He was just trying to get by and humor Aichiro. But after that, Aichirou forced him to lodge in the mansion. And then not allowing him to go home to his parents. Aichirou would just invite them on special occasions, but Tadashi was not allowed to step out of the mansion without his permission, even to merely visit his father at the hospital. Every time he visited him, Aichirou would accompany him.
The first time Aichirou went with Tadashi, his father was taken aback. He had scolded him about making trouble for the master. Tadashi did not have the heart to tell him, and it was Aichirou who insisted.
Tadashi wasn’t an outdoors person, to begin with, but sometimes he wanted to go out too to hang out with Take, but he wasn’t allowed to. They could only talk on the phone.
Aichirou is proud of the illusion of an affair between them. It was suffocating for Tadashi. He did not appreciate these actions or the way Aichirou looked at him. But what can he do? He just puts up with it by focusing on work and hoping his father’s treatment would end soon so he could quit.
While working on some documents, Tadashi fell asleep. When Aichirou entered the office and found him, the sight gave the older man a rush of excitement. He grinned from ear to ear like a bobcat and walked to Tadashi. As he gazes into Tadashi’s peaceful sleeping face, he feels hot. Tadashi was so defenseless and so trusting that he couldn’t believe it. Aiichirou loosens his belt and jerks himself off at the sight of Tadashi’s sleeping face. It thrilled him so much that his usual laconic face was now flustered and his eyes widened in desperation as he pleasured himself right beside Tadashi.
So cute! So adorable. That face. I really love that face!
Aichirou moves closer to Tadashi and sniffs him.
Tadashi! Tadashi! My beloved.
He could smell nothing, not even the smell of Tadashi’s sweat. It disappoints him, but he is happy right now. Tempted, he kisses the side of Tadashi’s face. It made him feel even hotter. He wiped his hand, which was full of cum and then carried Tadashi to his room.
Kissing noises forced Tadashi to open his eyes. When he came to, he realized he was on a bed. He felt suffocated. When he raised his eyes, he saw Aichirou on top of him, straddling him. He smothers him with disgusting kisses.
Tadashi was shaken by what was happening. He tries to shout, only for his efforts to be wasted when Aichirou forcefully covers his mouth. His hand smelled of cum. Tadashi was confused. Disgust and panic possessed his whole being. He knew he needed to run.
“Shhh..” Many thoughts ran through Tadashi’s head as he looked into Aichirou’s intoxicated eyes. He thrashed against the bed and tried to shout, but his shouts were muffled. Aichirou’s weight was suffocating him. He heard Aichirou unbuckle his belt, so Tadashi struggled even harder to get away.
“I can’t take it anymore. I waited for this for so long. Keep still!”
Aichirou shoved his arm against Tadashi’s throat, choking him. The force took Tadashi by surprise. He was surprised that he froze. The pain in his throat was not helping. Because of panic and fear, his head throbbed and his heart felt like it was about to burst. He didn’t know what to do or think. He felt cold all over and so wretched that tears pooled at the corners of his eyes.
“It’s fine. It wouldn’t hurt. I came prepared. ” Aichirou drank a pill and shoved it down Tadashi’s throat, forcing him to drink it. When Tadashi came to, he was naked, tangled with Aichirou. At the realization that Aichirou had violated him, he felt his skin crawl. He felt dirty and disgusted. Frantic, he got off the bed only to have his legs buckle because of exhaustion.
A heavy and sticky feeling washed over him. His stomach felt weird. Something frothed out of his anus as he tried to move. Tadashi realized what Aichirou did to him and felt like the world was crumbling at his very feet.
He tried his best to crawl to the bathroom to take the cum out. Then a sudden thought came to mind. He touched his nape and felt a wound. Aichirou bit him. He was not in heat, but still, it did not make it less bad. After a sudden avalanche of realizations, Tadashi, for all the life in him, could not help but cry. He sobbed against the carpet until he passed out.
When he woke up, he was greeted by Aiichirou’s worried face and the sound of the senior butler and the doctor’s voice as they talked.
“Sorry,” Aichirou begins. “I didn’t know what came over me to suddenly do that.
"Sorry, Tadashi.”
Tadashi could not speak. All energy escaped from his body, leaving him with only a shell of his former self. Tears streamed down his face as he thought of his parents and Ainosuke.
“I want to go home.”
Aichirou told the butler and the doctor to leave them alone. Takahisa tried to convince the master to let Tadashi rest, but he only glared at him.
“Listen here, Tadashi, that was a mistake. This uncle is sorry. I won’t do it again.”
Aichirou moved closer, and Tadashi moved away without looking at him. That didn’t stop Aichirou from grabbing him to hug him.
“I’m sorry. I won’t do it again.”
“I want to go home. Please, sir.”
“Is that okay? Your father hasn’t finished his treatment yet, right? Is it really okay for you to go back?”
Tadashi remembered his mom’s relieved face when Aichirou offered him a job. He couldn’t respond. The feeling of dread caused him to remember what had happened. Hopelessness and disgust were the only things that cloaked him. He didn’t want to say it, but he had to.
“Sir… I don’t have birth control pills. I don’t want to get pregnant.”
Tadashi cries.
“I don’t want to get pregnant.” He repeats.
“Shush. It’s okay, I’ll have Takahisa give you medicine. I’m sorry, Tadashi. I couldn’t help it. Will you forgive me?”
Tadashi nods. What else could he have done? If he went back now, how could his father continue his treatment? He should just endure the pain and disgust a bit and forget whatever happened between the two of them.
—
“Aichirou-sama have you lost your mind!”
“What is Takahisa? I didn’t call for you. Leave.”
“Why did you do that to him?”
“Have you gone mad?”
Angry. Aichirou punched Takahisa hard in the face. His glasses rattled on the tiled floor.
“What are you going to do about it?”
Takahisa’s whole world spun at the impact. He spits blood and feels a sting in his nose. Blood streamed from his nose. He wipes it using the hem of his suit.
Did you sink so low as to rape the person you claim to love?It’s not even enough that you have been stalking him since he was a child. I am at a loss, Aichirou-sama!“
Aichirou rushed to him and grabbed him by his lapel to punch him again.
"Shut up!”
Aichirou continued to punch Takahisa as he screamed, “shut up”. Takahisa tried to shield his face using his arm, but he had a hard time doing so. A kick lands on his stomach, causing Takahisa to bend like crumpled paper. Aichirou kicked him again and again.
When Aichirou noticed that he was going overboard, he stopped kicking and cursed under his breath. Takahisa grabbed this chance to pin him down.
“Look at the monster you have become, Aichirou!” His words were full of sadness and despair.
“Look at the monster that you have made!”
Aichirou shoves Takahisa down, causing him to pass out on the floor.
—-
“Honey, what happened?”
“It’s fine. I just fell down the stairs.”
“You don’t need to lie to me. Did the master do this? Again?”
“No. No. Don’t worry, okay? I just fell.”
—-
Takahisa. I’ll tell father I’m going to marry you. That way, we can be together forever.
Father, where is Takahisa?
Didn’t he tell you? He took a leave. His marriage is soon. What’s with that look? Didn’t you know he had a fiance?
Aichirou threw away his things. He wrecked havoc in his room, furious at just remembering the past.
—-
“Sir,.. what happened to your face?” Tadashi asked.
“I’m fine. I just fell down the stairs. I felt faint. Kikuchi-san doesn’t need to worry about me.”
—-
Tadashi could not sleep. He was having nightmares about the incident. He always finds himself waking up sweating and feeling troubled and in pain. Every time he is with Aichirou he feels disgusted, ashamed, and afraid. Every time they are alone, he feels like throwing up.
True to his word, Aichirou didn’t add to the fire by making him feel any more uncomfortable. He keeps a healthy distance from Tadashi and acts more gentle and warm towards him after the incident. He even heard the madams talk about how Aichirou looked better and was happier these days. That didn’t make Tadashi feel better, it only made him feel worse. He could not tell anyone about what happened. He wanted to vent it Take, but it would probably cause him problems.
Bothered by what had happened, Tadashi’s only distraction was tending to the garden. The garden was full of beautiful memories of Ainosuke. Every time he goes there, he feels better. He missed Ainosuke very much.
“Tadashi!” Aichirou calls and his peaceful time is cut again. Tadashi is terrified, but he rushes to him in his gardening outfit.
“I have something to tell you.”
Tadashi was anxious. He was afraid it was bad news. Instead, Aichirou gives him a bouquet of roses.
“You like roses, don’t you? Here I got them for you.”
Tadashi wanted to reject it but he was afraid Aichirou would get angry. He knows that the bruises on Takahisa’s face were Aichirou’s doing.
“Thank you, sir."
Tadashi forced a smile.
"Tadashi…” Aichirou pulled him towards him.
“Will you go out with this old man?”
The grip on his arm was too strong; he is confused if this was a confession or blackmail.
“Sir I…”
“I like you, Tadashi. I’ve liked you for so long.”
After the confession, Aichirou didn’t shy away from showering Tadashi with luxury. He took him to expensive dinners, gifted him millions worth of jewelry and watches to please him. Tadashi wanted none of them, but he would just say, “It’s my gift to you. You can do whatever you like with it."
The older man puts in a lot of effort to make him feel loved. Everything was making Tadashi feel confused. Aichirou would tell him he loved him and say he was sorry for forcing him. He repeatedly tells him he won’t do it again and that he just did it because he loved him for so long. It was a mistake on his part that he could not control his feelings.
But Aichirou was Aichirou. His obsession with Tadashi had no boundaries. He saw Tadashi talking with Take one time and immediately lost it. He asked someone to investigate Take. Take had complained to Tadashi that someone was stalking him. Tadashi did not know it was Aichirou who sent someone to tail him. But when he did, he was forced to cut all ties with him.
Tadashi had grown fearful after learning about the lengths Aichirou would go to just to keep him. It did not help that he often heard Aichirou and Takahisa quarrel, with the latter leaving his room battered.
As he thought of Takahisa’s pitiful figure, he suddenly felt a squeeze. Aichirou hugged him from the back. Tadashi was alarmed. He was trying to get away, but Aichirou tightened his grip on him. He nibbled Tadashi’s ears and undressed him.
"You… Do you even know what you do to me?”
The suit jacket falls, and Tadashi’s pants bunch up on his knees. Aichirou kisses the nape of Tadashi’s neck. Alarmed, Tadashi covers it and elbows Aichirou.
Aichirou only giggles.
“Why are you doing this?”
Aichirou firmly holds him and sucks on the nape of Tadashi’s neck. Tadashi could only feel disgusted.
The feeling of his mouth on his skin felt like slime.
“I don’t know. I’ve never felt this way before. I told you. I’ve loved you since the day I first saw you. You should take responsibility. That kiss you gave me that day still burns me today.
"You must think I’m disgusting.”
Aichirou wraps his hand around Tadashi’s length and bobs it up and down to harden it.
“But holding back all these years is commendable of me, don’t you think? I couldn’t exactly make a move on a minor.”
Tadashi had no experience in sex. Touches and kisses disgusted him. He tries to move away. But Aichirou holds him still. The older man takes something out of his pocket. It was a pill. He inserts a finger in Tadashi’s mouth and forces Tadashi to drink it.
“Who is Take? You seem close. Is he a boyfriend? An ex?”
“You smile at him so sweetly. You even let him touch you, but why can’t I? Even though I love you so much.”
Tadashi is forced to swallow, and he suddenly feels hot. He crumpled like paper in Aichirou’s arms.
Relentless, Aichirou licked his nape and planted wet kisses on its surface. For omegas, this spot was sensitive. Tadashi muffled a moan by biting his lip.
“It’s a wonderful drug, isn’t it?” Aichirou whispers in his ear.
The sense of danger he felt at being aroused by Aichirou made him feel cold all over. It was sinful, but Tadashi’s mind had become clouded. It only occurred to him how he had come to believe the older man when he told him he loved him. He told him so often that it was like a charm. A hex. Ainosuke comes to his mind, and it helps him stay sane.
“Sir… don’t do this. I only want a professional relationship with you. ” He said, even if all he wanted was for the older man to mess him up. His nature as an omega wasn’t clear to him up until this point.
Aichirou continues to massage Tadashi’s dick. It had gotten bigger in his hand.
“Sir… what would Ainosuke-sama think? I don’t want to make him sad.”
“It’s that brat again?”
Tadashi flusters. “Ainosuke-sama is not a brat. He is cool and awesome. I…”
I love him. That was what Tadashi was going to say, but he stopped himself.
“Of course, you’d think that. You also admonished me before when I called that child a brat.
"You really do like him, don’t you? Even though I’ve loved you since way before that brat realized what love is.
Aichirou’s grunts as he rubbed his hard dick against Tadashi.
"Tadashi, I can make you feel good. I can give you pleasure Ainosuke can only ever hope to give you. He hates you, you know. He says you’re scum and you should be happy he played with you even though you’re just a servant’s son.”
Tadashi elbowed Aichirou.
“Ainosuke-sama will never say that!”
“How can you be so sure? Did that brat even tell you he loves you in that way?” Aichirou chuckles and licks Tadashi’s ear.
“Stop! It’s disgusting. Let go of me!”
“Make me. I love it the more you struggle, you know.” Aichirou nips Tadashi nape.
“So feisty. I love everything about you, Tadashi.” Aichirou bites his nape and then nibbles on its thin flesh. Tadashi feels disgusted.
“Stop! If you love me, then stop this.”
“Oh I do love you, but I’ve wanted to do this for so long. You’re taking so much time, you know? It made me realize that I should’ve gone through with the abduction.”
“What?”
“Shush..” Aichirou played with Tadashi’s nipples and planted kisses on his shoulders.
Tadashi, who became sensitive, couldn’t stifle a moan from the pressure Aichirou was putting on his nipples.
“You’re so supple.” Aichirou takes Tadashi’s arm and brings it over to his neck. He leans in and sucks Tadashi’s left nipple and continues to massage the younger man’s genitals.
Tadashi’s quivering body made Aichirou feel excited. He’s fantasized about this for years already, even when he wasn’t supposed to. After forcing him, Aichirou realized that once wasn’t enough. He had to do more.
“Sir…” Tadashi gasps.
“I don’t like this.”
“I like it though?"
Aichirou pulls Tadashi and smashes their lips together. Tadashi closes his mouth.
"Open your mouth.” Aichirou coaxes against Tadashi’s lips. Tadashi wouldn’t, and so he pinches his nipples hard. He stifled Tadashi’s moans of pain with kisses.
Even though the kisses and the touches were disgusting, somehow, thanks to the drug, Tadashi was able to drown the disgusting feeling out. He wrapped an arm around Aichirou’s neck. Aichirou trailed the form of his buttocks with his middle finger and then teased Tadashi’s hole.
“You’re so tight down here. Most male omegas are usually soft.”
Aichirou pressed his finger down and bobbed it in and out of Tadashi’s hole. Against him, Tadashi was biting his lip.
“We don’t have lube, so I hope you can get wet soon.”
Tadashi remembered Takahisa telling him there was lube there. He was surprised when he said it. This might be the reason why.
“Drawer."
"How naughty,” Aichirou whispered in Tadashi’s ear.
Aichirou takes the lube in the drawer and pours it on his hand. The coldness of the lube made Tadashi squirm.
“You always looked like you hated my advances, but you’ve been preparing? How naughty. How very naughty.”
Tadashi sighs. The drug was beginning to make his body feel numb. Aichirou pressed him against the desk and lifted his leg. Before he knew it something was trying to enter him.
“Master, wait!”
Aichirou did not listen. He pressed himself against Tadashi’s anus and was able to enter half of his huge dick inside.
Against Tadashi’s refusal, he thrust so deeply inside that Tadashi felt like he was being stabbed by a knife.
“It hurts!”
No matter how much he pleaded with him that it was painful, Aichirou would not listen. He was disgusted, but he could not even throw up, even if he wanted to. The whole time Aichirou penetrated him, Tadashi was sobbing against the desk. The next thing Tadashi knew, he woke up in the master’s bedroom with Aichirou sleeping on the side of the bed. He must have fallen asleep when he was waiting for him to wake up.
Tadashi tried to sit up, but it was too painful to move.
“Tadashi?” Aichirou wakes.
“How do you feel?”
Tadashi could not speak.
Aichirou tries to kiss him but Tadashi moves away.
“Is this about Ainosuke?”
Tadashi looks panicked. Fearful.
“No, this has nothing to do with him.”
“Liar.”
“Please stop it! Don’t drag him into this.
"I don’t intend to.” Aichirou grabs Tadashi by the neck and presses so hard that he is choking Tadashi.
“My only wish is for you to be mine.”
—
“Here.. it will stop the pain. I’m sorry you have to go through this.” Takahisa gives Tadashi a stack of pills.
“He’s insatiable. You don’t look so well, Kikuchi-san.”
Tadashi takes the pill and says thanks.
“The master has gone mad."
Tadashi raises his eyes.
"The pain has become nothing to me. Does he know?”
Takahisa shook his head.
“Bocchan has no idea. Why? Did the master threaten you?”
“He has pictures of us. Lately, he gets jealous of everything and threatens me. If he sees us now, he will get angry again. But it’s okay. I gave him a pretty strong sleeping pill.” Tadashi wipes away a tear.
“The master is volatile, no one in this house dares cross him. That’s the only reason why people let him do whatever he wants.”
“I… want this to end. Dad is already well. They have been pressuring me to come home from time to time, but if I do, Aichirou-sama will…” Tadashi’s voice cracks.
“Aichirou-sama will…”
“I don’t want them to know about us. They were happy about the botanical garden and the flower shop. My father will surely blame himself for this.”
“Aichirou is a disgusting creep.” Takahisa touches his neck. “But once he gets exposed, everything will go up in flames. Everything in this house will be dragged to hell. You. Even the young master. Ainosuke-sama is innocent. He doesn’t deserve to be ruined. He would lose everything.
"Aichirou-sama does not listen to me anymore. Anyway, the drug would help you with the pain. But you should use it only when it’s too painful. It can be addicting.”
Tadashi didn’t know what Takahisa meant by that. It only dawned on him when Aichiro called him for that. He wasn’t expecting how things would turn out.
Aichirou undresses him like usual. But because of the drug, Tadashi can feel his touch more now. He wasn’t disgusted anymore, and it felt good to let out a moan.
“So cute.” Tadashi feels hot all over at the deep, sensuous laughter coming from Aichirou’s mouth.
Tadashi didn’t like what was happening to his body. How is this drug capable of doing this? Where did Takahisa get this? Those were the things that ran through his head.
Aichirou licks his neck and plants kisses there. For the first time, he felt exposed. His nipples throbbed, begging to be pinched.
“Stop!” He tried to push Aiichirou away. “I’m tired. Let's… just continue tomorrow.”
But Aichirou didn’t stop. When did he ever stop when Tadashi asked him to stop? He rubbed his hard dick against Tadashi’s stomach, which made the younger man widen his eyes when he felt it.
Aiichirou guides Tadashi’s hand on his penis.
“Tadashi look how hot I am for you.”
Tadashi finds himself craving it but he tries to escape. Before he could shove Aiichirou away, Aichirou smashed his lips against his. He inserted his tongue inside Tadashi’s mouth and wrapped it around Tadashi’s tongue. And just like that, Tadashi has lost all desire to struggle.
Sex with Aichirou under the influence of the drug was pure bliss. There was no pain and no disgust, there was only pleasure to be had. But the intense sexual gratification Aichirou gave him with the help of the drug only made him feel empty. He sometimes pretended it was Ainosuke who was lying with him, and that even made things worse.
“I want that brat to see that you are mine,” Aichirou told him once.
“Did you know that he still carries a picture of you with him? After all this time, he still can’t let you go.
"I am going to tell him that his beloved Tadashi mewls under me every night, begging me to fuck him more. What do you think he would feel if he found out?”
Tadashi remembers that he had been so anxious. That was the last straw. He has to do something to stop Aichirou from destroying not only his life but his own as well.
“I’ll marry you.” Aichirou blurts out.
“Tadashi I know you hate me. I know you drink that drug just to have sex with me. I know that you will never love me as much as I love you, but you know what? I don’t care. As long as you stay with me, I don’t care.”
Aichirou-sama, stop this madness! Isn’t this enough? You had your fun. You have done as you wished with my body. You even managed to toy with my heart while you’re at it. Just stop! You and I both know this is wrong. I didn’t want this. I didn’t want this apartment and all those things you’ve given me. I didn’t want your affection. Why me? Just let me go… please! “
"Is it because I’m already 50 Tadashi? You think I can no longer give you what you want? Is that it? Well, let’s see.”
Aichirou drags Tadashi to the room.
“Wait, I haven’t drank the medicine yet!”
“Who cares about the drug? Shut up and just do what you’re told or…”
“Or what? Are you going to hit me too, like what you do to Oomori-san?”
“Takahisa? Didn’t you know he only exists to be my punching bag? You are different. You are mine. I will never hurt you or let you go.”
Aichirou says, gripping Tadashi’s hand. Just thinking about Takahisa makes him angry.
Tadashi hugs Aichirou from the back.
“Please just stop. Just stop Aichirou-sama.”
Tadashi manages to calm Aichirou down.
“You!” Aichirou clenches his hand into a fist before he gives up.
By now, Tadashi knows the power he has over Aiichirou so he tightens his hug.
Without any rhyme or reason, Aichirou falls sick. Maybe it was karma for all the things that he had done. The days when Aichirou had to stay at the hospital were the most peaceful days Tadashi had. He could only visit him.
“Kiss me.” He would often demand it during those visits. No matter how weak he got, Aichirou never forgot to tell him he loved him. By now, Tadashi knew better than to believe him.
“No matter what they say, you are mine! It would have been better if I was born later. Maybe I could have been a childhood friend. Maybe we can even grow up together. There are many things I wish I had done differently. Maybe that way you won’t be forced to poison me.”
Aichirou kisses Tadashi. He is weak to his kisses, even if they were poison. He laughs against Tadashi’s mouth.
“Tadashi, I don’t mind dying by your hand if it makes you love me just a little bit. But even if I die, you will always be mine. Do you think Ainosuke will love scum like you? He will never forgive you.”
No one will love you as much as I do. Remember that!“
Aichirou grabs Tadashi by the neck and stares at him as if he had lost his mind.
"You are mine! MINE!
Tadashi didn’t struggle as Aichirou was kissing him, as those kiss marks were curses he had placed on him.
"This is goodbye, Aichirou-sama.”
He kisses Aichirou deeply and voluntarily, not minding the disgust he feels. This was the only thing he could give him one last time. The old man finally stopped breathing. He leaned against him, dead.
For the first time in years, Tadashi returns home to his parents’ house. He undresses in front of the mirror and is surprised at what he sees.
His chest was full of bruises made by bitemarks. No matter how much he obeys and submits, Aichiro still marks him like this, as if he was jealous of the marks he previously left. Tadashi does not understand Aichirou. No matter how weak he got because of Tadashi’s poison, he still made an effort to leave them.
Aichirou was insane. Maybe Tadashi was insane too for allowing this relationship to go on longer than it was supposed to. Maybe there was something wrong with feeling good when they did it.
As he looked at the mirror, he didn’t recognize the person in front of him. His parents were worried about his well-being. He was skinnier and paler than he ever was. Even the senior butler has commented that maybe he should seek help. He had been clearly dependent on the drug for years now. What Takahisa didn’t know was that he was not only addicted to the drug but having sex with Aichirou as well. He is embarrassed and disgusted with himself.
“Even if I die, you will always be mine." The words Aichirou said to him before he died haunt him.
Tadashi was underestimating his addiction and dependence. At the funeral, he was so preoccupied with Aichirou’s death that he didn’t have time to talk with Ainosuke. At this time, he was constantly craving for his body and for the drug, to the extent that he kept on begging Takahisa to give him some. Takahisa refused to tell him that he should get some help and that, if wanted, he would accompany him to rehab. Because of his dependence on the drug, he could not think straight.
"Kikuchi-san get a grip! Leave the house. Start afresh. You are finally free! Don’t you see? You can still do many things. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be ashamed. No one would hold it against you. You are a victim. Because I gave you that drug, it’s my responsibility to make sure you get treated.
"Please! If you can’t do it for yourself, then do it for Ainosuke-sama’s instead.”
Takahisa helped Tadashi purchase the apartment that he currently owned. Tadashi started meeting up with Take again. It was him who helped him enter into rehab.
Synopsis: Ainosuke once loved Tadashi, but ever since he broke his heart, he decided to never have anything to do with him. But what happens if he meets him again after so many years and finds out a secret that will change both of their lives forever?
The sound of fabric fills Ainosuke’s ears. His brows knit as he breathes in the faint sweetness of roses that only Tadashi gives off. It reminded him of the nonsensical things Tadashi had told him the day before. Ainosuke sighs. The phrase “I love you” and anything related to that should be banned from coming out of Tadashi’s lips. He does not say it often nor too much compared to when they were young, but now that he doesn’t, the weight of those words feels like a chain binding Ainosuke to him. Even the hatred he currently feels was no match for it.
Everything Tadashi did was enough to garner contempt. Once contempt exists, everything is supposed to change. He should feel nothing now. Yet here he was fiddling with his finger to distract himself from the smell and to not look at Tadashi who was knotting his tie.
Inside his room, the maids were busy preparing things he needed for the banquet. A makeup artist was there to help him cover the bruises and scratches on his face caused by the assault yesterday. Suits of various tailors and colors were spread on his bed. The one he chose was a modern fit suit that he had ordered specifically made for the occasion. Before the banquet he had been debating with himself whether to go with it or not.
The reason for this was the day he went to have it held a special place in his heart. When they went to the tailor’s shop, he was with Tadashi and also had the tailor get his measurements. He had been so happy then. He knows Tadashi was not someone who liked luxury but he thought he would surprise him by gifting him a well tailored suit. Tadashi was particular about his work clothes, but while this was the case, he never tried to buy new ones if the occasion did not demand it. What left an impression on him the most was Tadashi bringing him to an expensive high class restaurant that was hard to book. It was the first time Tadashi had treated him to something. Previously, when they went to eat at Take’s place, they had paid separately.
Ainosuke couldn’t help but press his lips together at the memory. His brows knit even deeper and his lashes couldn’t help but flutter with sadness and exasperation. The things that happened drained Ainosuke. He just wants things to be over. The list of marriage candidates he was given comes to mind. Maybe it was high time he humored his aunts and met them. After all, he had nothing to lose. After all he had nothing to look forward to.
As the seconds dragged on, Ainosuke sank deeper alone with his thoughts. His own inadequacy weighed like an anvil on him as he waited for Tadashi to finish.
A gentle press on Ainosuke’s shoulder startled him. Tadashi ironed his hand on the plane of his shoulder and said he was finished. The older man excused himself and walked away without sparing his master a glance. Ainosuke adjusts his tie and sits down for his makeup.
The door opens and Takahisa walks to meet Tadashi. They were discussing something serious, enough for Tadashi to look weary and Takahisa to look dejected.
They both went out of the room, still talking as they left.
“Done yet?” Ainosuke says to the makeup artist after a few minutes. He was curious about what Takahisa and Tadashi discussed and where they were going.
“Yes sir.” The makeup artist responded. Ainosuke stands up and leaves to follow Tadashi.
“Kikuchi-san… are you sure about this?”
“Yes. It will be better this way. He already knows.
"He doesn’t want to see my face again.”
Ainosuke did not know what to feel about Tadashi leaving the mansion. The shock and sadness that pricked his heart were his body’s response. His mind ignores the feeling and he goes back to his room.
When it was time to leave for the banquet, Ainosuke found himself restless. He keeps on looking at the door, waiting for someone to arrive. Finally, the door clicked, and Natsuno and the senior butler came into view. He stood up to check if someone else was waiting with them, but there was no one. Disappointed, he petulantly walked past the two without speaking.
Natsuno drove him to the banquet place. Ainosuke should be used to this arrangement by now, considering Natsuno was his driver and attendant recently, and yet it seemed something was missing. Something was off. He ignores the feeling like usual. As he looks at the changing scenery beyond his car window, he thinks of Tadashi again and about what he overheard earlier. Irritated, he clenched his hand into a fist and dug the nail of his thumb against the skin of his index finger.
It’s better if that dog leaves.
He knits his eyebrows as a blot of pain blooms in his chest. It crawls on his chest and wraps around his neck to choke him.
Disgusting. I’ll even help him pack his bags.
The sight of Natsuno was off-putting. Ainosuke glances down defeated and succumbs to curiosity.
“Where is he?” Ainosuke asks, too desperate or wanting. He wasn’t sure which his voice was.
“Kikuchi-san?”
Ainosuke clicked his tongue and leaned back, irritated.
“Ah… he’s already at the venue for the final preparations.”
“Why…” Ainosuke swallows a lump in his throat and tightens his grip on his arms, which are crossed defensively over his chest.
“Why didn’t he drive me?”
Natsuno was getting anxious. He couldn’t help but feel frustrated.
“He dressed me this morning even though it was supposed to be your job.”
“Oh… ah! That was my fault. I begged him to do it for me.”
Natsuno sighed.
My god. Why is my boss like this? If he really wants to see Kikuchi-san so much, why does he keep on avoiding him? Sheesh.
“I see.”
They continued their drive in silence.
When they arrived at the venue, there were already guests there. Ainosuke was introduced as the celebrant. A round of applause thundered through the venue after the introduction. Natsuno whispers the instructions for the dance, “Ainosuke-sama, the first one to dance with you is the Suda daughter, next is Todou.” Natsuno points to the horizontal line of ladies lining up the dancefloor.
“I hope you enjoy the evening.” Natsuno bows and waits on standby.
Ainosuke just stares at him without moving. The look made Natsuno start to get a cold sweat.
“Natsuno…”
“Ainosuke-sama, you should go, they are waiting.”
“Where is he?”
Natsuno inwardly sighs in frustration.
“When I see him, I’ll tell him you’re looking for him.”
“No!” Ainosuke raised his voice without meaning to. He paused and looked around to see if someone heard, but thanks to the hubbub inside, no one seemed to have noticed.
“Don’t tell him that.”
“Never mind.” Ainosuke leaves and joins in the dance.
—-
Tadashi roamed the place. Tasked to check whether everything is going smoothly, he diligently checked with the other staff if things were good or they needed anything. While doing so, he found Yuki alone on the balcony.
“You’re not going to join in the dance?” Tadashi glances inside the ballroom.
“I’m fine here.” Yuki smiles and then adds,
“What are you doing here?”
“I’m checking if everything is running smoothly.”
Tadashi noticed Yuki was trying to wipe the sweat off his forehead by using his sleeve. He stares at him, debating whether to offer his handkerchief or not.
“What?”
“Here.” Tadashi hands him a handkerchief.
“You’re going to meet Ainosuke-sama, right? You should go inside. You’re his guest. He must be searching for you.” Tadashi bows and leaves.
As Tadashi walked away, something fell. When Yuki picked it up, he realized it was a charm. He scrutinizes the charm. He sniffed and noticed it contained a strong alpha scent merged with something else.
Hmm. A charm for a beta? Ainosuke really has it bad for that guy.
He looked at Tadashi’s faraway figure and thought that he would just pass it to Ainosuke when they meet.
—-
“Ainosuke-san the party is grand as expected! Kikuchi-san prepared well.” Representative Yamada remarked as he ate a cupcake. Beside him, Ainosuke just smiled and drank his wine quietly.
“I brought my daughter with me. She wants to get the chance to dance with Kikuchi-san.”
Ainosuke nearly choked on his drink.
“I told her she shouldn’t. She’s married and all, but she said this will be the first time Kikuchi-san will be given a chance to participate in something like this, so she wants to. Oh, that’s her over there in a pink dress beside Todou.” Representative Yamada said.
“Don’t mind her. I told you right? If Kikuchi-san was an alpha, I would have let one of my daughters marry him. That girl told me just recently that she has had a longtime crush on Kikuchi-san.
"Where is he, by the way? He should be with you, right?” Representative Yamada looked around.
“I haven’t seen him,” Ainosuke replied.
“Shindo-sama.” A middle-aged man with graying hair called. He towed with him a shy-looking woman.
“Hello, sir. How may I help you?”
The man worked as the mayor’s executive secretary in the city where Ainosuke lives.
“I heard that Kikuchi-san is joining the party.”
Ainosuke was irritated. Why are people asking him about Tadashi? It’s not like he was at the party to have fun, he was there to work.
“He’s working at the moment, I think. I’m not sure where he is.”
“He’s still a bachelor, right? I want him to meet my niece if you wouldn’t mind. Aichirou-sama never came with him to parties like this so we never had a chance to continue discussing the matchmaking. ”
Ainosuke’s jaw dropped. His brows creased angrily on his face. The anger and irritation he felt couldn’t be hidden anymore. Why were they even trying to get his father to help them? Wasn’t it obvious Tadashi and Aichirou were going out? And maybe they should have asked Tadashi directly or talked with Tadashi’s parents instead.
“Ah, sir …. Isn’t that rude? This is Ainosuke-san’s party and people should be offering him matchmaking invitations left and right but you’re searching for his secretary instead.”
“Oh, that wasn’t my intention. Everyone knows the family already has candidates for marriage for you, Shindo-sama. I’ve been asking your father since Kikuchi-san started working for him to help me match him with my niece.”
Kikuchi this, Kikuchi that. Ainosuke is fed up. The thing about the matchmaking made him boil from anger deep inside. His only relief was the fact that Tadashi was nowhere to be found. He was thankful for that. Summoning composure he responds apologetically,
“I have also been searching for him. Sorry.” Maybe he was acting too plastic. He had no choice, that was the only thing he could do to hide his irritation.
Ainosuke was frowning. He did not notice that he looked displeased. Representative Yamada laughed at the look on his face.
“Ainosuke-san, you hate it when people want to get close to Kikuchi-san. You also looked quite displeased when I told you I considered offering him my daughter if he was an alpha.”
The comment caught Ainosuke off guard. Seeing the look on his face Representative Yamada added,
“You don’t need to be shy. He’s likable even despite that poker face he has. I wouldn’t blame you if you like him, considering the two of you are childhood friends.”
Ainosuke was surprised that Representative Yamada knew about Tadashi being his childhood friend.
“Aichirou always talks about him in passing, you know.”
“Don’t be mistaken sir. I am not displeased because Tadashi is popular. I am displeased because it is my party but people ask me about my servant. You’re right it’s rude and I hope people will stop doing it. If they want to talk to Tadashi then they should find him themselves, not ask me.” Ainosuke smiled sweetly and excused himself.
Possessed, Ainosuke searched everywhere for Tadashi. In his search, he ended up at the dancefloor again. Where is Tadashi? Where could he even be? He already saw every staff member while looking for him. He even found Takahisa. A woman bumps into him and so he is forced to dance again.
Finally, Ainosuke escapes and sees Yuki on the balcony. He completely forgot he was invited. He walks to him.
“Why aren’t you inside?”
“I was just getting fresh air.”
Ainosuke moved close and leaned on the balustrade. He was looking over the grounds, still searching.
“What are you doing?”
“Nothing."
"Are you looking for Kikuchi?”
Ainosuke laughs.
“What made you think that?”
“Anyone who has eyes can tell if they look closely.”
“Tell what?”
“Ai, you don’t need to hide it. Your affection for him is so obvious that even a child would know.”
Yuki sighs. “Let’s just roam around the place. I was informed that the interiors of the rooms in this building are good.” Yuki walks off toward the staircase. Ainosuke follows suit.
They entered one of the small ballrooms that were open to the public.
“The oak doors are large and impressive. It’s like we’re at a castle or something.”
Yuki reaches out to touch the curlicues on the door. His other hand fiddled with something in his pocket.
“It’s a beautiful place.”
“Isn’t it?”
“Ainosuke I’m sorry.”
Ainosuke inhaled smoke. His head throbbed as he felt his body turn hot. Yuki clung to him.
“Yuki! Get off..”
Yuki didn’t listen, so Ainosuke shoved him. Still, he wouldn’t let him go. A sweet smell fills his lungs. It was Tadashi’s scent. As he breathed it in, his thoughts became clouded. Why was Tadashi’s scent here? Even though the person himself in question is nowhere to be found.
In an instant all the longing he had was summoned. He grabs Yuki by the shoulders.
“Why… why do you carry Tadashi’s scent?”
Yuki only embraced him and moaned against his neck.
Ainosuke is filled with rage as he continues to smell Tadashi on Yuki. It was illogical, but he felt like ripping Yuki to pieces because of it.
“Get off of me!”
—-
Tadashi was checking the reserved rooms. After his routine he went back to his room to rest for a while. Deciding that it would be a loss to not check out the place he decided to check out the balcony and maybe enjoy the night at his own convenience. He remembered he bought wine. It was supposed to be a congratulatory gift to Ainosuke.
The night air swept across his face as he leaned on the balcony. The noise from the party below was muffled. He could only see the long strip of grass and a garden below. Above, the night sky was sprinkled with stars. Remembering he had to report to Takahisa, he takes out his phone, sends a message to him telling him that everything was well on his patrol and that he’s going to come back after resting.
Takahisa responds that he could rest for the day. It was a hectic day for everyone, even more so for Tadashi. Even after Takahisa lessened his duties for the banquet, Tadashi still didn’t have time to rest. Actually, like usual, he didn’t sleep well even with the sleeping pills Take gave him. He thought that maybe he should have taken more just for this day. He wants to dream of nothing. Because of his nightmares, he was afraid of falling asleep.
Tadashi took off his suit jacket and pushed his white sleeves to bunch around the juncture of his arm, revealing his pale forearms. He washes a wine glass, takes the wine, and then goes out of the balcony to have a drink.
As he quietly drank, he heard voices that sounded like they were arguing. He immediately rushed to where it came from to check. It was coming from the small ballroom just 2 floors down Ainosuke’s room.
When he came in, he saw Ainosuke struggling with Yuki on the floor. The scent and Ainosuke’s behavior gave away what transpired. Tadashi’s body felt cold all over. He didn’t have time to think. He immediately rushed to separate the two.
—-
Ainosuke’s eyes glowed red as he pushed Yuki down. As he did this, tears started streaming down his face.
A strong smell of roses filled the air. He feels hotter. He doesn’t understand what is happening to him, but he hates it.
Being a beast was the last thing Ainosuke wanted to become, and yet here he was filled with rage and a desire to dominate just like one. Before, the only thing that he felt when he was drugged was a desire to impregnate. Now he wants to rip the figure in front of him into pieces.
He attempts to bite Yuki on the neck. Before he could do so, a pale, outstretched arm was in front of him all of a sudden.
“Ainosuke-sama!”
He bites the arm stretched before him and shudders. The scent of Tadashi’s skin drives him to a sudden stop.
“What happened? Why are you in a rut?”
Tadashi’s voice was psychedelic. It made Ainosuke feel confused; he thought the one he was pinning was Tadashi and yet when he turned over his shoulder he saw Tadashi’s worried face.
Another whip of sweetness stung his nose and throat as he realized he was looking at Tadashi. The overwhelming scent Tadashi carried with him made him drool, and an animalistic urge far stronger than before possessed him. Ainosuke grabbed Tadashi by the neck and slammed him on the cold, dusty floor. The force made Tadashi wince. His back hurt at the impact.
When Tadashi opened his eyes, he was greeted by Ainosuke’s looming figure. His master’s eyes glowed as tears streamed on his face. Strings of saliva can be seen in his open mouth as fangs jutted out.
At the sight, Tadashi was overcome by fear. He hadn’t seen him this way before. His response was to free himself but he couldn’t move because Ainosuke had pinned his arms.
“Ai.. Ainosuke-sama.” Tadashi desperately calls.
Ainosuke’s glazed eyes made him freeze. It felt like he was prey, about to be eaten. Tadashi struggled, but Ainosuke pinned his wrist on top of his head as he unbuttoned his shirt and started grinding against him.
The friction made Tadashi feel cold all over. He didn’t want things to end up this way.
“Ainosuke-sama stop!”
But Ainosuke wasn’t listening. He continued grinding against him. His grip on his wrist was hurting the other. Ainosuke was crying as he lapped Tadashi’s neck like a hungry beast. He was chanting, “I don’t want this.” Over and over again.
Tadashi felt the wetness of his tongue and felt defeated. But he didn’t stop struggling. Tadashi managed to free his leg to kick Ainosuke.
He ran, yet Ainosuke caught him anyway. Ainosuke pinned him again, but this time he lay face down. He screamed for help in his head. Tadashi did not want Ainosuke to become like his father.
“Help! Somebody help! He turned to Yuki, who was cowering in the corner.
"Yamamoto help me!”
Instead of helping him, Yuki ran away instead. Tadashi was appalled. But his bewilderment was short lived as he was forcibly brought back to reality when he realized Ainosuke was tearing off his clothes. Fear enveloped his whole being as the sound of ripped fabric filled his ears.
No!
Tadashi thrashed. He kicked Ainosuke’s back. He tried to elbow him, but it was no use. Ainosuke was still sobbing he didn’t want this but couldn’t stop tearing the fabric that separated their bodies. Tadashi was panicking; he didn’t know what to do. He has to find a way to free himself to help Ainosuke. All of a sudden, he felt his body weaken. A haze washed over him, making him feel sluggish. He cursed in his mind.
No. Not now!
Tadashi’s thick smell made Ainosuke’s crying stop. A different kind of heat possessed him. The violence he felt earlier subsided and was replaced by a certain haze he could not understand. It was as if he was intoxicated. The sight of Tadashi’s exposed nape made him feel a tug in his loins.
Ainosuke trailed the line of Tadashi’s back, making the older man feel like he was burning from the inside.This was the first time Ainosuke had touched his bare skin while they were both in heat. Tadashi’s face, his nape, and his shoulders were all the color of a pomegranate. Under the bright light of the ballroom, they looked like blooming flowers on Tadashi’s pale skin. Ainosuke pulled him up, sat him on his lap, and bit him on the nape.
Being bitten on the nape was supposed to be scary and violent. Because this has always been what he felt when Aichirou did it. Maybe it was because they were already a pair, but regardless of the force Ainosuke put into the bite, Tadashi only felt pleasure as Ainosuke dug his teeth into his skin.
Tadashi was embarrassed at how hard he had gotten with just that. His hands trembled as Ainosuke planted wet kisses on his back. He doesn’t know what to think about those. Violent or sweet, it was all the same to him now. Tadashi moves and a hotness fills his cheeks as his back accidentally rubs against Ainosuke’s hard-on. Tadashi curls his toes and heaves as his body shudders from the sheer excitement he felt upon the realization that Ainosuke desired him.
Being touched by his pair while in heat felt so good that he felt like he was in heaven. The medicine he took was no match for it anymore. He wanted Ainosuke to mess him up and arrange his insides as he saw fit. Yet, responsible as he was, Tadashi doesn’t do anything. He stays still. Only furrowing his brow and clenching his hand to retain control. On his back, Ainosuke plants too many kisses. He pressed his nose against Tadashi’s skin and was chanting his name like a prayer. It was making Tadashi feel like he should surrender everything to him.
“Ainosuke-sama… stop.” It was a weak rejection. Tadashi hates himself for feeling this way. He wanted to have sex, but this was not the time for it.
Slowly but surely, the heat in him recedes. Ainosuke wasn’t done though, he wrapped his arms around Tadashi’s waist and pushed him down on the floor. He caged him with both his arms in the space around Tadashi’s head. He rubs his genitals against Tadashi’s member as he looks straight into his eyes.
Ainosuke’s fiery eyes and the desire in them was like a cage, a kind of mirror forcing Tadashi to confront, for the first time, his own desires. The hotness that he felt as Ainosuke rubbed their genitals together while seeing himself in Ainosuke’s eyes made him feel like he was hearing sirens.
Feeling exposed, Tadashi tried to look away. Only to end up glancing down at their hard dicks, and see strained veins snaking up on their girths. Realizing that he was again leaking precum despite coming when Ainosuke had bitten him, Tadashi felt hot on his face and his shoulder.
The first time they had sex, Tadashi was too conscious of pleasuring Ainosuke. Even though he knew the younger man would forget once morning came he didn’t mind. That time he thought his desire was at its peak but now he was not sure anymore. Soft sighs came out of his trembling lips as wet squelching noises filled his ears.
Despite himself, Tadashi reaches a trembling hand to caress Ainosuke’s face. It was cold but his master was sweating. He was still looking at him and rubbing himself against him. Tadashi looks back and for the first time basks in Ainosuke’s beauty. His master’s high cheekbones looked like they were carefully crafted for the sole purpose of stealing everyone’s hearts. The slant of Ainosuke’s eyes and his deep thoughtful gaze that had always focused on him made Tadashi feel soft. He leans in to kiss him on the side of his face, on the strong line of his jaw and finally on his mouth.
It was wrong.
Tadashi knows he shouldn’t be going with the flow. Once they both become sober, he will regret this. Yet he couldn’t stop kissing Ainosuke.
“Ainosuke-sama, I love you.” He says in between kisses. Slender fingers pull the side of Ainosuke’s mouth to reveal his fang. His skin turning to gooseflesh, Tadashi lets out a faint grunt as he inserts his tongue to lick the fang that had given him intense pleasure.
The closeness of Tadashi’s warm body and sweet smell made Ainosuke moan. He pulls Tadashi up to allow him to lick his teeth more. Looking at his beloved’s face, seeing his barely open eyes as he licked him with abandon made Ainosuke a bit jealous of his own fang.
He adjusted Tadashi in his arms and made it so that he could wrap his tongue properly on the other’s tongue. His own tongue was competing with his own fang to get the attention of Tadashi’s tongue.
The master’s deep kiss forced Tadashi to pull his clothes in order to reveal his muscular neck and collarbones. As if hypnotized, Tadashi kisses his young master’s neck.
He wanted him so much. Ever since he avoided him, he had been hating himself for missing the warmth of his body, his smell, and even the sound of his voice. Now that it was given to him he feels like a hungry animal seeing food for the first time.
Tadashi curses in his head. He has no self-control. To make himself feel better, he took Ainosuke’s suppressant, wrapped his arms around Ainosuke’s neck, and injected it into his neck. As the medicine acts, Ainosuke’s body stiffens then slackens in his arms. Tadashi hugged Ainosuke so tightly and for so long that he was afraid he was being too greedy. He was flustered as he did so.
After a few minutes. Tadashi slowly rolls Ainosuke’s body off of him and tries to stand. He couldn’t; he was still trembling. His legs won’t listen to him.
When he managed to get himself together, he washed his hands and his face. His clothes were torn and his pants were dirty because of his arousal. Tadashi is overcome by embarrassment as he washed them. He washed them so desperately that his wrist was turning red from the friction caused by the rubbing.
All of a sudden, the tears just wouldn’t stop falling from his eyes. He was guilty of feeling so good and so happy that the two of them were bonded. He knows it was a mistake. He knows that maybe it was just an accident, but he was glad that Ainosuke marked him.
He had harbored hatred for the person who had forcibly marked him before. For the longest time, he thought if he hadn’t been bitten, he wouldn’t have suffered. He thought that if only his body could accept Aiichirou without relying on drugs, he would eventually learn to love him; no matter how wrong it was to be with his best friend’s father.
Tadashi wipes his tears and puts on his pants again. He brings Ainosuke to his room. It was a relief that he didn’t bump into anyone.
When he was done tucking Ainosuke in bed, he checked his wound in the mirror. The bite mark was big and he was bleeding.
Footsteps took Tadashi from his thoughts.
“Are you okay?”
Natsuno caught a glimpse of Tadashi’s wound and gasped. He rushed to him.
“Kikuchi-san!”
“It’s fine. It’s just a scratch.”
“What scratch? That’s a huge wound! The bruising looks like you painted your skin.”
“No need, just call Take to bring me home.”
Natsuno nodded.
“Let’s take care of your wound first.”
The teeth marks on Tadashi’s nape were especially deep in where Ainosuke’s fangs would have been. The torn skin flakes around the lacerations. Natsuno winced as he tended to it. When he was done, he put a bandage on it. He was glad he always kept a first aid kit with him wherever he goes.
“Did Ainosuke-sama do this?”
“Please don’t mention it to anyone. He was attacked. That should be considered. He was the victim in this.”
Natsuno took off his suit jacket and gave it to Tadashi. He sighs.
“He bought you an expensive suit only to ruin it.”
Natsuno was hesitant about whether he should tell Tadashi Ainosuke that he had been searching for him. In the end, he decides not to say anything.
—–
Take arrived at the venue gasping for breath.
“What happened?”
Natsuno and Tadashi looked at each other.
“An accident happened.”
Take was about to complain when Tadashi leaned on him. Feeling that the other was tired, Take was forced to swallow his anger. He thanked Natsuno, and left.
—-
Ainosuke’s memory was hazy. His head hurt when he woke up. He searched for Tadashi, but he wasn’t there.
“You are awake, Ainosuke-sama. Do you remember what happened?”
Ainosuke bit his lip. “I don't…”
“There was a problem with an omega. Thank goodness Kikuchi-san was there, or you’d have accidentally bound yourself.”
“Where is he?”
Ainosuke remembered that he smelled his scent and had a vague memory of him pinning Tadashi down and wanting so badly to bite his nape and impregnate him.
“He went home.”
“For sure he’ll be back tomorrow, so let’s just focus on our schedule for today. We have to go home first and investigate what happened last night."
That day, Ainosuke was trying hard not to think about Tadashi. But he couldn’t. The effects of the drug were still in his system, so the only thing that he could think about was fucking. From time to time, he injects himself with his suppressant, but it is of no use. What he needs is to vent his desires.
This was a problem: the only thing he wanted was Tadashi, but at the same time, he didn’t want him. The conflict was due to his rational self. But his rut cares none about that. The realization that he wants Tadashi and at the same time he doesn’t want him only worsens his situation. The more he thinks he doesn’t want him the more his body craves for his touch, his smell, his face.
Unable to take it anymore, he calls for the alpha woman. The one who had taken a liking to Tadashi. They meet. He asks for help with getting an omega prostitute. The woman, seeing how desperate he was, helped him instead of mocking him. She sets him an appointment. He arrives at the designated hotel and waits for the prostitute there. After a few minutes, the prostitute arrives. He didn’t say he wanted a man or a woman. The one who came though was a woman.
The woman doesn’t wait or engage in small talk which is good. She immediately drinks a drug that gives the effect of being in heat. As she gets hot, her pheromones spread. Ainosuke feels like he is inhaling smoke due to those pheromones. Nonetheless, he tries. He undresses and starts fondling the woman’s breasts. It was easier said than done. He’s done this before, but for some reason, he can’t get on with the act. Suddenly, he remembers the feel of Tadashi’s skin, his touch, the way he brushed his mouth softly against his mouth. He is filled with shame and disgust at the fact that he was remembering it. Ainosuke withdraws. He tells the woman that he can’t do it. The woman responds that maybe they’re doing it wrong. She offers to give him a blowjob. He hesitates. Out of desperation, he agrees. But he couldn’t get hard. The woman asks
"Are you perhaps…?”
Ainosuke buries his head in his palm, exasperated at himself. He dresses and pays the prostitute even if he couldn’t properly do it with her. Natsuno didn’t say anything when he came back as fast as he left. They go home with Ainosuke still feeling hot.
—-
A few days have passed, Tadashi still hasn’t come back to the mansion. That afternoon, Natsuno told Ainosuke Tadashi was advised to rest for a few days. Ainosuke pays it no mind. He comforts himself by saying he can deal with his rut himself.
It was a lie of course. he actually couldn’t.
Frustrated and growing increasingly anxious, he asked Natsuno to accompany him to a hotel to meet another omega. As expected, he was unsuccessful this time as well. His anger and frustration were at their peak. He didn’t know what to do anymore.
Full of rage, and left with no other recourse, the exasperation he felt was making him feel hopeless. He throws a wine glass at his door. Even that didn’t ease his frustration and pent up desire for Tadashi.
The nights were long ever since Tadashi left. He couldn’t sleep due to unease. He keeps on tossing and turning. Every time he closes his eyes he sees Tadashi’s face. He can’t help but remember the way his eyes turn into crescents when he laughs, the way he smiles faintly when he is pleased, and the calmness in his features when he unconsciously moves close to him on the bed.
Ainosuke is livid.
Why can’t he forget about him? Even after what he has done? He was beginning to think Tadashi might have put some kind of magic on him. How else could he explain this odd attachment he has for the older man?
Ainosuke drinks himself to sleep, but every time he wakes up he feels the heat he can’t stop. It was tormenting him. Trying to distract himself, he wanders and ends up in front of Tadashi’s room.
Tadashi wasn’t there, of course. He knows and yet, he goes inside. This was the closest thing to him right now. Ainosuke sits down at Tadashi’s desk and rummages through his things. Tadashi forgot to lock his drawer and so Ainosuke opens it and finds his resignation letter. Without any second thought, he tore it to pieces.
Left with nothing to do, he lies down on Tadashi’s bed and buries himself in his pillow and blanket. He grabbed the suit that was hanging on the chair and also covered himself with it. The faint smell of Tadashi fills his lungs. He closes his eyes expecting that if he did, it would become stronger and maybe Tadashi himself will appear.
What was becoming of him? This feeling was not normal. To crave for Tadashi so much as to come to his room expecting him to appear despite how impossible it was was odd.
Ainosuke bites his lip. He feels pathetic. He is ashamed of what he was doing but the effects of the drug still won’t go away. It was too painful. Even though he injected his suppressant from time to time, it was still not enough. He wants to be released from the pain. He rushes to Takahisa’s room.
“Bocchan?”
“Takahisa! I can’t take it anymore. The heat still won’t recede. I did everything! I even tried to sleep with omegas but I can’t. What’s happening to me?”
“You still are in a rut? I thought you and Natsuno took care of it?”
“I want Tadashi. I want him so much I think I’m going insane!”
It was the first time he dared tell anyone about what he truly felt for Tadashi. If it weren’t for his rut because of the attack, he would never have said it.
“Bocchan… did you bite him?”
Ainosuke raises his eyes to the senior butler.
“Listen to me calmly… Kikuchi-san is an omega, but no alpha is supposed to be able to smell his pheromones.”
Ainosuke stiffens.
“ I always thought you acted so possessive towards him because you’ve always been in love with him, but maybe it’s more than that.”
“No!”
“Bocchan listen to me… Let’s go to him and ask him to… ”
“To what?!”
All the color drained from Ainosuke’s face.
“Takahisa, I hate that bitch!”
Takahisa shakes Ainosuke.
“Have you been telling him that?” Ainosuke gritted his teeth and shoved Takahisa. Takahisa grabs his arm.
“Bocchan! Have you been telling him that?”
“Because that is what he is!”
“In your heart, do you truly believe that?”
Ainosuke bites his lip.
“Listen to what I’m about to say carefully.”
“No! Let me go.”
“Aichirou-sama took advantage of him! He cannot enjoy sex. Every encounter was like being assaulted over and over again.”
Ainosuke freezes.
“What?”
Ainosuke remembers the look on Tadashi’s face when Yuki kissed him.
His throat tightened.
“You know how the master is. Once he wants something, he will do everything to get it. He was happy when Kennichi-san got sick.
"Kikuchi-san doesn’t know this, but the master has been stalking him since he was 10.”
Ainosuke felt catatonic.
“I don’t believe you!”
“If you don’t believe me, then see for yourself.”
Takahisa went to get a box. He opened it. There were many pictures of Tadashi there.
“I’ve burned most of them because he told me to mix the ashes with his remains. I didn’t know there were some left. I recently found these.”
Ainosuke looked at the pictures. They were a mix of pictures from when Tadashi was in middle school, highschool and college. They were invading pictures. Pictures that normally were impossible to take: Tadashi sitting in class. Him changing gym clothes; him during his swimming lessons. Most of them focused on his face and overall figure, but some were focused on particular body parts like his neck, chest, and legs. Aichirou didn’t care about Tadashi’s age when these were taken.
The obsession his father had was bone-chilling.
“That freak!” Ainosuke remembered that Takahisa said that he took photos for his father.
He grabbed him by the lapel and shook him angrily. “Did you take these? Takahisa, this is illegal!”
“I didn’t! I swear. I was surprised to find these. I confess that the pictures I took were also illegal but the ones I did weren’t as invasive.”
“He is sick! Disgusting! What the hell was he thinking? How did he even get to this point? He never had any interest in anyone!”
“Did he…” Ainosuke swallows.
“Did he also take pictures when they were together?”
“I don’t know. But Kikuchi-san told me that he had. I was told there were videos too. He told me that the master has been threatening him that he’s going to send them to you if he tries to leave.
Ainosuke massaged his temples and withdrew from Takahisa. He could not process what he learned. Then he remembered how Aichirou was violent and felt goosebumps.
"Does he hurt him?”
“I’ve never seen him raise a hand against Kikuchi-san. But who knows?”
He remembered all of the bad things he called Tadashi and felt so guilty.
“Takahisa… I didn’t know.”
“If it was too painful for him to stay here, then why did he stay even after that scum died?”
“It was because he wanted to see you again, bocchan. He said he wanted to support you.”
Reality hit him like a truck. Ainosuke sobbed.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t know. I had no idea.”
Takahisa hugged Ainosuke.
“It’s okay. You’re not at fault. You didn’t know better.”
Ainosuke sobbed harder in Takahisa’s arms.
“Bocchan, Kikuchi-san wholeheartedly loves you.”
“I love him so much too!”
“I know,”
“I don’t know what’s going on with his heats or how he manages it but surely it’s hard. Let’s tell him that you might be his bonded pair.
"Natsuno mentioned that Kikuchi-san’s skin has red rashes. Usually, this is a side effect of injecting too much suppressant. If this goes on, he might not be able to conceive. It will do him good to know you’re his pair.”
“But.. surely he hates me now. If he knows I’m the reason why he can’t be a normal omega, he will hate me even more.”
“Don’t think that. Tomorrow I’ll accompany you to him. Let’s discuss what the both of you are going to do. Just continue taking the suppressants.”
Synopsis: Ainosuke once loved Tadashi, but ever since he broke his heart, he decided to never have anything to do with him. But what happens if he meets him again after so many years and finds out a secret that will change both of their lives forever?
Tadashi was surprisingly light. Ainosuke was taken aback at how light he was in his arms. He was worried too. And yet, the only thing he thought was how Tadashi deserved every stress and worry he was feeling now.
“Sir…” Natsuno stuttered. The look on Ainosuke’s face worried him. There was no gentleness in it, only anger as he held Tadashi’s figure against his back. He was clicking his tongue while he walked. Natsuno didn’t have any idea about what was happening between Ainosuke and Tadashi, but the coldness and distance Ainosuke was putting between them was apparent. Tadashi looked like he had lost weight lately. Take had told him that Tadashi was someone who lost weight easily when under stress. He had promised Take to support Tadashi and make sure he was okay. However, he didn’t know what to do when the source of stress was their employer. And it was not even work-related.
“Sir,” He tries again. “I can carry him for you.”
Ainosuke glares at him. He looked as though he was considering murder if Natsuno asked a third time. This was the same look he gave him when he thought Tadashi was kissing him on the cheek. At that time, Ainosuke had just come home from the States. Because of that incident, Natsuno had developed an illogical fear of him. Even though he was afraid, Natsuno followed him inside.
As they passed by, the maids greeted Ainosuke. Their faces were full of surprise as they realized Ainosuke was carrying Tadashi on his back. The matter with the painting caused a stir in the mansion. People were gossiping that Tadashi and Ainosuke were fighting because Aichirou favored Tadashi more. Ainosuke could only scoff inside. If only they knew.
When they were already inside Tadashi’s room, Ainosuke told Natsuno to go. Natsuno just stood frozen. He was trying to reason with his master, telling him he could take care of Tadashi for him.
“Are you worried that I’ll hurt him?” Ainosuke asked in a tone that was more sad than gentle.
“No sir! I would never think something like that of you.”
“Then you can go.”
Natsuno didn’t know what to do. Ainosuke, however, didn’t care if he was still there. He started undressing Tadashi.
“Natsuno…”
“Yes sir?”
“Get me something to wipe Tadashi’s body with.”
Natsuno rushed to get a basin and a towel for Ainosuke. When he returned, Ainosuke had curled his long sleeves up and was wiping Tadashi’s sweat with his handkerchief. Natsuno gave him the basin and the towel and excused himself.
As Ainosuke wiped Tadashi, he remembered the painting and the sketches. Some of the sketches were obviously done with Tadashi’s participation. He wonders about Tadashi’s thoughts while posing for his father. He wonders if the two of them had been happy together. Did he even think of him once before entering into a relationship with Aichirou? Did he even think about how Ainosuke would feel about it?
“You’re so cruel.”
Teardrops fell against Ainosuke’s clenched hands. He didn’t even realize it was his own until he wiped it away. Rather than sobs, laughter came out of his lips.
“I’m so pathetic.”
When Ainosuke was done wiping Tadashi, he tucked him in. Ainosuke was about to leave when Tadashi grabbed him. The force of the older man’s grip was etching crescents on his skin. Brows knitted and a face as wan as the moon, Tadashi looked like he was in pain. Ainosuke was taken aback. But the pain was too much. The hatred and disgust he felt towards the older man were too strong. Kindness was something that only the strong were capable of. Ainosuke knows he is weak. The wound in his heart was still fresh and thus kindness and sympathy were things he could not give. So what if Tadashi was having nightmares and he couldn’t sleep? So what if he was too stressed that he was losing weight? He brought this upon himself.
Ainosuke wrenched his arm away from Tadashi’s hold and walked out of the room.
—-
“Tadashi. What a lovely name.”
Tadashi opens his eyes and sees a figure of a man on top of him.
No!
“Shhh..” The figure covered his mouth with a force so strong that it felt like his jaw was being crushed. He smells the thick scent of perfume and immediately knows who this man is. Fear and panic made Tadashi unable to breathe. Many thoughts ran through his head as he tried to move his body. It was all for naught because no matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t. He opted to scream, but even that was useless. He couldn’t make a single sound. The heavy breathing of the other person against him made his skin crawl. Disgust was a feeling he knew all too well. Everything he ate that day felt like it was rising to his throat. The tinkling sound of a belt being unbuckled made him feel like throwing up. He was not sure if it was his or the other’s, but he had dreamt of this a thousand times to know it didn’t matter.
Tadashi could only shut his eyes and wish for this nightmare to end.
“Ne, Tadashi, why do you always dream about the bad stuff? Didn’t we have good times together? ” The ghost whispers in his ear as he thrusts in without hesitation.
An excruciating pain in his lower half made Tadashi feel like he was being repeatedly stabbed by a knife. He knows it was a dream, but why does it always feel real? It was as if he was brought back to those painful times when he feels like he is being killed repeatedly and then forcibly brought back to life and tormented again and again.
“No one will love you as much as I do.” He licks Tadashi’s neck and plants kisses on the protruding muscle.
“Do you think Ainosuke will love a scum like you? He will never forgive you. You are mine.”
Tadashi gasps for air and wakes up to Natsuno shaking him with a worried look on his face. The panic in his heart still hasn’t receded. He swallowed a lump in his throat and was looking so scared and panicked that Natsuno didn’t know what to do. When he finally collected himself, he withdrew from the younger man and smiled faintly.
“I’m fine. I was just having a nightmare. ”
“I’ve been worried about you. It was good that I came by to check on you. ”
“Where is Ainosuke-sama? I went to get him, then everything turned black. ”
“You fell asleep in the car, and he carried you here.”
“I see.”
“Will you be alright? We can just ask someone to replace you for the banquet. I’m sure the senior butler wouldn’t mind.”
“I’ll be fine. It’s just a nightmare. I can handle myself. You can go. ”
“But Kikuchi-san…”
“I’m fine. No need to worry.”
—-
It was in the middle of the night. Tadashi has gone to the garden and to the empty swimming pool to have a smoke. He quietly gazes at the night sky as he takes a long drag on his cigarette. It was a good thing he kept Ainosuke’s cigarettes with him. He chokes on the smoke and coughs. It’s been a long time since he smoked, so he has to get used to it again. As the menthol spreads on his lips, the thoughts in his head are dispelled. He takes something out in his breast pocket and stares at it. It was the charm that Ainosuke gave him.
He stares at it fondly. It was another treasure he was going to keep for the rest of his life.
—-
There are only 3 days left before the banquet. Take visited the mansion to deliver Tadashi’s sleeping pills.
“You should just quit if the stress disrupts your sleep. Look at your face. ” Take says as he tries to touch Tadashi’s face. Tadashi swats his hand away gently.
“After the banquet, I’ll quit,”
Tadashi remembers his bond and how he still has no idea how to break it. It will undoubtedly be more difficult for him once he leaves.
“I found someone who can break your bond. Maybe you should talk with them. ” Take hands him a card.
“Thanks Take.”
That afternoon, Ainosuke went home with a battered face. When everyone saw him, they gasped in horror at the bruises on his face. They were worried about the banquet more than anything. Everything should be perfect.
“What happened to you Ainosuke-sama?” Tadashi rushed to Ainosuke’s side to take a look at how badly he was hurt.
“Why didn’t you go to the hospital?” Natsuno was trying to avoid Tadashi’s eyes as he scolded him.
“Stop it, this is nothing.” Ainosuke pushed Tadashi aside and went straight to his office.
Inside his office, he was searching for a first aid kit. He heard the door click and found Tadashi . Without saying anything, Tadashi forced Ainosuke to sit down on the couch. He took the first aid kit Natsuno gave him and dragged a chair where he could sit. Dumbfounded, Ainosuke just stared at him, irked.
“Sit still.”
Tadashi dabbed the gashes with alcohol.
“What happened?”
Ainoduke didn’t want to answer.
“It’s none of your business.”
Tadashi paused. Then dabbed again.
“Ouch!” Ainosuke flicked his hand away.
“I’m sorry.”
After a brief pause, Tadashi pressed, “Ainosuke-sama what happened?”
“Some lunatic suddenly attacked me on the street when I was about to enter the car. It completely caught me off guard so I couldn’t react on time.”
Tadashi leaned in closer as he dabbed the wounds. Ainosuke couldn’t look away. He hated himself for not being able to. He stared at Tadashi longer than he could handle. The silence was too much. Every flutter of Tadashi’s eyelids was like a curse.
Warm drops fell on Tadashi’s hand. He raised his eyes and saw that Ainosuke was crying. Tadashi moved closer and wiped the tears away.
“Don’t cry, Ainosuke-sama. I’m sorry.
"I know you’re disgusted with me and if you can’t bear to look at my face anymore, then I won’t complain if you fire me.”
Ainosuke didn’t say anything. He didn’t know what to say or think. He just felt that he had to get away from Tadashi. The love that he once felt for him was now replaced by something else. Ainosuke thought of nothing but how disgusting he was and how it turned out that he was just his father’s little whore.
“Tadashi, what did I ever do to you for you to hurt me like this?”
Tadashi doesn’t respond. He puts away the kit.
“I’m sorry.” He continues to wipe Ainosuke’s tears.
Apologies fall on deaf ears. Ainosuke’s hatred was accompanied by a debilitating desire to dominate and mark Tadashi as his. And all of it is focused on the force he uses as he grabs Tadashi’s wrist and pulls him in for a kiss.
When the kiss is stopped by Tadashi shielding himself with his hand Ainosuke scoffs, “What’s wrong? Didn’t you do something like this with my father? It’s easy for you right? This kind of thing, why don’t you entertain me like the whore that you are?”
The pain on Tadashi’s usually unemotional face was clear as day. The words Ainosuke said were like knives in his heart. It didn’t help that he felt disgusted with himself too. Tadashi wrenched his hand out of Ainosuke’s grip, but Ainosuke wouldn’t let go. As he was pushed down onto the couch, Tadashi felt even more disgusted. Shame and panic washed over him as he felt Ainosuke grab his belt.
“Don’t do this Ainosuke-sama!”
Ainosuke felt him trembling underneath him.
“What’s wrong? Weren’t you writhing underneath my father like this too? Why won’t you let me touch you? Why do you always reject me? Do you hate me that much? Tadashi… I loved you but you’ve taken that love for granted and chose my father instead. Am I not good enough for you?
"I would have done anything for you!”
Ainosuke grabbed Tadashi by the shoulders and shook him angrily, “Look at me! I look like him. Why didn’t you just choose me?
"Why him of all people? You know what he’s like. You know he is a monster! You know how he abuses me and now I find out that you… that you…"
The pain Tadashi heard in Ainosuke’s voice was hard for him to bear. He didn’t want to hurt him any further.”
“Ainosuke-sama…”
“I don’t understand you! What do you really feel about me? You tell me you love me. You respond to my kisses, but then it turns out you’re fucking my father, and you can’t get over his dick. Did he satisfy you well?”
“Tell me, did he fuck you so hard and well that you chose to break my heart over and over again?”
Ainosuke’s knuckles were white from gripping too much.
“Tadashi, what am I really to you? Am I just a replacement for my father? A replacement you don’t even have the guts to go out with?
"What am I to you? Tell me!”
Tadashi stares silently into Ainosuke’s eyes. Distraught and pained.
“If you’re his possession. I am his son. Now that he’s gone I own you. You’re mine! So tell me… tell me that I am enough for you!”
“You can’t say you love someone you view as property.” Tadashi pauses.
“You could have anyone you like. It doesn’t have to be me. You’re right, I’m just your father’s used-up toy.”
Saying it himself made tears pool at the corner of Tadashi’s eyes.
“It’s just as you said, I’m just a disgusting whore.”
Tadashi wiped away the tears that fell from Ainosuke’s eyes.
“Your tears and affection are wasted on someone like me. I told you I’m not the person you think I am. That’s why…” It took a lot of effort on Tadashi’s part to keep his voice from cracking.
“That’s why I thought you should find someone else to love.
"I know you won’t believe me, but I didn’t lie when I said I love you.
"I really do. That’s why, more than anyone, I wish for your happiness the most. Even if that happiness doesn’t include me.”
Illustration for @/HeyMellieJellie ’s Soulmark Au fic for the @TadaaiBigBang. It’s a lovely fic abt Ainosuke coming into terms w/ himself & finally becoming happy with Tadashi as he should.
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