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In the staff washroom, I bit down to keep from crying out, as my flying fingers stroked a climax out of my throbbing clit, my pussy wrenched and spasmed wildly, my orgasm washing over me, leaving me limp and giddy in its aftermath.

     I liked teaching 12th grade biology, and the hot young studs that made up part of the class would make my pussy ache. I had to duck into the staff washroom at least once a day, stroking out the burning fire in my pussy, imagining having the hottest students fucking me just made me want it even more. Four in particular caught my attention, they were all hunky, well built football players, and I needed to be fucked, and I wanted their cocks in particular.

     The day of my plan, I put on my sexiest bra and panties, black sheer lace, and slipped a dress over, hoping that I would be stripped down to my bra and panties, later this day. They were in the last class of the day, and when the bell rang, signalling the end of the school day, I asked Roger, Tom, Jack and Jerry to stay behind, making up some reason about needing to check an assignment I wanted them to do for me.

     When the rest of the class had departed, Tom asked, “So what can we do for you Miss Belsen?”

     I smiled at the question, and said, “I have a very special assignment, I want you all to strip and fuck me right here and now, I want a gang-bang, and I want your stiff cocks to fuck me every which way but loose!”

     I could see them all, interested but wary, wondering if this was some sort of trick. I smiled again, went over to the door, locked it securely, then unbuttoned my dress down the front, opened it, and let it slip off my shoulders. I could see them all gape at me, dressed in nothing but my black lace undies, I have kept my body in the same trim shape I had in college, at 5'9" tall, 135 pounds and a well shaped figure of 37 - 24 - 36. My tits are full, firm and real, and I like to keep my pubic region completely shaved and bare, for any lovers that want to eat my pussy.

     They seemed frozen, so I teased, “Well, come on boys, is it yes or no?”

     The clothes started flying off, and I was surrounded by four well built guys, all sporting very hard, very big cocks. Must be something about football players, or maybe I just got lucky, they are big. Roger looked to be at least 11 inches, Tom and Jack were packing foot long cocks, and Jerry just about made me breathless, it looked to be a 14 inch monster. The stripped off my undies, and hands, mouths, lips, and tongues were moving all over my flesh, setting off sizzles of pleasure wherever they made contact. I felt my body being picked up, then being placed on the floor, on my hands and knees, on top of the pile of clothes. I spread my legs wide apart, eager for them to open my aching pussy. I wanted Jerry to be the first, whenever I am fucked, I always need to fantasize to reach orgasm, and this time was no different. I had a certain fantasy in mind, and I got it rolling. 

     My mind flew off on the fantasy, I was in a barn, naked, tied up, gagged and blindfolded, arranged on a table in an ass up mating position. There are restraints attached to the table, and my wrists, elbows, knees and ankles are secured tightly to the table, making me unable to move. I could hear the clip clop of animal hooves being led up behind me, then fingers spreading a greasy lube around my cunt lips and right up the hole.

     “Well, how nice, we have another one who is about to find out how good it feels to get donkey fucked!” a voice chuckled.

     I can sense a large group of people around the table, to the cries and catcalls of the group, someone leads the donkey up behind me. There is a frame fastened to the table just above my backside and I can hear them as they lift the donkey’s front legs onto this. They must have played with the donkey’s cock to make him hard, as I feel the hard stiff prick against my ass as they pull it toward me. I feel the long knob end against the lips of my cunt. It forces them apart and begins to enter my hole as they guide it up me. I let out cries of pain as it stretches the walls of my cunt.

     In real life, at this point, Jerry got behind me, notched up against my opening, and slid it in, I let out a grunt of mixed pain and pleasure as he buried all 14 inches in, I could feel my cervix wrench as his cock forced the tight opening apart and surged in, his cock head buried deep in my womb, I was wonderfully stuffed.

     The fantasy and real life mesh, and as Jerry starts to ride me, the fantasy donkey cock begins painfully moving forward and back, in and out, drawing another grunt of pain from me. The donkey’s prick has been well greased, and after the first few abrasive thrusts, the fucking rhythm becomes easier. As Jerry rams my horny cunt, in my fantasy, the crowd holds me still while the donkey shoves his cock up me as far as he can get, in and out, fucking me just like a piston. I am starting to get turned on as I get fucked, now that my cunt has adjusted to the big stretch, and hands and fingers from the people watching start to caress my body, getting me turned on even more. Gentle hands finger my vulva around the donkey’s cock and my breasts, squeezing and fondling, stroking my nipples into rock hard excitement, and just as I am overcome with excitement and reaching my climax, the donkey starts to snort. The crowd knows what is happening as the donkey’s prick plows deep inside my cunt, and I feel it pulsing in me as he begins tossing off, I can feel the donkey’s throbbing prick pumping its hot spunk into me. The donkey has just beaten me to it, as I was just on the verge of climax as he did, my cunt is on fire as his juices squirt up me. I feel Jerry’s cock exploding, the feel of his load pouring hotly right into my womb, squirting his hot juices up me, and I howled in real life as my pussy explodes, spasming crazily, sucking and milking his 14 inch sausage for every drop I can get.

     As he pulled out, I got rolled over gently onto my back, and Tom’s foot long cock was ready and eager. He plunged it in, drawing a grunt of pure pleasure as I was once again wonderfully stuffed. Another fantasy jumped to mind, I was being taken against my will, a large burly man had kidnapped me, and wanted to use me for his sexual pleasure. He held my arms pinned above my head, and rammed his hard, arrogant prick inside me. I pretended to be outraged, but the truth was, I was loving it.

     He laughed, seeing that I was loving it, and sneered, “Yeah, you love it, don’t you, being forced to service my cock? I’m gonna blow my balls right up that tight hole of yours!”

     He rode me, until his cock swelled up, and as Tom’s cock explodes, gushing his steaming spunk, I exploded, howling with pleasure as my cunt clamps down tight on his prick, milking that foot long beauty, my horny cunt demanding every drop.

     I was really on a roll, I got Roger to lay back, and I mounted him, so I could ride him cowgirl style. My next fantasy, I was a governess in 18th century England, and I was giving my employer’s virginal son my special lessons in how to be a lover. I rode his hard, throbbing cock, feeling the hit of his large cock way up inside me. I varied the speed, and style, so I could make him last as long as possible, I was teaching him how to be a fabulous lover, one that would please his lady love, and as his teacher, I had to make sure he got it right. The hard cock reaming me out in real life felt the teasing, and growled with pleasure as I dragged it out, making his cock work up to a gusher. Finally, in my fantasy, I could feel my young lad’s cock bucking wildly, and as Roger pulled me down hard against his hips, humping up into me as his cock exploded, I explode too, my cunt buzzing wildly as he pumps thick streams, gushing a flood deep into my inner recesses.

     Jack was next, and I got into doggy style, for my last reaming and my last fantasy. As I was penetrated, as Jack’s foot long monster split me open, my fantasy had me sporting a foot long dildo, and ready to open up the tight, unfucked asshole of my last boyfriend, who had been a real arrogant prick. I tied him down into the doggy style, and with just a dab of lube on the dildo head, I notched it against his tight asshole, and powered it in. His howl of pain filled the air, as I slammed every inch of that foot long fucker right up there. I pulled back, and gave his asshole a real virgin busting ride, ramming into him over and over. I have a friend who is filming the whole thing, and I laugh as I see my last boyfriend’s cock start to jerk and squirt his cum all over the place, I imagine the embarrassment he would feel as his macho image takes a hit from being ass fucked, and enjoying it so much he shot his load, without so much as a hand stroking his prick. Jack’s cock starts to spray inside me in real life, I howl as I go over the edge, my cunt clamping tightly around his throbbing cock, milking that stiff beauty for every drop.

     I was glad to see that they quickly rose back up, and I had them stand in a line, so I could suck them all. Fuck, it was wild, big, cunt stretching, mouth opening horse cocks, all mine. I quickly ran my mouth up and down Jerry’s 14 inch monster, I worked hard, and managed to get in 10 inches before my mouth was totally full, and clamped my fingers around the last four inches, and gave him my best suck job. My fantasy had me being held prisoner, and the ransom was to suck all four guys, and give them the best head ever. And that is what I did, sucking and licking, making my mouth a tight sliding ring of pleasure, and was rewarded as four horny teens filled my mouth with 4 thick, juicy loads, spewing thick streams all over my tongue, giving me big mouthfuls of hot semen to swallow.

     Then, seeing that I was burning up, they turned the tables on me, and I had the pleasure of having them go down on me, one right after the other, making me writhe and shudder, cries of orgasm filling the room as each one licked me to climax, making teacher a hot and horny cunt, who just needed to cum, and cum, and cum!

After rereading the manga and looking at Misha’s role in story again, i realized that ‘rewriting the past’ seems to be important theme for the story and characters. (And it was also one of theme in Pandora Hearts too).

I also love that this panel tells a lot about how Misha sees the world. Everything looks shine but it looks like its covering the darkness, as if it looks like escapism from dark reality in a way.

Anyway, here we go.

Jung’s take on the Hero has a twist then. Archetypal heroism is ALWAYS accompanied by darkness. But here’s the real twist. A truly Jungian one. Darkness comes not only from outside the self – from all those trials and tribulations the present themselves through the course of our lives – but also from within The Self. What’s more, this is the most potent test of all. It is our own degenerate nature which above all else, must be exposed, acknowledged, and if not defeated, then certainly fought against. (Source)

In many hero-villain stories, villains are meant to symbolise hero’s biggest flaws. That they are the dark side of heroes, the side they dont want to face. The flaw they dont want to adress.

Heroes of this story is our protoganists, Vanitas and Noe. Vanitas has classic self-sacrificing behavour that heroes has, he is just the more tragic and dark version of it cause of his violent side. Noe is the same cause of his simple desire to help others but just like Vanitas, he is not just pure good, he is gray.

And when it comes to villains, well, we have characters like Doctor Moreu, Teacher, Ruthven, Faustina who became cursed and steal names etc etc. Just like any other story, vthere are different kind of villains. Most of them is still a mystery to us but anyway. There are just cruel-natured villains like Teacher and Dr Moreou. Ruthven is mystery but he is meant to be parallels with Noe. (They both wanted vampires-humans war to stop). And Faustina is most likely tragic victim who end up loosing herself but her story is mystery too.

There are also characters like Mikhail and Astolfo who is on the wrong side and doing wrong things but not because they are evil but because of their tragic backstories. They are villains too in a way. Astolfo is parallel with Vanitas, he symbolise the old self of him, they only choose different paths cause of destiny in a way. Meanwhile, Mikhail is both parallel with Noe and Vanitas, as i and other people already mentioned.

The Shadow is not so much the hero’s nemesis, as his evil twin. It is that irrational, unpleasant and unpalatable side of our nature that we all possess. It is our own internal and unincorporated darkness which must be encountered and assimilated. According to Jung, it is precisely because the shadow is an integral part of our whole self, that it becomes imperative for us to know that it exists. In fact, it is impossible for it not to exists. And this knowledge seems to be entirely lacking in most of us. (Source)

As villain, Mikhail’s purpose in story is rewritting the past and this is exactly why i think he is the shadow of heroes. The dark side, the flaw of heroes that they dont want to face or adress because we know that Vanitas and Noe try to rewrite the past why projecting that past onto people around them. Even though, Mikhail is the antagonist for them, that they dont agree with his purpose and actions, they do exactly same thing in a way. (Not just rewriting the past, Vanitas and Noe act violent too and doing wrong things too so.)

Repetition compulsion is a psychological phenomenon in which a person repeats an event or its circumstances over and over again. This includes re-enacting the event or putting oneself in situations where the event is likely to happen again. This “re-living” can also take the form of dreams in which memories and feelings of what happened are repeated, and even hallucinated.(Source)

As an example;

Vanitas putting himself onto dangerous situtions for no logical reason. Just like when he admitted that he is the kin of blue moon to the all vampires. He is putting himself onto danger cause he is used ti living his life in danger. (+ Him pushing people is also cause of fear of loosing those people).

Or even the scene where Misha forced Noe to drink his blood. Drinking blood thing is sexual activity in a way so forcing Noe to harass himself is because thats what happenned to him when he was child. “Then, here, you can take my blood”. Offering himself as if he is some kind of “object”. He is sexual abuse victim and this is how he was treated and he unconciously repeats his trauma.

Or even the reason Misha is choosing an adult (teacher) even though he uses him. But unlike their past, this time they choose those awfull situtions to feel more powerfull but in the end, they repeat their trauma.

“We repeat what we do not repair.” —Christine Langley Obaugh (Source)

So i would like to focus on Vanitas projecting his past onto Jeanne and Noe and a little Noe projecting his past onto Vanitas.

Main reason why Vanitas chose Noe and Jeanne is because he thought he was so sure they wouldnt like him and he unconciously saw the traces of pasts in them.

First, with Jeanne.

The reason he found her interesting is because ‘she became weak cause she found someone to protect’. Jeanne’s desire to protect Luna is similar to Vanitas’s desire to protect Misha. He saw his past self in her and found her interesting.

- (Chloe-Vanitas parallels too.)

He also said he found her pretty attractive, he is right but its kinda weird that he is attractive to someone who is similar to his brother. A woman who exactly look like Mikhail, even their aura, their cute behavours, expresions seems to be identical.

Mikhail-Jeanne panels looks so identical, its hard to differentiate.

They both idolise Vanitas. And the way Vanitas try to look cool and impress them is similar.

(Actually similarities between those two and other things made me write this analysis.)

Compulsive repetition of the trauma may provide a temporary sense of mastery or even pleasure (but ultimately leads to chronic feelings of helplessness and a sense of being bad and out of control). (Source)

And he also made a promise to her, that he will kill her, before she hurted someone she cares about (Luca). Vanitas was so familiar with that emotion. Theory, whether Luna or he hurt someone they love (maybe Misha), thats why Vanitas thinks he should kill ‘that person’ before they become something monstrious and hurt someone they love. He projects what happenned to him, Luna and Misha on her issues. Vanitas most likely failed to kill ‘that person’ before the whatever happenned so he is trying to fix that mistake by helping Jeanne. By rewriting the past.

And even he is giving her a promise, just like how he promised Misha in the past. The promise Vanitas failed to keep. So this time he is making a promise that he thinks he can keep.

Later, the scene when Vanitas fell in love with Jeanne, the moment he felt warmth. That smile of Jeanne is exactly look like Misha’s smile with Luna and Vanitas, the panel where Misha said he likes warm things.

And with Noe.

He found him interesting with his cute expressive personality, (Just like Luna and Misha).

Jeanne is a character who is identical to Mikhail while Noe is more identical to Luna. Noe has black skin, white hair with mature, tall, big body just like Luna. He looks like the male version of Luna. (Yeah, Luna doesnt have gender but still, she looks like female).

They both airhead, adults with manchild personality, they cant handle things by theirselves so other people need to take care of them. + Mikhail’s past, worldview, positvitism is parallel with Noe too.

Also both Luna and Noe are the first people who really gave a choice to Vanitas and understand him. Also Vanitas show his vulnerable side to them and open up. Vanitas rely on him, the way he uses to rely on Luna.

The scene when Noe gave blanket to Vanitas to make him warm is also similar how Luna gave him blanket too, again to keep him warm, showing that he is loved.

And again, just like Jeanne case, Vanitas wants to be killed by Noe, before he become something monstrious. This time, he takes the opposite role. Just like how he killed Luna before its too late, he wants Noe to kill him.

Even the Tarte Tarin scene, Vanitas making sweets for Noe is parallel with the times he did for Luna and Misha.

+ Mikhail wasnt wrong when he thought his brother is kinda replacing him :’))).

We know Noe too. How he projects his failure to save Louis onto Vanitas. By protecting Domi and by trying to reaching out to Vanitas. Louis and Vanitas also looks identical, not by apperances but characters. They both suicidal kids who is full of self hatred, secrets, desire to be saved but wont ask for help, they both jerks who push other people away.

Even the way Noe meets them is similar. They both acted like jerks and Noe become violent agaisnt them but only to eventually be fond of them. + Also Noe is projecting his relationship with teacher on Vanitas cause of slave mentality. Noe was slave and he was bought bu teacher, thats why he tends to obey and idolize his master, this is what he does with Vanitas too, sometimes. He also acts extreme, just like the time he violently hurt Misha, just because of what Vanitas said to Noe in Gevaudan Arc and his possesive feelings of Vanitas, i think. I really hope eventually he realize how much messed up this is.

I am sure that there is more, the more we look it more, the more we will find out.

(I wanted to use more pics to show similarities between panels and scenes but you get the point and its tiring).

Humans seek comfort in the familiar. Freud called this repetition compulsion, which he famously defined as “the desire to return to an earlier state of things.” (Source)

As much as its looks messed up, its actually realistic. People in real life tend to choose situtions and people that they are familiar. People might (often) choose partner who is similar to their family members (parental figure, sibling figure) or ex partners/companion. Just Noe’s feeling familiar with Vanitas cause of his childhood companion. And both Jeanne and Noe are meant to be Vanitas’s partners. He chose them cause of the familiar feeling he had for his found family but of course, Vanitas doesnt see Noe as parental figure, the way Luna became for him. Jeanne is not sister-brother figure the way Misha was/is for him. They are meant to be his partners (maybe more equal relationship). Even though its good thing that Vanitas found more people he can connect, his relationship with both Jeanne and Noe are toxic, unlike the healthy relationship he had with Luna and Misha, before the accident.

Of course, besides all that ‘projecting their issues thing’, they had other moments. After all, Vanitas, Louis, Mikhail, Noe, Luna, Jeanne, despite their similarities, they are different people. And i think they grown to each others by knowing each others after some time. With Noe too. He is learning to pay attention to the person in front of him. They still learn. They still lack of self awareness. I think Vanitas has the some/a little self awareness but he still does it anyway while Noe doesnt seem to has that self awareness yet. They still try to rewrite the past with each others but at the same time, the more story goes, they learn to let go of it. As example, Vanitas’s saying to give up on forcing Noe to what he wants him to do.

Anyway, i hope they realize how much they project past onto each others, stop doing it and looking at the people in front of them. I hope Vanitas doesnt leave Misha behind while doing this too. Also they should realize that this is what Mikhail is trying to do and realize him, empathize with him and trying to help him (to move on) too. Its interesting that at least Misha is more honest about what he wants and what he does with his desire to live, with his desire to literally rewritting the past and with his desire to be happy. Well, usually, shadows are honest so they all should do.  Misha is more associated with life than Vanitas who just wants to die, i love how their trauma push them to opposite ways but at the same time, Misha always somehow keeps giving Vanitas a reason to live, even its force and he brings the kindness inside of him. This is what Vanitas should learn too.