Hey guys, so here is my little edit. I only removed the backpack (and repainted parts of the t-shirt), everything else is pretty much the same. I started on the mesh… so long ago, I don’t really remember. XD The re-painted parts of the texture I finished when I posted a few days ago… before my game died and I had reinstall everything once again. T_T
It’s actually been so long, since I made Bodyshop content, I could hardly remember how to link the mesh to the files. ^^; So please poke me if I made a mistake somewhere. Btw. in case you can spot the missing texture on the underside of the t-shirt in the above picture, I already fixed that; but I had forgotten when I took the pictures.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! I DAMN FLATLINED!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I NEED SOME AIR
Happy pride month to all ! With a special heads up for my fellow aro-ace folks, we rule too !
Funny story, but a few years ago I identified as bi. I always wondered if I was “bi enough” though (I was), cause I needed to have a strong emotional connection to be attracted to women, but not for men. It was all very confusing and I wasn’t 100% comfortable. The biphobia and “what no you’re probably gay or straight you don’t know it yet ;)” was horrible too. Please don’t do that.
Turned out the idea of romance and sex was all well and good but that the second I applied it to myself, it got extremely uncomfortable. Like really. I tried to date, cause I liked that guy -but in the end it wasn’t the same ‘like’ or 'attraction’ as what most of my friends experienced. And it did not translate to kissing or hand holding, I still hated hugs with a passion, but I forced myself. Constantly wondering how to act, what I should do, etc. I already have anxiety and occasional panic attacks, well guess what, it got even stronger. Yay.
All the 'just do what you want and be yourself’ didn’t help, and made me grow distant instead. I sabotaged every romantic relationship because, surprise ! I didn’t want them, no matter how much I thought I did. I hurt people. I was sorry. I didn’t know what was wrong. I avoided being touched cause I knew where that led and 'meh no nope’, unless I was tipsy enough not to care. And I’m so very happy that I don’t feel like I have to do all this anymore.
We’re fed romance and sex being the end all be all of life through fiction, all the damn time, and that’s… That’s okay actually, I love to read about romance and attraction. But please always try to keep in a corner of your mind that you’re not missing out, or missing anything in yourself either. Don’t listen to all the assholes asking you why you’re still single. You’re doing great. Don’t force things. And maybe one day it will change, or maybe not, fluidity and all that -but there’s NO need to wait for it or wish for it.
Keep being you and keep being confident ! Here, throwing a half-burnt cookie batch your way. ❤️
Today three guys asked for my hand in marriage. The first was kind of a loser nerd, the second was a sexy cowboy, and the third was my crush (we made out lol). I wish polygamy was legal.
