#thewriter post

I finished season 2 today, so now I’m gonna work on cropping Kotetsu from season 1 so I can get started on his blog. This image is very important, and I’ll be damned if I don’t find a use for it.

Iconing is gonna be the biggest hurdle for me, so I might as well do that before anything else. I don’t know how long it will take for me to finish this, but I’m hoping it won’t take toolong. The blog itself won’t be spoiler free, but the spoilers willbe tagged for at least a month or two.

[ ooc ] Hey, so, KH peeps: can we talk about Ienzo’s placement in that art?

Because I have questions.

Gee, I wonder what I’ve been watching now that the new season’s on Netflix.

I really need to hurry up and create icons, docs, and stuff for this man. The icons will take the longest amount of time, honestly, which is what I’m dragging my feet on. Thankfully, I’ve got a lot of his tags figured out, which I think are pretty wonderful.

Once I have everything ready, which will definitely happen a while after I finish season 2, I’ll do a soft launch. I don’t know if I’ll have my writing mojo back by then, but I’m hoping so!

Hi! This is Kai speaking.

So, I know I’m not writing much right now, but I am still present on the dash here and there. I’d like to ask y’all for something that’s in my rules across all of my blogs. I know it’s a courtesy, so I’d just greatly appreciate this from ya:

See the circled things? Not safe for work stuff and things that are considered slurs. That last one especially applies to the word b*tch. It really gets under my skin, makes me uncomfortable, and I stop wanting to engage. With NSFW stuff, I like having a choice about whether or not I engage with it. If my brain is in a place where it can handle that stuff, then I sometimes do. If it’s not, then it squicks me out, and I don’t want to see it.

Make sense? If not, then feel free to ask for more information.

You don’t have to use these exact tags. I’m just asking for something to blacklist. Thanks in advance!

                               I am selfish
                                 I am broken
                                    I am cruel
                        I am all the things
                             they might havesaidto you

[ ooc ] So, I have a question for my tumblr friends here, specifically those who have used binders before.

I am finally getting around to purchasing a binder for myself soon (from gc2b so it doesn’t break the bank). It will be my first one ever. My question is: for a first time wearer, are the half binders more comfortable than the tank binders?

Thanks y'all. Just wanna start being a little more comfy with myself when I leave the house, yanno?

mini-update

Shitty things in my personal life are making it hard to write. Every time I look at my asks or drafts, my brain just doesn’t want to. It has nothing to do with the draft contents or anything like that. It’s just depression and my personal life not letting up.

And my brain going “does anyone actually like my writing? Or me as a person? Am I actually a good writer?” You know, usual imposter syndrome + depression stuff.

Also, remember how I said Horizon Forbidden West would consume me? Yeah, it’s doing that. If you want to hear me ramble about the game, then feel free to bug me on disco. I’m having a lot of fun, and I haven’t even explored a lot of the map.

I’m gonna be stuck at my computer for the next two days. Very minimal time to play more Horizon and explore the map, which is the real crime here. Considering this, plus the hours I worked earlier in the week, add up to 45.75 hours, I am hoping this counts as overtime pay, and that my next paycheck is a good one. Well, as good as one can be for someone who’s paid minimum wage to work miracles.

Since I’m gonna be here, feel free to bug any of the muses. I’m not really able to write long things right now, so short things are best. I’ll mostly be on Roy (flameleads), but you can poke me on Aqua, Riza, and Vanitas too (stormreign, hawksights, and voidreigned respectively).

[ ooc ] In case any of my fellow Gen/shin players are curious, this is the ridiculousness known as my character selection. Bottom row not included in the picture: Xinyan, Amber, and Yun Jin.

In case it’s not obvious, I really like going for the characters who can hit fast—usually swords or polearm users. I don’t typically use claymores because of that (Eula was gonna be the exception to that, but, I sadly did not get her). Yoimiya and Ganyu are my exceptions to not using archers too, the former being an absolute powerhouse if I’m being honest. Both pair well with Raiden Shogun (as so many characters do).

I love rambling about this stuff, okay.

Nine days until the girl. I am so excited!

Nine days until Kai disappears completely from the internet to let a video game consume them.

Need some cuteness in your life? Say no more. Please have my cats being adorable.

[ ooc ] Look who I managed to pull today!

I have no good weapons for him, and I only managed to get him to level 40, but Grandpa Geo is here!

And just like him, I’m going to be so broke.

I need to do this across all of my blogs. This depressive episode is really kicking my butt, and it’s making it really hard to write, much less do anything else I enjoy. I’ve also been letting my self-care, and care for my apartment, go by the wayside, so that needs to change.I know I just started writing on a couple of these blogs. While I do want to keep writing, I can’t force it. I’ll be back eventually. Just need to get my head and heart sorted out.

I’ll check in from time to time, and I may post a reply here and there if I’m up to it, but, otherwise, please hold everything for me. Yes, that includes asks and such. Thank you.

-Kai (and their clowder)

[ ooc ] y'all, Genshin gave me Xiao and Ganyu today. I’m fucking thriving.

I already have Amo’s Bow too, and I leveled it up to 80 in preparation for this.

I’m so excited. Gonna level up my queen, y'all.

@suigneris: please know that I can’t read, and when you said javier is a harpy eagle in your animal shifters post, I read it as happy eagle

you’re welcome

Look, I’m going to disappear after February 18th of next year. That’s just a fact.

And it will be entirely Aloy’s fault.

[ ooc ] In other news, please have a cat to improve your morning. She jumped on my desk without warning this morning, and she demanded entertainment. So, I provided.

I forgot I hadn’t updated my muse list in months. Or my pinned post. Oops.

Well, that’s fixed now. Everything is updated and a bit shorter. Vanitas is currently my in-progress side-blog. I’ve been working on getting tags squared away for him. Once they’re all set, and I have a theme all done, I’ll launch him into the sun.

Thanks for bearing with me, y’all.

Update to the post I made last night.

Triggers still apply: death, doctors, end of life, hospitals, illness, medical stuff.

Nana passed away at 2:35AM this morning. My brain has processed this, but my emotions have not. I do not know what the plans are in regards to a funeral and whatnot, but that’s where I’m at. I am having thoughts and feelings, but they’re just… sort of distant. I don’t want to write them down right now. If I’m being honest, I don’t want to deal with them.

I’ll probably be quiet today. May or may not reblog memes on Roy just for quick stuff. We shall see. Thanks for being patient with me.

I don’t have a suitable icon for this. So, I’m just gonna type this up without an icon, put most of it under a cut since it has some heavy topics, and then I’m gonna lurk around. The topics will be tagged, but I’ll also list them before the cut just in case since I find that helps.

TLDR: My family and I are going through it, y’all. Activity is gonna be all over the place, and, quite frankly, I don’t know what it’s gonna look like. Everything’s been wicked stressful.

What this post will mention: death, doctors, end of life, hospitals, illness, medical stuff.

On Friday, I found out that my Nana (maternal grandmother) was in the hospital, specifically the ICU, with a list of medical issues. The major ones are her enlarged heart and kidney failure. Per my father, the following 48 hours were crucial to determining what would happen next. Either way, and my aunt later confirmed this, she would not recover from this, and the better option was that she would return home and enter hospice care.

On Saturday, my husband and I drove down to stay with my in-laws so we could visit her in the hospital. I got to see her then for over an hour. I didn’t see her on Sunday, but I got to see my grandfather and one of my aunts, who gave me more info about medications, what she’s been dealing with, and that, again, she wouldn’t recover from this. I saw her today for about 20-30 minutes before my husband and I went home. She did seem better today than Saturday, and my aunt confirmed that through text too.

A little over an hour ago, my mother called and gave me an update. She and my father were on the way to the hospital. One of her sisters (she has two) got an update from the hospital that my Nana will likely not make it through the night. Right now, I’m still processing that. It hasn’t quite hit yet. My brain just remembers seeing her this morning and that she was doing better. Or, I thoughtshe was doing better.

I don’t know what my schedule is gonna look like anymore. For now, I’m going to operate on status quo and keep my work schedule as it is. My in-laws are up to speed, and I’ll work from their place if I need to. Writing is… I’m not doing much of it right now. I won’t make any promises on activity. I know this can and probably will affect my writing, so I’m going to take it a day at a time. Thank you in advance for being patience with me.

In case you want my discord, I’m available there. I can’t promise quick responses, but this is where you can find me:

Lore Olympus brainrot over here.

Anyway, that’s all. I’ll reblog this on Roy, but that’s it. See ya around.

How was this URL not taken already? How?

I am going to hoard this for a while and work on it who knows when. I’m in the process of making Vanitas his own sideblog first, which requires me to get his tags in order and find a theme that works for him. I miss my chaos gremlin, so he needs to come back.

Vanitas has been bugging me to make him a sideblog for eons, and I’ve been struggling with a URL.

Then, this came to me.

No, I will probably not keep it, but it’s making me laugh, okay.

me:has been out at my company for four years
me:started asking my company to use they/them pronouns for me four years ago
me:had meetings with HR and whatnot about it
me:has had their pronouns in their slack status and email signature for at least a year, if not more
manager at my company: still uses she/her for me despite being part of those meetings

Apparently, I get paid minimum wage for minimum respect. I don’t even know how to address this to be honest. When I first came out, I was met with hostility from my coworkers, and management and HR weren’t the least bit helpful. So, do I just shove myself back in the closet and pretend I’m not trans? Because honestly, until I can safely leave this job, I don’t feel like I have another choice.

Idk. I’m gonna try and do some writing.

@muses-of-kira​

Kira,

It’s been almost two years since we met, and yet it feels like you’ve been part of my life for even longer. That is how integral I consider our friendship to my life. What started as short interactions between two muses, two people who didn’t know each other, became so much more—writing an arc that is the equivalent of a novel together. I still regularly go back and read it just for the hell of it.  

Our writing isn’t all there is to our friendship, though. You’ve shared much more with me over the course of time like passion for music, art, cosplay, video games, and more. Some of my most listened to artists and tracks on Spotify are directly influenced by you (Citizen Soldier, anyone?).Your art is incredible, and it continues to amaze me with every single piece that you do—like how you can just bring these beloved characters to life while making them yours. The love and dedication you put into your cosplay, and just seeing you thrive, has me itchingto get my guitar out again and play, something I haven’t done in years. 

Thank you for that. I’ve missed wanting to play.

Getting to know you as a person has been a privilege. I’ll always feel honored that you chose to have me in your life, and that you continue to do so. I’m glad I can be there for you not just during the good times, but during the not-so-good times and the “meh” times. I’m not here just when you’re happy or you’re doing well. I’m here for the long haul because I want to be. I choose to be here. No one’s making me. Likewise, I want to have you in my life too during the good, the bad, and the meh. Your presence means the world to me, and, whether or not you know it, you’ve helped ease a lot of my burdens over the last several months. You did that just by being there.

Thank you for that. Seriously. I can’t thank you enough.

I’ll always hope that every day is a good one for you. On this one in particular, though, I want to celebrate you and how awesome you are. This was the day you entered the world, so it deserves some recognition. I truly hope you have an amazing day today. I love you so very much, and I want the world to see just how awesome you are. ❤

Happy Birthday, Kira!

Love, always,

Kai