#words i wish i could say
(A letter to a special someone…ps I’m not saying his name. Also has nothing to do with infj, this is just me getting things off my chest)
Dear X,
Our friendship is the greatest thing I have bestowed. To that, I am so thankful. You are my best friend, we share the same sense of humor, I enjoy sharing memes and talking about our lives with each other. I find myself looking forward on seeing you again, every day almost.
We have been friends for a very long time now, and the one thing I admit here that I have a secret, a secret I don’t think I can ever tell you. It can ruin things for us, a friendship I longed to have for the longest time.
But my secret is my feeling for you… it goes deeper than just friendship.
I long for a day we end up together, you ask me out on dates, on adventures. I long to spend all my time with you. I have had crushes before, feelings for someone once before, but never have I felt the way I feel with you. It’s like the ones I thought I liked before, it was nothing, it didn’t mean anything, not compared to my feelings for you.
You respect me more than anyone has in my life. You are kind, your smile brightens my day more than the sun in the desert. You care for me when I’m at my weakest, caring for my feelings when no one, not even myself would. You are generous, wanting to help every single person in need, even if they probably don’t deserve it. You see the goodness, the light in everyone you meet, even if it was dim, you still see it and appreciate it. You are a gentlemen, holding doors for me, holding my bag even if it has only my wallet and phone inside. Your laugh makes my heart feel warm, knowing it’s not a fake laugh, but more genuine, and makes me want to jump around the room like I’m 16 again. You make things seem possible when it may not at the moment. You have helped me in so many ways, become a better person. You make me want to be better person, seeing the way you are, the way you treat others.
That is why I could never be with you.
I say these things to reflect my own feelings, and to let them go, down the stream so I can just enjoy our friendship now, not wanting to hurt it, not wanting to get myself hurt with it.
I know you will never read this. You will never see how much the small things you do have a strong impact on me, how you have a great impact on me. You are an amazing person, and I hope the best for you. I hope that you meet someone who is perfect for you. Who reflects the same kind, generous, and respectful personality as you possess. I hope you find someone who make you feel like perfection exists.
Yours truly,
A friend
