Ok, so I tried to get better and it didn’t help, so I’m back, hoping that this time I won’t be so fucking weak, I feel much more in control, and I’ll be busy af for the next 6-18 months which means that I won’t even have the time to binge!!!

Hate that time of the day

So, I think I’ll die cause I’m fucking disgusting and fat and I hate to see myself in a mirror,I’ll be emotionally eating for the rest of the day, bye.

Bitch I’m back, on popular demand (jk no one notice that I was gone)

My reality, anyways thanks everyone that’s been supporting me, even though is in such horrible moment in life, I feel bad for creating this space, but I just need to laugh at myself to avoid having a breakdown, every one that’s going through the same, I just wanna say good luck and I hope you get better, I’m in the shit but you are welcome to talk to me anytime

That will take a long time

anorexia

/ˌanəˈrɛksɪə/

noun: anorexia

1 lack or loss of appetite for food (as a medical condition).

◦ an emotional disorder characterized by an obsessive desire to lose weight by refusing to eat.

bulimia

/bjʊˈlɪmɪə,bʊˈlɪmɪə/

noun: bulimia; noun: bulimia nervosa

1 an emotional disorder characterized by a distorted body image and an obsessive desire to lose weight, in which bouts of extreme overeating are followed by fasting or self-induced vomiting or purging.

Me: sometimes starves, sometimes binges, feels like 800 cals is a LOT, but sometimes eats up to 2000 cals with no consequences, sometimes is so sad to even be hungry, other times just wants to eat everything on earth.

Me: A BIG FAT FAILURE

It’s funny how I’m not sad anymore, I just don’t care, I don’t feel anything anymore, and I’m sure that my friends are sick of me

I’ve been in a non stop circle of depression binges, and literally stuff my face until I’m sick, so I suppose that means that I don’t have an eating disorder, even though that I feel disgusting and gross afterwards, I’m honestly at the lowest point in my life, and I can’t stop myself, is it only me??

True

I’m so tired of this shit…

I tried

Hahahha you have no idea

My ugly face…

You can stop eating and not die Susan!!