#big world

Today’s society taught us that only you alone can achieve something, even if it means to sacrifice everything.

I read an article about loneliness in a Jesus magazine while I ate. None of my coworkers believed in Jesus. We made fun of the earnest and plain-looking women who congregated in the religious section, one of them offering advice while the other protested mildly, their quilted Bible covers in paisley prints. Sometimes I got the urge to join them. It wasn’t because there was something missing. The something missing was the plight of humanity–any idiot knew that–it couldn’t be filled with food or alcohol or drawing blood from skin. I just missed having friends.

FRAGMENTVM “Fast Trains,”Big World

Cum edebam scriptum de solitudine in libello Christiano legi. Fidem nullam in Christo comites mei habebant, quibuscum simplices inornatasque in parte rerum divinarum congregatas irridebam. Earum quae Biblia textilibus domesticis tecta portabant, alia consilium nobis dedit, alia paulum sollicitata est. Interdum impulsa sum ut cum eis me coniungerem, non causa qua summa desiderarem, quilibet enim fatuus intelligat ab omnibus peti summa, quae non possunt inveniri cibo vel vino vel sanguine e carne hausto; amicos vero desiderabam.

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When I was eating I read a written piece about loneliness in a little Christian book. My comrades, with whom I laughed at the simple and unadorned women congregated in section of divine things, had no faith in Christ. Of these women who carried Bibles covered with domestic fabrics, some gave us advice, others were a little disturbed. Sometimes I was driven to join them, not for the reason that I longed for higher things, for any stupid person understands that the higher things are sought by all, which cannot be found with food or wine or blood drawn from flesh; in truth, I longed for friends.